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  • Felll
    August 1, 2020, 3:49 pm to Public
    [Warning. Super sappy message ahead. I would love it if you read it anyways (or my TLDR) because this is the most important story of my life <3]


    On July 20th, 2016, a little over four years ago, I received a message from a new subscriber. My skinning "career" was starting to pick up and I was getting lots of messages from all sorts of people, asking about trades, requests, commissions, etc. This message wasn't asking for anything in particular, just a cute hello and offer to make a skin for ME (a sweet offer I hadn't received in such a way before).


    We didn't talk for six months, but in January I got another message from the quirky little guy, in which he invited me to a Discord server. I didn't have discord at the time but attempting to keep up with the times- made one to use in lieu of skype (what all us old people used back in the day). Things get a bit fuzzy because I can't easily access the messages we had (unlike the earlier ones on here through PM), but I remember talking a bit more and playing Minecraft with a few of his friends. He was sweet, but the relationship we had was very surface level, I took time out of my day to do this with several subscribers and it was fun, but I didn't really consider any of them "close friends".


    After a few months of talking very little, conversation dwindled and contact stopped once again. Fast forward a year this time (it is now around March 2018), I got another message from him (through Discord this time), a comment about my profile picture, Zero Two, a character many of you probably know from the anime Darling in the Franxx. We connected through our love of anime (super cringy, I know, but I am a big weeaboo and love talking about it) and began a much closer friendship than before.


    Although I'm not really sure what connected us so intensely compared to all our times together in the past, I could tell that we had both matured a lot in the past year. We were both in need of a friendship like this after struggling with our own stuff by ourselves. We played mostly Minecraft together, and a little bit of CS (I was really bad though) and would call for hours and hours on end. As the epic gamers my subscribers and friends are, I am sure you can relate.


    He was my best friend now, the person who I would look forward to seeing and talking to whenever we weren't together. I definitely had a big crush on him (uh oh gross and sappy time) but there was no way you could convince younger Felice to tell him that because gosh darn, no matter how much I wanted to believe he could like me back I was scared I would lose my best friend. Of course, the only reason I am writing all of this is because he DID like me back (I'm sorry I sound like a dumb 12-year-old) and we started dating July 2018.


    Before we began dating we had actually been planning a trip to see each other. The two of us only lived around 500 miles apart (I from Northern California, he from Southern California) which isn't that far compared to other long-distance relationships. I was going to see Dan and Phil live in Los Angelos in August, and we would be so close it would be a crime not to meet my best friend.


    I am a lot more charismatic and confident online, as my social anxiety only seems to kick in when I'm talking to people in real life, and meeting him was definitely the craziest and most nerve-wracking thing I had ever done (and I had gone to Australia alone, with just a small group of students when I was 12-years-old). I remember as soon as he opened the door I hugged him more tightly than I had ever before, repeating a phrase over and over again (I think it was "Oh my gosh"?). I couldn't make eye contact with my own BOYFRIEND for the first two hours as our parents met and we just kind of sat awkwardly on a couch together. Eventually, I could look at his face and we went out (with my worried mother) to a few places.


    When we got back to his house that night I cried a lot, he had band practice the next day and I was going back up after that, so I wouldn't be able to see him until who knew how long. I sobbed with my mom on the way back to our hotel (I was and still am a big cry baby) and solemnly accepted our fate. To my surprise, when I got home, he told me that his practice had been canceled and that we would be able to see one another the next day. I wasn't sure if I totally believed that it was really canceled, but I was too excited to care.


    We had our first date the next day, if driving up the mountains and looking out on a ridge counts as a date, and held on to every last minute we had with each other. Eventually, I had to leave him that afternoon, and I cried some more, then went to see Dan and Phil in Downtown Los Angelos. I remember driving home with my mom down the highway, sobbing to Panic! At the Disco, like a true 16-year-old would.


