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  • Greetings.









    βενεγ



    Hyde-o-Metre: 0% Hyde.
    I feel nothing. I am gone.





    "Jaar chäk anora nolétorés."
    "Don't choke on your aspirations."






    Those you love the most will leave you
    Behind where they can't see you
    You wish that they would vanish but they just won't go away

    Like tainted blood they seize you
    Like dried ice burning, freeze you
    You know that you're outlandish but you can't help it when you say

    Just go away



    ~ Vanish
    Red#


    What a wonderful life~
    What do you feel?
    Nothing. It's all vacant here.
    Come now. You can't feel a void.
    I am a void.
    Of course not! That's absurd! You are a human being.
    Who has forgotten how to be human.


    What do you feel..?
    Nothing.










    Elliott/ Transgender/ Male / Pansexual
    British
    / Single


    they/them | he/him





    Awesome brother ♥

    Best friend



    Leia | Kimmy | Ozzie
    Kiki | Brine | Marcie | Evi
    Sep | Myra | Iskey | Eddy
    Ebby | Fennec | Fanjawi
    Emma | Eliot | Jared | Jenna
    Stardust | Jordan |



    OCs
    Star Trek

    Imzadi | Felisa | Oharaa | Bethany



    Children of Lighte

    Beverly | Red | Coillia | Ukidi | Cruzäde
    Yenowine | Nerys | Silvia | Genesis 7
    Sioloche | Holly | Asheyl | Muzzy



    Animals

    Verily | Onyma



    Other Stories

    Sola | Calluna | Tilda | Ember
    Caliensi | Kerstie | Elenwen
    DyAna | Tana | Beverlee




    Miscellaneous

    Lexicon | Tamriel | XO-16 | Natura
    Ayrenn | Joelle | Belladonna | Arely
    Nebulous | Clara | Jubilant | Equinox
    Troy | Aliyah | Naiadel |



    Adopted

    Hoolu | Saylon | Mamertine
    Ophelia | Ana | Majel | Clamentine
    Mai | Coral | Serenity | Dolores



    Un-Skinned

    Laura | Akolai | Markus | Aaron/Ian
    DiKor | Monoríel | Alka | Lizza
    Yvel'tcha | Ember | Mono | Kahstral
    Khanaver | Alanis | Devona | Hanlah
    Kearny | Jesse | Nala/Tako | Meg
    Murazor | Great Fire | Seneca | Raven
    Grace | Zeny | Jen | Eva | Taylor | Celestia
    Tami | Elisabeth

    Artists who deserve more love c;
    Rutroh
    Keeks
    Paradiscal
    ebullience
    O K A
    NZBabyWonka
    Spectre
    _September_
    Azuliaa
    Lovelylisa123
    ElvenJedi
    Marcel
    kirei
    mrloverman
    Rivanna16
    Flawsaken
    Fireflower500
    GoldenGlider534
    Uhhh
    SoulStab
    UnwantedSoul
    SelfDefense
    Clewii
    FlowerFell_Frisk
    TinyBlookyPieces
    DimondKatie
    Glitchxr_
    TheJeffreyCam
    Lisa570
    Phosphor
    Han Solo
    TracyItk
    LavenderPixie
    ImAngelCookie
    Bodzilla
    Neii
    purplescales
    Gemira
    Fluffyyyy
    ArtisticOcean
    WaterNymphy
    Diversity
    rewbug
    DerpySelfie
    LithiumSedai
    AddiJ
    J a r e d
    ebby











    Requests: Closed
    Trades: Closed
    Commissions: Closed
    Interviews: Open
    Friendships: Always open ;)





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    Fallen angels at my feet,
    Whispered voices at my ear.
    Death before my eyes,
    Lying next to me I fear.
    She beckons me,
    Shall I give in?
    Upon my end shall I begin,
    Forsaking all I've fallen for,
    I rise to meet the end.



    - Unknown



    About Me

    Aye, hello. ^^


    My name is Elliott, but you can call me Elli or Beverly if you are more comfortable with that.

