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I just... Remembering 9/11

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avatar Seames39
Level 57 : Grandmaster Sailor
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You know, each time I hear about, see documentaries, read first-hand accounts, I just feel guilty when it comes to this.

When this disaster came to the United States on the 11th of September, 2001, I was only 5 years old. Young and wreckless and didn't have much care in the world.

At the age 7 or 8, my Grandfather, a WWII veteran, died of old age. I loved him and now hes just gone, no longer of this world and only a memory in my mind. Dispite him sparking my WWII interest, I didn't know him very well. Dispite that, I still loved him.
That was my closest personal tie to death for some time.

I have come close. When I was 10, I was on a boating trip in the San Fransico River, we parked the boat in a part divided from the river and it was very calm water. I was swimming in this with just the clothes on my back and a small Floaty. I drifted out towards the rushing water, towards the 17 foot deep water. As I drew closer to the main flow, it became increasingly harder to hit the bottom with my feet and keep my head above water. Just when I thought I would drown, my oldest brother saved me and pulled my to the shore.
Now I had a "Near-Death-Experience"

12 years old and I moved from California to Montana, I still live there even as I type this blog. While I was here, I had one of my favorite teachers die. I was 17 years old and have not cried since I was 11. When my teacher died, I never came closer to crying that day than even what beatings or bullying had done. I guess my emotions are equal to that of a brick.

Now, I sit here at this computer screen, and I feel guilty. Guilty that I am here and can't understand death.
I see WWII documentaries, and I just rave about my next Minecraft project.
I see a first-hand story about a man who fought in Vietnam, and I just forget its details.
I see my mother talking about what she did on Sept. 11th, and I just can't understand her feelings.

Many of us, the younger generation who are about 5-20 years old, can only remember a big city on a tv screen with two towers letting smoke out. That's the only memory I have of this day, 13 years ago as of Sept 11th. 2014. And yet, there are so many out there in the United States who remember this day 13 years ago clearly. Every thing they did, its not uncommon for them to know exactly what they did that day. Wether it be screaming and running for cover from falling debris, to being glued to a TV screen for hours, simply shocked.

Now, I just don't know... Should I feel guilty for this thing that sticks into my head on this day year after year?
Should I countinue to pursue my dreams and completly forget this guilt?
Should I seek help?
What to do?

I just... can't remember... and... I don't know...

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04/12/2015 12:25 am
Level 23 : Expert Warrior
jmo104
Wow thats gettin real and personel
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04/12/2015 1:50 pm
Level 57 : Grandmaster Sailor
Seames39
Well I suppose it can't hurt to say some personal things in regards to a tragedy now :/
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04/12/2015 4:46 pm
Level 23 : Expert Warrior
jmo104
I suppose its just not usal for a minecraft website.
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04/12/2015 7:18 pm
Level 57 : Grandmaster Sailor
Seames39
Yeah, that's probably it
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04/13/2015 12:36 pm
Level 23 : Expert Warrior
jmo104
No offense ment to the owner of this forum. Hes a cool guy and I like his work.
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04/14/2015 1:41 am
Level 57 : Grandmaster Sailor
Seames39
Thank you :D
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02/08/2015 10:43 pm
Level 40 : Master Architect
Tragicalmysterywar
Your story here is very emotional, you have some great writing skills to be able to write like that from personal experience. :')

I had just recently turned 8 before 9/11 happened and was living in Stuttgart (which is where i am living now, only on a different side of town), As you know, it was huge news around the world, however, for us it was much more of a shock that something like that could happen than anything evoking fear. 

Years later, i traveled overseas and attended the Hunter College in New York. My father and brother had done the same previously, so it is a family tradition (we have lots of relatives who moved over there after WWII). When you are exposed to people like the students i knew who were there when it happened, you really begin to feel like you were there, and you grasp the feelings of terror and paranoia much better.

Aside from the point, this may sound cliche, but i also know what it feels like to lose a WWII veteran relative. My grandfather was also in the war, he was drafted into to the Heer along with his brothers. And he is who i got my interest in the subject from. He died of a stroke, though. I was 12 at the time.
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02/09/2015 12:10 am
Level 57 : Grandmaster Sailor
Seames39
Thanks for the story of your own experience's and I hope your grandfather lived a happy life :)
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02/09/2015 3:47 pm
Level 40 : Master Architect
Tragicalmysterywar
He definitely lived a happy life, and i hope your grandpa did, too.

My grandfather was always the most joking and optimistic whenever we had a family gathering. The thing is, he just happened to have left Dresden on the 11th of February 1945, just 2 days before the firebombings began and killed over 20,000 people, including his brother, Leopold, who was supposed to have 2 days before being moved to Ukraine to fight the Russians.

As he described to me, this experience of losing his brother and almost getting killed made him understand that his life could "end any second" and to always remain optimistic. It's a pretty good lesson, i guess.
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02/09/2015 5:59 pm
Level 57 : Grandmaster Sailor
Seames39
I had a great grandfather who fought in WWII

My great grandfather was part of the 4th wave of US troops landing on Utah beach June 6th 1944. He came out of that just fine and found himself staitioned in Belguim by December. He was hiding in a barn when the Battle of the Bulge started and was shot in the knee while he hid in a hay stack. He screamed and was captured by the Germans. He spent about 3 months in a POW camp and almost starved to death.