    Over the next few months, I would develop a rhythm of taking a plane down to see him every one or two months and spending a weekend together. The rest is probably boring relationship stuff that most of you probably don't care about (not that you have cared much about any of this so far). I went through a lot of personal stuff that first year, losing my grandfather to cancer and my step-mother to suicide, which triggered a trainwreck of mental health disorders, but gosh, I am so glad I had my boyfriend to hold my hand through it all.


    I stopped posting on here when I had all that stuff happening which I am sorry for but was probably bound to happen as I grew older less interested in Minecraft as a whole. It's been about a week since our two year anniversary (what the heck?!) and I wanted to post something on here (I didn't mean for it to be this long though, oops).


    Online and long-distance relationships are hard. I was super lucky to have a supportive family willing to send me on a plane to see my boyfriend they barely knew and I know most people don't have that. Don't deny yourself happiness just because the person you love/like lives hundreds or even thousands of miles away. There are so many success stories out there, of people like me and my boyfriend, who find the perseverance within themselves to keep fighting for the relationship they treasure and the home they wish to build together someday.


    On the 9th of August, Sean (my lovely boyfriend) and I will be closing the gap. I just graduated high school and will be attending college in Southern California, and LIVING with my boyfriend. I am not a risk-taker but he is so important to me, I would push my boundaries till they broke for my boyfriend. Things will be insane and super different, especially in this new world we live in, but gosh darn, LOVE really does make the world go round and I can't wait to wake up and see his real face every single day.


    I mostly wanted to share my story with you all, but I also hope to inspire even just one of you. Take that risk, don’t let the chance slip away. The idea may be scary but the outcome could just be the best thing to ever happen and if it’s not, that’s okay too! Remember to keep trying, hold your head high, and be brave. Listen to both your heart and your head, they are vital in all decisions, but if one is truly holding you back from something you know in your gut is right, it’s okay to push past that thought or feeling. Thank you so much for reading all, or just skimming through this message of mine. I believe in you. Go for it gamers :)

    TLDR; I met my boyfriend of two years on this website. Whether it be a relationship or just a small leap, taking that risk could be the best thing to ever happen. My boyfriend and I are celebrating two years of unconditional love, and I hope that our story can show you that anything is possible if (no offense to planetminecraft) two dumb kids can meet HERE and find ourselves deeply in love and full of happiness, moving in with one another and ready to start a crazy new chapter in life together.
    skullcrazy said 2020-08-10 17:44:14
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    Felll I haven't been on PM in forever but I remember the first story of yours I read. Your family had just moved into a new house and you had just set up your new room which you loved and you were (in my head) just walking around looking at all the little things describing them and where they were. I told you how much I loved that story and you seemed shocked someone read it. You can tell a story like you make your skins, with love that comes from your heart and soul! You truly are a very humble and unique individual and I don't think you even know how special you are. I'm so sorry you've gone thru the things you have in your life at such a young age but I'm SO happy you've found the love you've found and I look forward to your new adventure with you!
    Felll replied to AmyOak's comment below 2020-08-01 18:18:04
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    Haha ofc, I love the anime uwu
    Felll replied to ChatieTheDragon's comment below 2020-08-01 18:17:52
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    Thank you <3
    Felll replied to An Intelligent Moron's comment below 2020-08-01 18:17:41
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    Thank you hun !! I appreciate that ;;
    Felll replied to BlossomBoop's comment below 2020-08-01 18:17:04
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    I'm super happy for you as well! Hearing success stories of relationships starting in the craziest places always makes me so happy and fills me with infinite hope for the future <3
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  • Felll
    May 25, 2020, 10:44 pm to Public
    shout out to all my other 2020 graduating seniors, may our final year of high school rest in peace
    Esurient said 2020-05-26 09:48:39
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    <3
  • Felll
    January 3, 2020, 2:59 am to Public
    be adult = hard mode
    don't try it kids
    Draganette said 2020-01-16 20:00:24
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    So if I wanna be an adult I gotta kill the wall of flesh?
  • Felll
    July 28, 2019, 3:05 pm to Public
    hi you should go support my boyfriend sean (clickity click) and his most recent skin because i love him dearly <3