    I am a Gemini.

    I am very proudly British and yes, I love my tea. c;

    I am pansexual. I am also transgender (female to male). Please do not call me she/her. I am NOT female.

    Preferred pronouns are he/him, but they/them will suffice as well.


    Religiously, I believe in God, but I am essentially a mystic. I believe in middle-realms, other forms of life, daemons, ghosts/spirits, and psychic/telekinetic gifts. I do have a tendency to be somewhat superstitious. I am terrified of blood moons and eclipses; and I believe that one can in fact communicate with the departed if they wish.







    I do not choose friends because of rank, popularity, or "coolness". If I like you, I will be your friend. If I don't, I won't. If I despise you (which is extremely unlikely), I will likely block you or simply delete your messages.


    Family
    Sarchazm
    Monii
    Prince Oceanus


    Very special friends:

    Leia111
    Labyrinth_
    Azuliaa
    Ozziekitty
    _September_


    Friends:

    Havingfun_ISKEY
    Stella
    Marcel
    bodyaches
    ArtisticOcean
    tourjourspur_
    FennecFox
    Azie
    IcarianPrince
    ebullience
    Fanjawi
    NZBabyWonka
    Keeks
    Uhhh

    Faithhhh
    LaurenAngels_







    The Monstercat Fanclub

    Gone4Good
    IcarianPrince
    Anymore
    Rivanna16
    toujourspur_
    FoxMcCloud
    Skeptiical
    Gorvell
    ScarletBox
    Phosphor
    Asiryne_
    Estel
    Oddity
    Labyrinth
    kirei









    Relational Status: Single and not looking.







    Roleplay Characters
    Name: Beverly
    Age: 20-ish
    Race: Rasîk
    Gender: Female
    Preference: Bisexual
    Status: Married
    Personality: Volatile, quick-tempered, bipolar, split personality, wild, menacing, cold, powerful, swift-witted, sarcastic, etc.



    Name: Verily Ringwood
    Age: 402
    Race: Silver wolf
    Gender: Female
    Preference: Lesbian
    Status: Widowed
    Personality: Quiet, solemn, cold, sensitive, arcane, protective, secluded, wise, insecure, sceptical, superstitious, detached, abrupt



    Name: Secunda Ringwood
    Age: 7
    Race: Shapeshiftere (grey wolf/human)
    Gender: Female
    Preference: Aromantic/asexual
    Status: Single
    Personality: Artistic, bashful, quiet, eager, imaginative, resourceful, timid, gentle, insecure, compassionate, tenderhearted, empathetic, resolute, optimistic, etc.



    Name: Bloode Moon (Yenowine Aldermoon)
    Age: Immortal
    Race: Elementale
    Gender: Agender
    Preference: Asexual
    Status: Single
    Personality: Dark, sadistic, volatile, cold-hearted, amoral, masochistic, obsessive, ambitious, oppressive, lonesome, vengeful, sociopathic, quiet, temperamental, cunning, etc.



    Name: Geneth (Genmai Notholoi)
    Age: 87
    Race: Indigo
    Gender: Female
    Preference: Heterosexual
    Status: Single
    Personality: Insecure, timid, arcane, cold, abrupt, compassionate, sceptical, volatile, quiet, illiterate, ingenious, resourceful, traumatised, etc.



    Name: Akolai Solaris
    Age: 44
    Race: Radiante [One]
    Gender: Male
    Preference: Pansexual
    Status: Taken
    Personality: Grave, solemn, guilt-ridden, secluded, wandering, lonesome, foresighted, intellectual, typically detached, introverted, pensive, dutiful, wise, dedicated, etc.



    Name: Korsíde Szabo
    Age: 17
    Race: Human/Radiante [One]
    Gender: Male
    Preference: Asexual
    Status: Single
    Personality: Cursed, hot-tempered, domineering, oppressive, paranoid, aggressive, PTSD, ADHD, OCD, unstable, avaricious, nautical, sociopathic, amoral, etc.



