I hate it when I'm native and stupid. It happens often, even recently.
Like that one time when I was on Discord while being underaged and did not know the difference between tolerance and attraction.
That one time when I thought they were going to ban meat but it was actually a joke post about Lent.
That one time I thought a joke video about Tumblr was actually real and recklessly PMed some of the users.
The many times I misinterpret the jokes inbetween classmates and actually think these loosely said rumors that people imitate thet they are real for like 10 minutes max are real. And many more.

Getting me in a state of panic so big some would start to confirm that the joke is true. Triggering people just because they look/act funny when they're angry. I can understand it all to some point, but that's often getting out of hand. Some may say "Hey, just ignore them!", but it's actually harder than one would think, especially to a person who always had problems with not ignoring the ones who start the drama first and easily ragebaiting as a result. Seemingly becoming who I disliked the most almost completely.

Games are often supposed to be an escape from reality. I'm not talking about all the stuff that's happening at the studios, where they forcefully put some elements that basically nobody wants/cares about. I'm talking about how the player feels when playing the game - escaping from reality, from being a normal person to a hero, or someone else who's unusual. Well, all the heroic stuff aside, I often search the averageness in here. Not even very great, or very bad - just being mediocre. No redstone bunkers - oak and cobble are enough. Not going on the road to perfection to satisfy the ghost grandpa - just doing whatever I want with my shadowy pal in the valley.

Now I don't want them comments, dedicated posts on groups or anything like that - that's why there is no option to comment here. I'm thankful for all the support, but it also feels a little exaggerated and unreal. After all, most of us know ourselves only from this wonderful site. All I want is some understanding of whatever this chaos I'm placed in is. About my activity - nothing sure, it's a hit-or-miss. I guess that's it. The maximum I can allow myself to reveal about myself to random internauts. Hope everyone else is doing good.

Sparkle Creator out.