    but don't tell him i sent you~
  • Felll
    July 15, 2019, 2:35 pm to Public
    the bunny girl skin was restored, if you would like to know more, please refer to azie's comment on the skin :)
    Felll replied to Holographic_'s comment below 2019-07-15 20:30:53
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    i'm glad it's all been sorted out so well :)
    Holographic_ said 2019-07-15 19:45:10
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    Wonderful! ^w^
    Felll replied to Draganette's comment below 2019-07-15 19:38:13
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    thank you so much for your support !!!
    Draganette said 2019-07-15 18:56:34
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    Yup, everybody thank Azie, I made a ticket calling out what happened and she took care of it, if you cannot find any evidence, welp private message me and Ill show you, The wallpost I made about it has been deleted, so either I accidently deleted it without knowing, or it was silently moderated, either way, Azie responded to my ticket and really helped us all out, so fells skin is back up.

    And thank you fell, it was your choice to accept what we were saying, and you did, your the best.
    Felll replied to Kawaii's comment below 2019-07-15 16:54:51
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    <3 thank you
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  • Felll
    May 3, 2019, 12:28 pm to Public
    oh look at that, not dead
    4 Kun said 2019-05-24 18:57:20
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    NANI SORE
    Felll replied to Momu's comment below 2019-05-05 13:46:30
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    i mean honestly i wouldn't be surprised with my luck, but no lmao
    Momu said 2019-05-04 20:49:13
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    I thought you got kidnapped or something
    Felll replied to Nitgo's comment below 2019-05-03 15:02:25
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    damn ig so
    Felll replied to VeryBairy's comment below 2019-05-03 15:02:11
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    i know oof
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  • Felll
    February 8, 2019, 7:11 pm to Public
    hi i'm big tired
    CatGirlGamer said 2019-02-08 19:27:19
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    nice
  • Felll
    August 30, 2018, 9:07 pm to Public
  • Felll
    August 26, 2018, 3:28 pm to Public
    o look at that, a cool discord you should definitely join 👀
  • Felll
    August 20, 2018, 10:38 pm to Public
    Midorish said 2018-08-20 23:31:18
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    spooky
  • Felll shared inactiveaccount444's post
    August 18, 2018, 1:26 pm with Public
    inactiveaccount444
    August 18, 2018, 12:25 pm to Public
    Alright, you guys deserve an explanation to this whole sudden "confession" meme. It started on Mangled's Discord Skinning Server, when Mangled said she would make a wallpost saying she's a boy, due to apparently lots of people presuming so. Then, I agree to make a wallpost confessing that I'm actually a girl. A bunch of other people wanted to join in, so many of us agreed that we would post with this format: "I have a confession to make. I am actually a ___" (Mangled's idea). The first to post was Chabilulu, who went without our go-ahead, claiming she was a salt sprinkler. The second part of the trend was when Luvvly stated we should comment "Bold confession," or text that involves the phrase on anyone's wallpost who is part of the meme, or just posted with no clue as to why we were doing it. The plan was to make it obvious it was a conspiracy by posting at the same time and flooding subscriber's feeds, but we were astonished by the amount of people who thought we were serious, such as people believing Felll was actually twelve, despite her age on her profile, and that Fawne was actually a mom. Lots of people outside of the server caught on, and some took it more seriously that others, with some memeing, and some doing actual confessions. Overall, I'm surprised this turned out to be such a huge, sudden trend, and I want to thank you guys all for going along with the meme.
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    Felll replied to windexbindex's comment below 2018-08-18 17:46:28
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    ah you're fine lol ^^ all in good fun
    windexbindex said 2018-08-18 13:52:52
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    oh my god i was one of the people who actually thought you were twelve ashdhdhffnfgs
    i'm so dumb omg
  • Felll
    August 17, 2018, 5:24 pm to Public
    i have a confession to make. i'm actually 12 lol, please don't hate on me it's just an age !! and we should all respect each other uwu
    Scoody doo said 2018-08-18 01:49:46
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    well this is awkward considering my age owo
    Midorish said 2018-08-17 22:51:42
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    italic confession
    Sylvia_ said 2018-08-17 20:32:00
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    Very bold confession
    len-kun said 2018-08-17 18:36:15
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    very nice! confession : im 13 so it doesn't matter! and you do act very mature <3
    Trader said 2018-08-17 18:19:11
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    I thought you were older! you act so mature lol(heueuhuhe)
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  • Felll
    July 27, 2018, 3:23 pm to Public
    looks like it's that time again; vote for the new skin contest theme ^^
  • Felll
    July 8, 2018, 4:05 am to Public
    screenie from my favorite animu