    Name: Captain Seneca
    Age: 85
    Race: Indigo
    Gender: Male
    Preference: Homosexual
    Status: Widowed
    Personality: Gentle, compassionate, firm, benevolent, authoritative, obscure, enigmatic, inspirational, humble, solemn, paternal, resourceful, alone, etc.


    Name: Sioloche
    Age: Immortal
    Race: Shapeshiftere (Mage/wolf-spider)
    Gender: Female
    Preference: Pansexual
    Status: Single
    Personality: Artistic, morbid, whimsical, drily-humoured, creative, nimble, masochistic, fearful of herself, emotionless, garish, gothic, etc.




    Name: Yvel'tcha Kanu
    Age: 10
    Race: Chainéd Spirite (formerly Mortale)
    Gender: Male
    Preference: Homosexual
    Status: Single
    Personality: Timid, gothic, innocent, traumatised, schizophrenic, morbidly childish, unstable, frail, etc.



    Name: Markus Venteer
    Age: 47
    Race: Human/Betazoid
    Gender: Male
    Preference: Heterosexual
    Status: In love, but refused
    Personality: Impetuous, lively, easygoing, passionate, complex, musical, artistic, proud, whimsical, gentle, emotional, empathetic, versatile, etc.



    Name: Imzadi Troi (Picard)
    Age: 16
    Race: Betazoid
    Gender: Female
    Preference: Bisexual
    Status: Engaged
    Personality: Wry, sarcastic, ingenious, empathetic, cold, candid, sceptical, intellectual, secluded, distrustful, resolute, warrior-like, fiery, valiant, calloused, etc.



    Name: Anzul Zarani (or Aaron Pietro)
    Age: 212
    Race: Human/Moruvanian
    Gender: Male
    Preference: Heterosexual
    Status: Divorced
    Personality: Cunning, ambitious, deceptive, charismatic, silver-tongued, sadistic, cruel, tyrannical, avaricious, haughty, overconfident, vengeful, etc.



    Name: Coillia Zarani
    Age: 112
    Race: Betazoid
    Gender: Female
    Preference: Asexual
    Status: Widowed
    Personality: Resolute, empathetic, compassionate, wise, arcane, wry, ruminative, musical, etc.



    Name: Collin Venteer
    Age: 17
    Race: Betazoid/Human
    Gender: Male
    Preference: Heterosexual
    Status: Engaged
    Personality: Grave, explosive, claustrophobic, volatile, empathetic, long-minded, tactical, gruff, abrupt, obscure, passionate, impetuous, etc.



    Name: Kestra Troi (Riker)
    Age: 45
    Race: Betazoid
    Gender: Female
    Preference: Heterosexual
    Status: Married
    Personality: Quiet, bashful, timid, childlike, innocent, sweet, gentle, compassionate, benevolent, emotional, tenderhearted, insecure, optimistic, encouraging, artistic, etc.



    Name: Kerstie Miller
    Age: 15
    Race: Human
    Gender: Female
    Preference: Lesbian
    Status: Taken
    Personality: Brash, opinionated, plucky, loquacious, mischievous, sarcastic, quick-witted, impetuous, hot-tempered, compassionate, amiable, enthusiastic, athletic, boyish, proud, sensitive, bold, etc.



    Name: Taylor Johansson
    Age: 14
    Race: Human
    Gender: Female
    Preference: Bisexual
    Status: Taken
    Personality: Optimistic, sweet-tempered, mediator, extremely feminine, frilly, loquacious, gentle, diligent, resourceful, creative, artistic, energetic, talented, theatrical, forgiving, congenial, social butterfly, etc.



    Name: DiKor Sonaa
    Age: 57
    Race: Moruvanian
    Gender: Male
    Preference: Asexual
    Status: Single, not looking
    Personality: Cold, sociopathic, emotionless, manipulative, cunning, sadistic, oppressive, meticulous, paranoid, mentally unstable, etc.