After the war, he had serious health problems because of the starvation and had to be hospitalised. But by 1950 he was healthy and working as a electrician. He died silently in his sleep in 2007 :( He was my inspiration for many of my maps.

I thought I had to share that because you shared about your own grandfather :)
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02/09/2015 8:30 pm
Level 40 : Master Architect
Tragicalmysterywar
i was already about to ask you to tell me about him anyway. XD
As i was reading what he went through, i was thinking "Ouch... there goes some of my German pride". It feels weird to be German and hear more about what the SS did. Well, I guess this also makes two of us with relatives who almost died in WWII. For your Great Grandfather, aside from the POW camp, but it's a wonder how the bullet hit his knee instead of something more important while he was hiding in the hay.

Did he tell you about his liberation from the POW camp?
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02/09/2015 10:47 pm
Level 57 : Grandmaster Sailor
Seames39
All the stories I heard about his experience then was from his wife and my mother. He never talked about it to me or my brothers :(
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01/29/2015 12:23 am
Level 34 : Artisan Sailor
Mr_waffle
well you defantly shouldnt feel guilty...  at least u dont have Short Term Memory....  It hard to feel bad for people and that's what really makes you feel guilty.  when u cant remember why to feel sad, but you know you should be
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01/29/2015 9:35 am
Level 57 : Grandmaster Sailor
Seames39
I'm sorry to hear about that ;(
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10/16/2014 11:10 pm
Level 40 : Master Spider Rider
SpiderMatty
I was born after 9/11 but it seems so scary to be there, or even hear about it... thing is I live in New York so I hope something like that doesn't happen in New York again.
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10/17/2014 12:09 am
Level 57 : Grandmaster Sailor
Seames39
I live in Montana where we have all of these Missle Silos across the state. I'm told if we were bombed, they would target those nearby silos 0_0

I hope somethingthing like this never happens to anyone, anywhere in the world.
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09/13/2014 12:29 pm
Level 33 : Artisan Dragon
The_Big_Dish
Don't be guilty I was like 7 and I have like little memory of it besides like our family went to church that week when we normally didn't. I didn't understand what happened either til much later. Some people have clear memories which is fine but a lot of us don't, especially if you didn't live in new york.
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09/13/2014 2:38 pm
Level 57 : Grandmaster Sailor
Seames39
You do have a point. Thanks for that.
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09/13/2014 3:36 am
Level 7 : Apprentice Network
Wizry
Such a sweet touching post. -Thanks for sharing.
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09/13/2014 2:38 pm
Level 57 : Grandmaster Sailor
Seames39
Thanks :)
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09/12/2014 12:01 pm
Level 50 : Grandmaster Programmer
Ukiyo_E
This is depressing. I'm not seeing any recent 911 posts. Besides yours and mine.. that's it
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09/12/2014 4:55 pm
Level 57 : Grandmaster Sailor
Seames39
Thanks :(
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09/11/2014 10:45 pm
Level 38 : Artisan Pokemon
Chellizard
1st of September?

It's 9/11 for a reason.

It happened on September 11th, of 2001.

Please read over your blog and fix the mistakes you've made in reference to the actual events.
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09/11/2014 11:35 pm
Level 57 : Grandmaster Sailor
Seames39
I'm afraid I don't follow you there. I know it's called 9/11 for a reason. I've looked this blog over several times and I can't find mistakes like that.
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09/11/2014 11:43 pm
Level 13 : Journeyman Warrior
Ry1459
He means that the World Trade Center was attacked on September 11, 2001 not September 1st. In the second, sixth, and seventh paragraph, you put September 1st instead of September 11th.
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09/11/2014 11:51 pm
Level 57 : Grandmaster Sailor
Seames39
Jesus Crist 0_0

I'll fix it NOW
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09/11/2014 11:55 pm
Level 13 : Journeyman Warrior
Ry1459
Glad to have helped!
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09/12/2014 9:28 am
Level 20 : Expert Pig
huge_chomper
Once again. You said sept 1st
", 13 years ago as of Sept 1st. 2014. And yet, there are so many out there in the United States who remember this day 13 years ago clearly. "

7th paragraph

I was one years old when 9/11 happened... 12 hours away across the world...
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09/11/2014 10:34 pm
Level 64 : High Grandmaster Soldier
STEALTHy
Don't feel guilty you don't understand death, only those who have died do. It's a natural part of life and nothing to be worried about. Recently a love one of mine who was 5 years old was killed while riding her bike. I cried constantly and couldn't feel anything but ask the question "why". In all honesty though there is no why, it's just life. If you would like to talk to me more I would be glad to hear more of your thoughts. :) Take care Seames
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09/11/2014 11:38 pm
Level 57 : Grandmaster Sailor
Seames39
Thanks Stealthy :)
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