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Its has been 1 years i being like this..... I just want to end it up.... But its not that easy.... I want some hope but not all can give it.....
Everyone have different feelings and emotions..... But im different..... Dude... I just sad.... Sad... Sad.... And sad....
The past i got bullied... Its the first tragedy.... If i can turn back time.... I would to change it..... Very much... I would like... Like i begging to do anything to change my past...
My mom always spit some shit to me.... Its make me traumatize..... The word is like a cancer..... She torture my mind.... Make me hard to smile.... She once said about girl that i like..... She make me disguise with girl.... Since that my love is dead... I don't feel love anymore... Im not gay but i also didn't love girl anymore....
Nothing love.... Just sad..... Once she said i better die.... Its make me feel useless.... Very useless.... Feel that hope is gone... Gone forever.... If..... Just if i can fix it.... Its all about me...
Im the problem... Im the causes.... Once i think i should die... Its make me feel right... But its was wrong.... Hoping someone can tell me the truth.... Someone help me... But i still stuck with sadness....
When i see something wholesome and funny... I thought its gonna be forever... But i was wrong.. Its just for a while....
Sometimes i feel not enjoy anymore.....
Everyone... This is just what i want to say.... Whenever you tried to help me.... I can't change my self.... I thought i just gonna be like this forever..... Sorry.... I just want to say sorry... Please forgive me..... I begging you to trust me.... Pls.... I just begging....
Moderators don't delete this blog... This is my first and last blog...... Hope.... I just hope...
Everyone have different feelings and emotions..... But im different..... Dude... I just sad.... Sad... Sad.... And sad....
The past i got bullied... Its the first tragedy.... If i can turn back time.... I would to change it..... Very much... I would like... Like i begging to do anything to change my past...
My mom always spit some shit to me.... Its make me traumatize..... The word is like a cancer..... She torture my mind.... Make me hard to smile.... She once said about girl that i like..... She make me disguise with girl.... Since that my love is dead... I don't feel love anymore... Im not gay but i also didn't love girl anymore....
Nothing love.... Just sad..... Once she said i better die.... Its make me feel useless.... Very useless.... Feel that hope is gone... Gone forever.... If..... Just if i can fix it.... Its all about me...
Im the problem... Im the causes.... Once i think i should die... Its make me feel right... But its was wrong.... Hoping someone can tell me the truth.... Someone help me... But i still stuck with sadness....
When i see something wholesome and funny... I thought its gonna be forever... But i was wrong.. Its just for a while....
Sometimes i feel not enjoy anymore.....
Everyone... This is just what i want to say.... Whenever you tried to help me.... I can't change my self.... I thought i just gonna be like this forever..... Sorry.... I just want to say sorry... Please forgive me..... I begging you to trust me.... Pls.... I just begging....
Moderators don't delete this blog... This is my first and last blog...... Hope.... I just hope...
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Your mother doesn't seem like a good parent, considering the things she's saying to you. No mother should be telling her child to die.
I want you to know something.
You are loved, you are cared about, we want you to be happy. I understand that you may not be able to, given all of what you described in this post. But we still care about you.
If your mom isn't the only parent you have, talk to the other(s) about this. Tell them about the things she's said, so that they know how you feel.
If she is, you can always talk to me. Because I really do feel bad for you, I want you to be alright.
Even my parents want me life, even I am really problematic and suicidal/depressional(I would like to end that all, I am the worst tbh) - I am still mad that they saved me
And at school, I got also bullied, example: one guy even spilled soap on my head and later he started to kill me, the kid then started to harrass me when I reported it to the principal(the child was treated like elite, cus his parents were rich, typical thing at the hole)
I will not hide it, I am a failure, but I am still alive, sadly
I try my best, even I cannot
That all is destroying me, but I am still alive and don't show anything
You can change yourself, even I changed by some cruel situations(like breakdowns, deaths)
Do you think that I am always so funny-positive with self distance?
It took me time to become so in cost of some things