    Name: Mirubi Szabo [Dawnhollow]
    Age: 16
    Race: Delphixi
    Gender: Female
    Preference: Pansexual
    Status: Married
    Personality: Shy, impish, musical, merry, relaxed, empathetic, intelligent, innocent, introspective, diligent, creative, administrative, optimistic, etc.



    Name: Aaron Lightirone (or Ian Townsend)
    Age: 56
    Race: Mortale (human)
    Gender: Male
    Preference: Heterosexual (secretly homosexual)
    Status: Widowed (not looking)
    Personality: Solemn, introspective, clinically depressed, guilt-ridden, skittish, sceptical, pensive, intellectual, inquisitive, scientifically inclined, impatient, fearful of himself, antisocial, abrupt, volatile, a self-harmer



    Name: Aedrii Kimblewood
    Age: 16
    Race: Delphixi
    Gender: Male
    Preference: Homosexual
    Status: Taken
    Personality: Cocky, insecure, impetuous, brash, clingy, feminine, sweet-tempered, gentle, tender, eager to please, shy, contented, etc.



    Name: Raven Ondoya
    Age: 18
    Race: Daemon
    Gender: Male
    Preference: Heterosexual
    Status: Madly in love, semi-taken
    Personality: Cunning, emotionless, gothic, morbid, masterful, amoral, dark, morbid, cold-tempered, uncannily patient, patronising, sickeningly tender, etc.



    Name: Grace Campbell-Thorne [Keel]
    Age: 23
    Race: Human
    Gender: Female
    Preference: Heterosexual
    Status: Married
    Personality: Mischievous, matchmaking, romantic, energetic, optimistic, careless, a bit lazy, fiercely loyal, opinionated, loquacious, easygoing, compassionate, eager, whimsical, slightly pampered, socialite, etc.



    Name: Felisa Howard
    Age: 67
    Race: Human
    Gender: Female
    Preference: Asexual/aromantic
    Status: Widowed (not looking)
    Personality: Wry, sarcastic, grim, sandy, gruff, abrupt, tenderhearted, obscure, quiet, has difficulty expressing emotions, detached, remote, secluded, hermit-like, eccentric, resourceful, practical, resolute, indomitable, administrative, responsible, diligent, etc.




    Name: Odan Rzai
    Age: 135
    Race: Betazoid
    Gender: Male
    Preference: Heterosexual
    Status: In love, but insecure
    Personality: Inquisitive, hesitant, traditional, quiet, whimsical, gentle, paternal, soft-spoken, pacifist, the intermediary, solemn, aggrieved, rueful, wandering, loyal, diligent, inclusive, congenial, eccentric, etc.



    Name: Silvia Misael
    Age: 33
    Race: Radiante [One]
    Gender: Female
    Preference: Bisexual
    Status: In love, but refused
    Personality: Congenial, relaxed, inclusive, compassionate, very social, quirky, optimistic, enthusiastic, resourceful, maternal, humorous, artistic, a bit flighty, excitable, etc.



    Name: Taro Ringwood
    Age: 6
    Race: Rasîk
    Gender: Male
    Preference: ??
    Status: Single
    Personality: Utterly emotionless, obsessed with survival and self-protection, OCD, egocentric, paranoid, etc.



    Name: Clara Saje
    Age: 14
    Race: Human
    Gender: Female
    Preference: Heterosexual (?)
    Status: Single (looking)
    Personality: Quiet, observant, curious, timid, shy, uncertain, loyal, optimistic, dedicated, clumsy, forgetful, amiable, loves animals and the outdoors



    Name: Leslie Saje
    Age: 16
    Race: Human
    Gender: Female
    Preference: Aromantic/??
    Status: Single (after breakup)
    Personality: Bitter, sarcastic, detached, fearful, cocky, quiet, loyal, abrupt, loves animals, protective, tomboyish, socially awkward, athletic, etc.



