I want to turn back
To the days
Where I didn't care about life
And never thought about the knife
Those days where I thought I had friends
In reality I was naive
In the end
I was used
Gullible,betrayed
Useless
I want to be happy
So I fake the smile
I fake my happiness
I fake my personality
The one thing I don't fake
Is my sadness
My friends?
Crush my dreams
'EUGH your stupid'
'U speak weird'
'Ur different'
'Do u just cry for attention'
'Could u buy this for me?'
'Sorry but I don't think you'll achieve your dreams'
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Sure call me attention seeking
Call me whatever I've heard it all
Tree
weirdo
idiot
coward
Asian freak
Liar
Fool
I've been trampled on already
And when I first fought back
Standing up for myself
I just got shouted at
Got into an arguement
Left alone
No one cared
They were fooled by 'I'm ok'
I wanna go back
where I didn't cry everyday
Where people didn't laugh at my misery
Called me a whimp and attention seeking
Where I had some importance
Where I got help
But now
I just hate myself
Why don't I just kill myself?
I'm too scared
I have weak bones
Low pain tolerance
Sensitive
Basically
I'm Pathetic
I'm sorry I'm different
Im Sorry pronounce things different
I'm sorry I'm not English exactly
I'm sorry I don't get 100% in everything
I'm sorry I have a ugly face
I'm sorry I have a big head
I'm sorry for crying so much
I'm sorry for trying to make new friends
I'm sorry for trying to stick up for myself
I'm sorry
So sorry
Sorry
I'm sorry
For being alive
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I don't ask for pity I just ask for a glance just to know I'm not invisible
The world isn't a happy place
everyday is a bad day
youll never convince me
anyday will be a good day