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TRIGGER WARNING: This is a documentation of real events and covers themes of sexual harassment. The name 'Hank Epopt' was made for privacy reasons, but the events are real. Just feeling that I should come out about this, but I'm a bit hesitant. This is kind of sensitive information, but my confidence in publicising this overpowers my insecurities.
I just want to clarify something about Hank Epopt here. Yes, he is based on a real person whose name anagrams to Hank Epopt. If you've read my web series, Battle for the Enchanted Netherite Trophy and the role plays, you might've seen some mentinons of a character by the name of Hank Epopt. In that story, my character doesn't like him, but there is no explianation given until later on.
Because Golden is a self-insert, her attitude towards Hank is directly based on my own thoughts towards the real Hank Epopt.
While Hank Epopt didn't really kidnap me, I feel that he did so mentally. I was drawn away from my real friends at lunch to sit with his communism-obsessed friends. Some of them would steal a hat off each other's heads and wear it. One girl would eat straight Kool aid powder. The worst part was that just a few years prior, none of these kids seemed like the ones to fall into this kind of friend group. One of them was a bookworm kid who'd read during recess. I should've taken this friend group alone as a serious red flag.
It wasn't much later until Hank and his friends found out that I went to the school's library instead of the gym before school. Students were supposed to go the main gym and wait for the first bell to ring. I get overstimulated, so I went to the library. I was normally alone, save the librarians. I was shocked when Hank and his friends started to come in with me. As much as I didn't like it, I let it pass, but only because I was being subliminaly manuipliated. A little while later, I found out that you could go to the library at lunch, and they forced me to come with them. This didn’t seem like a very big issue then. They didn’t show any signs of being toxic friends, let alone being led by a perverted simp.
I remember him constantly pummeling me with ‘I always say I love you, but you never say the same’ BS.
Later, we were eating lunch outside, under Hank's 'suggestion'. I had no choice in the matter. I really regret not striking at that moment and fighting him, but he restrained me and forcefully kissed me on the lips. Without my consent. I didn't speak to him for the next week.
Until school shut down in March of 2020, or basically two weeks, he didn't do anything really triggering. When we started online school, that was a whole diffrent story. Hank would constantly send me messages and CALL me via Google Hangouts during class. I told him to leave me alone, but he wouldn't take it. He would continue to call, sometimes up to 10 or more times per class. I ignored all messages sent from him during class.
I made a compromise and started doing Zoom calls with him and another 'friend", who is his neigobor, and also no longer my friend. Things were fine. Nothing went wrong, that was until I think the 21st.
Hank invited me to a private Zoom call, which he perhaps told the other 'friend' about. She said that she'd get on, but she couldn't. Hank knew why.
On that call, I screen shared myself playing Minecraft, and everything was fine until he asked for me to take my shirt off. I told him no. I wasn't doing that. I was in no way entitled to do that for him. He didn't listen and asked me again. Once again, I told him no. Refusing to take no as an answer, Hank asked me again and again, saying that it would only 'strenghten' our one-sided relationship. He rambled about how he just wanted to see a naked girl, but no amount of pleading from him was going to get me to show him video call n***s.
I wasn't taking it, and neither was he. Since I wouldn't arouse him by showing him my bare chest, he exposed his private area to me.
I don't know if this was the exact order of the next events. My memory of this is very faded, hopefully because my mind is trying to blur it all out.
For the next month or so, he begged for forgiveness, but I was silent. He manuiplated me into not telling until I was ranting on a private Google Hangouts message chat with the other 'friend'. Somehow, we ended up on the topic of Hank Epopt, and I said the word n***s.
Next thing I know, there are police officers at my house. The word had set off the school's filter.
Later, I was on a Google Meets for school, and once everyone else had left, I mentioned it to the dean, when he suddenly joined. I was shocked. How did he find the meeting?
It's now the next school year. I think. I'm getting out of one of the online school standardized testing to get interviewed in my county's child advocacy center.
I don't remember anything else except for the fact that he's not allowed to be in any classes with me ever again. I still need to remind the school to not put him in the same rooms for SOL testing, which they somehow failed at doing last year. Luckily, I was able to notify the procter and I was moved to another room to test.
It's safe to say that I am no longer friends with any of those people, but I seem to have developed minor trust issues.
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It's quite hard for me to write this, especially on the internet. Merely seeing Hank Epopt in the hallway at school floods my mind with rage and regret. I failed myself by doing nothing. I fell for the manipulation. If I could go back and do things differently, I would by all means do so.
I'm really unnerved by writing this. Hank's actions have perhaps scared me for life, but the good thing about situations like this is that you come out knowing what not to a similar situation comes up again. You have an idea as to how you should handle it.