    Name: Elenwen Brook
    Age: 15
    Race: ??
    Gender: Female
    Preference: Bisexual
    Status: Taken
    Personality: Sassy, resolute, obsessive, dedicated, loyal, impetuous, emotional, a bit domineering, merciless, embittered, difficult to decipher, etc.


    Likes
    Literature
    Genres:

    Fantasy
    Science Fiction
    Horror
    Steampunk
    Poetry
    Mythology/Folklore



    Authors:

    J.R.R. Tolkien
    C.S. Lewis
    Jeanne DuPrau
    Alison Croggon
    Jenny L. Cote
    Shakespeare
    Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
    Robert Frost
    Lewis Carroll



    Books/Series:

    The Hobbit
    The Lord of the Rings
    The Books of Ember
    The Books of Pellinor
    Epic Order of the Seven
    Through the Looking-Glass



    Music
    Genres:

    Classical
    Rock
    EDM
    Dubstep
    Electronic
    Orchestral



    Artists/Bands:

    Monstercat
    The Cranberries
    Laura Brehm
    Dolores O'Riordan
    Lindsey Stirling
    Peter Hollens
    The Piano Guys
    Karen Carpenter
    Tut Tut Child
    Muzzy
    Tristam
    Conro
    Varien
    Royal
    Richard Caddock
    Hyper Potions
    Johnny Graves
    TheFatRat
    Pegboard Nerds
    Jeremy Soule
    Imogen Heap
    Alanis Morisette
    Carrie Underwood
    DyAna Bush
    Beethoven
    Vivaldi



    Songs:

    Distance
    Just Like That
    The Calling
    Monody
    Valkyrie EP
    The Factory EP
    City Lights
    Mortals
    Don't Wait
    We Won't Be Alone
    Words
    Here For You
    You Hide
    Queen of Your Heart
    Come to the End, Then Stop EP
    Fell Down
    Zombie
    Aria Math
    Blind Spots
    Dead Voxel
    Moog City 2
    Dog
    Cat
    Far
    Strad
    Secunda
    The Streets of Whiterun
    Wind Guide You
    Frostfall
    Tundra
    At the City Gates
    A Future for the Krogan
    Wunderkind
    Can't Take It In
    There's a Place for Us
    Moonlight Sonata
    5 Secrets
    Spring
    Winter



    Instruments:

    Cello
    Violin
    Piano
    Electric Keyboard (I play!)
    Guitar
    Electric Guitar
    Mandolin


    Cinemas/TV
    Television:

    Star Trek: The Next Generation
    Star Trek: Voyager
    Doctor Who


    Cinemas:

    The Lord of the Rings
    The Hobbit
    The Chronicles of Narnia
    Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children
    National Treasure
    Star Wars (original trilogy)
    Rogue One
    The Polar Express
    The Sound of Music
    Through the Looking-Glass



    Actors/Directors:

    Johnny Depp
    Tim Burton
    Peter Jackson
    Georgie Henley
    Tilda Swinton
    Elijah Wood
    Liv Tyler
    Cate Blanchett
    Gates McFadden 💗
    Marina Sirtis
    Patrick Stewart
    Brent Spiner
    Kate Mulgrew
    Alexa Vega
    Gene Wilder
    Julie Andrews




    Characters:
    Beverly Crusher 💗
    Deanna Troi
    Data
    Nella Daren
    Captain Picard
    William Riker
    Eleventh Doctor
    Grace Holloway
    Clara Oswald
    River Song
    Romana
    Amy Pond
    Galadriel
    Gandalf/Mithrandir
    Saruman
    El-Murazor (Witch-king of Angmar)
    Éowyn
    Gollum
    Aragorn/Strider
    Jadis (White Witch)
    Lucy Pevensie
    Peter Pevensie
    Caspian
    Leia Organa
    Darth Vader
    Rey
    Emperor Palpatine/Sidious
    Jyn Erso


    Games
    Yandere Simulator
    Undertale
    Skyrim: The Elder Scrolls V
    Minecraft (Heh.)
    Hexxit
    Super Mario Galaxy 1 & 2