    123Random said 2018-07-08 21:21:59
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    Very
    mochui said 2018-07-08 08:44:24
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    The smartest :D ♥
    Angel said 2018-07-08 07:22:25
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    Yes you are :)
  • Felll
    June 17, 2018, 1:00 pm to Public
    good morning ^^ it's about 10 in the morning for me on the west coast
    i wanted to invite you all to join a contest being held by DinowCookie and DungeonsDragon
    the concept shouldn't be too difficult for you guys, and it seems super interesting
    the idea of adding tiers so everyone has a fair chance is super innovative and i want to see what you guys produce
    hope y'all consider joining, it seems like a ton of fun; here's the link again if you plan on participating
  • Felll
    May 12, 2018, 10:34 am to Public
    yikes
    Angel said 2018-05-12 12:20:35
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    yas
  • Felll
    March 4, 2018, 3:04 pm to Public
    so, it's been a while
    to begin things i wanna just say i'm OK.
    not dead, yet

    i decided to take a break from pmc, and mc in general
    bc it was the source of a lot of useless stress that i didn't need atm.
    honestly my mental health has probably had even lower lows and
    higher highs after doing so, but i still needed it
    pls don't worry though! i'm like rly fine
    i don't know if i'll go back to posting and such, i just gotta think
    abt what's best for me, which isn't something i do often

    i feel sorta bad bc i kinda just left w/o talking to anyone
    and i was too awkward to say anything to people
    unless they contacted me, so i'm sorry if i made you worry

    hope you guys are doin well
    and i genuinely wish you a rly good day
    Aequotis replied to Felll's comment below 2018-03-06 10:42:45
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    haha noice
    pechee said 2018-03-05 17:41:09
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    in a weird coincidental way, i feel you.

    though i'm actually like leaving permanently so in a way i don't relate 100%, but i'd say a good solid 85%

    but mental health, yeah
    Aeselo said 2018-03-05 06:49:03
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    hi
    Optimism said 2018-03-05 03:31:11
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    O O F
    Felll replied to Aequotis's comment below 2018-03-04 20:05:51
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    honestly she is though
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  • Felll
    January 29, 2018, 8:15 pm to Public
    y'all i just got to 2900 subs
    ily guys so much, i know numbers don't matter but like
    holy heck it's definitely given me a confidence/self image boost
    kinda crazy that you guys could fill up
    my school about seven times, ty for sticken' w me for the two years, or just two hours
    each and every one of you is super great and i can't thank you enough
    Felll replied to Juno's comment below 2018-01-30 20:14:39
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    i think you mean YOu deserve every single one
    bc i sure dont
    Felll replied to Drazile's comment below 2018-01-30 20:13:21
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    thank youu
    Juno said 2018-01-30 12:08:24
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    you deserve every single one ! <3
    Drazile said 2018-01-30 04:58:04
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    woah, congrats!
    Felll replied to Allykaty's comment below 2018-01-29 20:49:02
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    aw tysm
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  • Felll
    January 20, 2018, 1:55 pm to Public
    lookin' forward to the upcoming contest
    you should go vote on the new theme;
    https://www.planetminecraft.com/forums/pmc/challenges/vote-for-the-next-skin-contest-t_563941
  • Felll
    January 11, 2018, 8:00 pm to Public
    YALL
    suiweet is super sweet
    and yall should go subscribe to them
    this is my payment for a fortune telling
    but not a sponsor 1!!
    ICY said 2018-01-11 20:07:21
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    pm me if u want fortune telling from me bc im an actual psychic, not a fraud!! :((
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