Published Dec 29th, 2016, 12/29/16 8:39 pm
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A fallen leaf anticipating to hit an unexpected bystander,
when will the chance to love come to me...
alone for so long, its difficult to know what love is,
what affection is, what the meaning of love is.
But I'm too distracted from being able to love, to be loved,
the flaws of myself and the fear that I can't restrain,
pushing away so I can live my life, for the better.
A feeling I´ve never expressed, but I guess I´ll
have to wait, even though I´ve craved for so long, I
shouldn´t be quick to meet the wrong person…
I just have to wait...to wait in this solitude of
incomprehensible desire, in this room of cycling thoughts.
Forever silenced in this cramped room...
Forever condemned in this chamber of isolation
chained on this soft bed, awaiting to be rescued...



(I wrote this quite a while ago, a couple days before I found someone who had a crush on me so all was said and done x3) I know I haven't posted at all lately, I've kind of been away from Minecraft for at least 6 months now, so its no interest...and now that I found someone I'm focusing more on her than anything else x3 ill be posting on my allpoetry page, Spowzer1 to see any that haven't made any of my posts or I just don't want to post on here anytime soon <3 you all ^^ who knows when ill come back, if I do, I'll have a lot of good intentions)
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12/30/2016 10:20 am
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Heyy long time no see x3 I wish you would continue more, but I don't blame you, tbh I sometimes have no life & just post for the heck of it. I've actually come to a conclusion i really should stop hanging out with most people I do, most of my poetry is from the soul out, and I don't hardly ever revise it. And my poetry has gotten very dark, well not that much but it's dark, & i realize I have actually trapped myself in the mess I am... XD Wow, you see what i mean? This comment is getting long, & i'm just pouring my insides out, basically, into words. I should really haelp myself & watch cute stuff or something xD
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12/30/2016 5:04 pm
Level 43 : Master Mlem Mlem Bat
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Heeeyyy x3 yeah my life has changed quite a bit from emo for a year to full on pastel and bright colors later this year xD I'm look more positively considering online drama and drama at home and school were daily so it made me very pessimistic xD but hopefully soon enough ill write my gf a poem (maybe post it on here or my allpoetry page) although I see it would be secret between me and her so I'm not sure about that (this is my first ever relationship and I'm a sophomore in highschool xD what a loner I was)

ive kinda found my self into cute and bright things (otherwise skater brands) and my girlfriend is full emo with black and red xD man....we only found eachother because of our personalities so its quite fascinating to see us go to public places
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12/31/2016 10:44 am
Level 34 : Artisan Strawberry
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Hahah XD I'm glad to hear that. Yeah I really don't know what is happening right now, friends are just leaving me, Minecraft wise, and it feels really horrible, especially when they full out straight ignore you, tell someone else a stupid reason that doesn't make any sense, and then that person tells you. It's very confusing as you can tell, so I just decided to give that part of friends up. And I'm actually happy to go back to school, because I have semi decent friends there, but at the same time the one decent friend, I've seen how she is, and she's one of those one's that are too nice to tell you, meaning it's actually a worse feeling, especially when you want them to tell you straight down if they really like you or not, heavy and not sugar coated at all. Maybe that's why this whole thing is affected how my poetry goes, though to be honest I am trying to fix how people act, because this world, minecraft community mainly, you'll say something you end up creating this big fight trying to make an innocent point, but then it keeps going an you can't stop doing something. So yeah arrogance. The most irritating thing i could ever think of... But so, maybe I'm just teaching lessons, not pouring my insides out basically on the internet. Wow, I figured my problem out xD I should just start doing that when i have a problem XD
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12/31/2016 10:45 am
Level 34 : Artisan Strawberry
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Holy crap that is the longest comment I have ever wrote.
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12/31/2016 2:37 pm
Level 43 : Master Mlem Mlem Bat
SpowzyThePoet
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(written* xD) I've been able to keep in touch with my close minecraft friends (a couple heh) and one I even met earlier this year (4 hours away from me) I think if you chose the right kind of people and connect, you'll be able to stick with them for a long time...idk coming from someone who barely loses online friends and friends in irl >3< I'm just bragging aren't I? phooey sorry if it sounded like it. But yeah, definetly drama caused me to me extremely stressed and sad for the most part, so now that I'm out of the scenario, I've been able to look on the positves, only wanting to make people laugh is my goal, and I succeed with it (with my gf daily, and my group of friends a couple chuckles here and there x3) that's one of the reasons she had a crush on me, I could make her laugh a lot.....blerp I'm just I don't even know anymore x3 aokfweoifnewoifjewiofejwiewjfeoiewf
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12/31/2016 7:53 pm
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hahah yeah ehm... I really don't know what my friend's issues are, the "Girl thing" that happened with you ehm that happened to me with some guy(s), just warning, I'm sorry for this, but it doesn't always end up the greatest. Because stuff like that leads into more drama, girls fighting over things like that... idk.. I've been this odd mess being away from school, and then you know the problem, Idk if you have experienced this, but certain guy I like, talks to my best friend way to much, pretty sure she is completely terrified that if she tells me I'll go berserk, but idk, I've come to the conclusion I may or may not actually have one decent friend.
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