    Other
    Hobbies:
    Writing
    Poetry
    Sketching
    Painting
    Composing
    Playing Keyboard
    Astronomy
    Etymology
    Horseback Riding
    Roleplaying
    Acting/Drama
    Reading




    Interests/Passions:
    Psychology
    Etymology
    Astronomy
    Abstract Art
    Composition
    Archaeology
    Steampunk
    Cosplaying
    Acting



    Other Likes:

    Horror
    Werewolves
    Vampires
    Blood
    Knives
    Darkness
    Silence
    Sleep
    Fire
    Pastel Goth
    Dark Colours
    Sarcasm
    Androids
    Aliens
    The Nether
    Ruins
    Foxes
    Wolves
    Lanterns
    Weeping Willows
    Statues
    Jewels
    Gothic Architecture
    Tea
    Cranberry Juice
    Orchids
    New Zealand
    Greece
    Greek/Roman History
    Names










    Dislikes
    Homophobics/transphobics
    Psychiatrists
    Medical things
    Doctors
    Hospitals
    IVs/Needles
    Bridges
    Deep water/oceans
    Abandonment
    Betrayal
    Loneliness
    Nightmares
    Optimists
    Gender War
    Wars
    Dysphoria
    My Disorders
    Claustrophobia
    Dystopia
    Travelling
    Cars
    Bees
    Rabid Animals
    Staircases
    Medicine
    Social Settings
    OCD
    Helplessness
    Depression
    Sunrises
    Snakes
    Arachnids
    Experiments







    Quotes
    Standing on the brink ‘cause we’re waiting, waiting
    Count down
    (Comin’ to a cataclysm)
    Don’t look back, as the stars rain down
    We’re comin’ to a cataclysm

    End of Ages



    I used to work here in the Factory;
    All the Indigos did.
    The hybrids that ruled the police after the third new millennium,
    Then Genesis Seven collapsed five thousand years later,
    After the humans destroyed each other.

    They lied. They lied to all of us.


    The Factory EP



    I can see your darkened eyes
    I need to believe in something
    And you are still hiding your smile

    Distance



    I watched a hand across the sky
    Slowly dancing past a thousand eyes
    They can’t see her disguise
    Or break through her armour of lies


    I see your truth
    The strength that lies buried at your roots
    I know you’re dutiful
    Tattered
    By the path you had to choose


    You Hide



    I'm boarding up my door
    There's nothing for me here
    Nothing but the memories
    A whirlwind in my ear


    Waves and Ashes



    Shackles on our wrists tonight
    Arrows to our heads
    A borealis to our sight
    Painting the stars in red

    You’re breaking every bone
    Pouring out my blood
    But without you I’m alone
    Memories in a flood


    Mad Lovers



    And we were born together on a bloodstained night
    In the darkest place burns the fiercest light
    Blazing crimson, purest white
    You'll be there right beside me
    I'll love you 'til I die
    Tonight
    Tonight


    Blood


    Gonna leap from this mountaintop
    Pray the bleeding never stops
    Snap
    Don't save me
    Let me fall, let me fall, let me fall
    I'll give it all

    Snap

    Tear me open
    Rip out my heart
    An end for me but for you a start

    Snap

    Lights gone out
    No more

    Snap



    Fall down
    Not far enough

    Fall down
    Farther

    Fall down
    Fall down
    Underground

    Impaled upon the mountains of the deep
    No one will hear you when you weep

    Crack
    Fall down
    Underground

    The Impaler



    Clenching a knife-blade in my hand
    Blood streaming from the ashen fire-land
    I'd never feel a thing
    But this golden ring
    Would lift me higher
    Out of the fire
    Out of the mire
    To our castle in the air, in the air


    The Impaler



    I drove you out
    Out, out
    I drove you down
    Down, down
    You'll never be found
    Again

    Again


    Crushed and rejected
    Spurned and neglected
    Misfits
    Misfits
    No one admits

    Jekyll and Hyde
    Minds on a joyride
    Broken
    Broken
    Viewed as a token


    If You Truly Knew Me



    Dancing on the dtertd
    We wander, falling for the fire
    Burning at the heart
    Throwing, hands up to the sky

    City Lights



    They stood in the fire,
    It burned with desire
    In love and in motion,
    They danced with devotion

    Devotion


    The night was dark and ceaselessly adverse
    ’Twas a chill hour, a nightmare in reverse

    Reverse


    Down came the hail; a frosty flail
    Down fell the icy rain
    Where torches flared with desperate light and savage lightning stabbed the night
    Which screamed like a soul in pain.