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Golden
I just want to clarify something about Hank Epopt here. Yes, he is based on a real person whose name anagrams to Hank Epopt. If you've read my web series, Battle for the Enchanted Netherite Trophy and the role plays, you might've seen some mentinons of a character by the name of Hank Epopt. In that story, my character doesn't like him, but there is no explianation given until later on.
Because Golden is a self-insert, her attitude towards Hank is directly based on my own thoughts towards the real Hank Epopt.
While Hank Epopt didn't really kidnap me, I feel that he did so mentally. I was drawn away from my real friends at lunch to sit with his communism-obsessed friends. Some of them would steal a hat off each other's heads and wear it. One girl would eat straight Kool aid powder. The worst part was that just a few years prior, none of these kids seemed like the ones to fall into this kind of friend group. One of them was a bookworm kid who'd read during recess. I should've taken this friend group alone as a serious red flag.
It wasn't much later until Hank and his friends found out that I went to the school's library instead of the gym before school. Students were supposed to go the main gym and wait for the first bell to ring. I get overstimulated, so I went to the library. I was normally alone, save the librarians. I was shocked when Hank and his friends started to come in with me. As much as I didn't like it, I let it pass, but only because I was being subliminaly manuipliated. A little while later, I found out that you could go to the library at lunch, and they forced me to come with them. This didn’t seem like a very big issue then. They didn’t show any signs of being toxic friends, let alone being led by a perverted simp.
I remember him constantly pummeling me with ‘I always say I love you, but you never say the same’ BS.
Later, we were eating lunch outside, under Hank's 'suggestion'. I had no choice in the matter. I really regret not striking at that moment and fighting him, but he restrained me and forcefully kissed me on the lips. Without my consent. I didn't speak to him for the next week.
Until school shut down in March of 2020, or basically two weeks, he didn't do anything really triggering. When we started online school, that was a whole diffrent story. Hank would constantly send me messages and CALL me via Google Hangouts during class. I told him to leave me alone, but he wouldn't take it. He would continue to call, sometimes up to 10 or more times per class. I ignored all messages sent from him during class.
I made a compromise and started doing Zoom calls with him and another 'friend", who is his neigobor, and also no longer my friend. Things were fine. Nothing went wrong, that was until I think the 21st.
Hank invited me to a private Zoom call, which he perhaps told the other 'friend' about. She said that she'd get on, but she couldn't. Hank knew why.
On that call, I screen shared myself playing Minecraft, and everything was fine until he asked for me to take my shirt off. I told him no. I wasn't doing that. I was in no way entitled to do that for him. He didn't listen and asked me again. Once again, I told him no. Refusing to take no as an answer, Hank asked me again and again, saying that it would only 'strenghten' our one-sided relationship. He rambled about how he just wanted to see a naked girl, but no amount of pleading from him was going to get me to show him video call n***s.
I wasn't taking it, and neither was he. Since I wouldn't arouse him by showing him my bare chest, he exposed his private area to me.
I don't know if this was the exact order of the next events. My memory of this is very faded, hopefully because my mind is trying to blur it all out.
For the next month or so, he begged for forgiveness, but I was silent. He manuiplated me into not telling until I was ranting on a private Google Hangouts message chat with the other 'friend'. Somehow, we ended up on the topic of Hank Epopt, and I said the word n***s.
Next thing I know, there are police officers at my house. The word had set off the school's filter.
Later, I was on a Google Meets for school, and once everyone else had left, I mentioned it to the dean, when he suddenly joined. I was shocked. How did he find the meeting?
It's now the next school year. I think. I'm getting out of one of the online school standardized testing to get interviewed in my county's child advocacy center.
I don't remember anything else except for the fact that he's not allowed to be in any classes with me ever again. I still need to remind the school to not put him in the same rooms for SOL testing, which they somehow failed at doing last year. Luckily, I was able to notify the procter and I was moved to another room to test.
It's safe to say that I am no longer friends with any of those people, but I seem to have developed minor trust issues.
...
It's quite hard for me to write this, especially on the internet. Merely seeing Hank Epopt in the hallway at school floods my mind with rage and regret. I failed myself by doing nothing. I fell for the manipulation. If I could go back and do things differently, I would by all means do so.
I'm really unnerved by writing this. Hank's actions have perhaps scared me for life, but the good thing about situations like this is that you come out knowing what not to a similar situation comes up again. You have an idea as to how you should handle it.
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Golden
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Im sorry, I hope you get better (anxietys hard to get rid of, but once you do its awesome)