    The Ballad of the Maid of Innail



    Stone and feather
    Move outside your head
    Now or never
    Strong in every step

    Give me a sign
    Hitting the mark
    Take to the sky
    Chasing the stars

    The Calling



    A mother's head hangs lowly, child is slowly taken
    When the violence cause such silence
    We must be mistaken

    May you see
    It's not me
    It's not my family
    In your head, in your head
    They're still fighting

    Zombie

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    "The Light shines in the darkness, but the darkness cannot understand it."
    - Ted Dekker



    "Three Rings for the Elven-kings under the sky
    Seven for the Dwarf-lords in their halls of stone,
    Nine for mortal Men doomed to die
    One for the Dark Lord on his dark throne
    In the land of Mordor where the Shadows lie.
    One Ring to rule them all, One Ring to find them,
    One Ring to bring them all and in the Darkness bind them
    In the land of Mordor where the Shadows lie."

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    Greetings. My name is Red Szabo.
    I am the Darke half of Elliott, who rules this realme.



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    Greetings.
    My name is Red. Red Szabo.
    You may already know me. But yet you likely do not.


    I am married to a beautiful woman named Beverly, who occupies the Lighte side of Elliott's mind. Although divergent opposites in every way except appearance, Beverly and I have maintained a glorious relationship for many years.

    Until one day I realised how fragile she was. How willing she was to surrender portions of Elliott's mind to my own control- thoughts, visions, emotions; even pain. It rapidly developed into my personal hobby, then my obsession. Fire and shadow and tormented souls became my greatest weapons. And the best of all was that I never required to physically lift a finger; all my webs could be spun psychologically. Insidiously, you might say.



    Pardon me but a moment. Beverly is intervening yet again.


    You are cruel, Red Szabo. You are filled with hatred.
    Really, Beverly, my dear? You don't know that already?
    Why yes.. but you are tormenting me.. to say nothing of poor Elliott..
    Elliott is nothing to me. Elliott is a weakling, a coward, a plaything. Such fun to toy with.



    I hate you, Red Szabo. I hate you, I hate you.





  • H-hello.. my name is Beverly.

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    My name is Beverly Szabo.
    I am Red's wife, and the ruler of the Lighte side of Elliott.


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    H-hello.. m-my name is Beverly Szabo.
    I am madly in love with my wife, Red Szabo, and nothing she does will ever cause me to harm her.



    I rule the Lighte side of Elliott, forming and sourcing his optimism, hope, faith, and empathy.
    Red calls me frail and witless for doing such a task. I used to not mind her words, but they sting now, like dagger-blades or worse.
    I want her to love me again, the way she once did. A lifetime ago.

    Red says I am fading, withering. She vows to lay white blossoms on my grave every new morning. I believe her.


    I love you, Red.. please return my love. Please.. I beg you..


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    • Beverly
      April 26, 2017, 12:51 am to Public
      (It seems that my four personalities are causing a great deal of confusion. Hopefully this helps clear it up and let you know which one you are talking to.)



      Elliott: (Male) My central personality. Brusque, socially awkward, extremely anxious and on edge often, wittily sarcastic, has difficulty expressing ideas coherently, can be a bit crotchety on bad days. In spite of all that, loves forming new friendships and getting to know others.


      Beverly: (Female) Shy, quiet, naïve, timid, very sweet, sees most of the visions and hallucinations, can communicate with spirits, can speak fluent Onola but speaks very poor English.


      Red: (Interchangeable) Emotionally volatile, sarcastic, masochistic, is very overstimulated by blood especially, can act as mediator between spirits. Fluent bilingual (English and Onola).


      Elenwen: (Female) Patient, kindhearted, gentle, almost maternal, serene, reliable, empathetic. Often acts as the mediator between Beverly and Red, though weaker than all the others.
    • Beverly shared RuesFlowers's post
      April 25, 2017, 6:52 am with Public
      RuesFlowers
      April 25, 2017, 1:46 am to Public
      You want to know what one of the hardest things is? Telling the people you care so much about how every night those warm salty tears well up in your eyes and you can't control them or stop them from rolling down your cheeks. Telling them how your stomach clenches and your body crumbles whenever you are left alone. Giving them that image of you lying on your bathroom floor just wishing to disappear beneath those cold tiles underneath your prickling skin. Showing them how much your world is spinning and shattering out of control and your emotions and feelings are blowing around like a freezing blizzard inside of your chest and mind. Revealing how those small fragments of happiness they see don't last and when everything is out of sight, you just crumble and tear yourself apart because of those hands inside your body squeezing at everything until it makes you feel awfully sick. Unveiling how you think you're going crazy with all these harrowing thoughts that you conceal under your scared body. Telling them how the air is sucked out of your lungs and you can't breathe because you're being attacked by your thoughts and feelings and knowing that you are going to have to go through this one alone. Again. Having the courage to stand there in front of them and broadcast all that you've been hiding from them and telling them that you cant do it anymore.

      And then you have to watch them just stare and not know what to do because they didn't even know what you were feeling or how this had happened, and most of all, why they hadn't noticed that you were not okay? They squeeze you in their arms and tell you it is okay. It is okay. Those salty tears stream down your face and onto the soft fabric of their tee shirt you are sobbing into and that squeezing feeling takes over your body. And you're scared.

      So you know what one of the hardest things is? Telling someone how unhappy you are.
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    • Beverly
      April 24, 2017, 3:08 pm to Public
      How do you explain to a stranger that you are not one person, you are many? Every morning you wake up with different emotions, a different personality, different thoughts. They stare at you. They scrutinise you. They mock and disparage you.

      They label you. Freak. Liar. Drama queen/king. Attention-seeker. Insane. Mental. And far worse curses than that.

      They don't understand that you're grateful for the thousand voices. They save you. When you sleep at night with one side wishing for death, the other side awakens in the morning numb and ablaze with empowerment. They don't understand.

      They misdiagnose you. They experiment with you. They find you fascinating yet terrifying. They prescribe medications, treatments, other personalities.

      Friends ask you bluntly "Who are you today?" They leave. They turn away. Keeping up is exhausting to their minds. They never know the true you because you never know yourself.


      We are many.
      We are one.
      Beverly said 2017-04-24 19:55:40
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      It's for both of us, we both have this.
      Aether_ said 2017-04-24 17:38:12
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      Is it for sarchazm? Sorry. <3
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    • Beverly shared Labyrinth's post
      April 24, 2017, 1:18 pm with Public
      This is so inspiring. ♥
      Labyrinth
      April 24, 2017, 1:09 pm to Public
      "All I ever needed was a reason to believe
      You help me hold on, you ignite the fire in me
      You always come for me, you know just what I need
      Don't make me wait for this, save me from this darkness
      I reach for the light

      I want to live my life
      The choice is mine, I've made up my mind
      Now, I'm free to start again
      The way I want to live (to live) and breathe (and breathe)
      The way I want that's right for me
      I may not know nothing else
      But I know this, I want to live"

      ~Skillet, I Want to Live

      Hold on Elli. I know you can make it. <3
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    • Beverly
      April 24, 2017, 8:59 am to Public
      Everyone give a hug to this sweetheart. ;) <3
      SuperLuigi77 said 2017-04-24 12:18:29
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      :)
      Beverly said 2017-04-24 12:16:29
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      ;P
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