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avatar nightb0x
Level 58 : Grandmaster Pyro
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1.) feelings of severe despondency and dejection. "self-doubt creeps in and that swiftly turns to depression"
Depression (major depressive disorder) is a common and serious medical illness that negatively affects how you feel, the way you think and how you act. Fortunately, it is also treatable. Depression causes feelings of sadness and/or a loss of interest in activities once enjoyed. It can lead to a variety of emotional and physical problems and can decrease a person’s ability to function at work and at home.

I have not been diagnosed by a professional, but it is pretty obvious that im depressed. I don't eat properly anymore and isolate myself in my room all day, blocking out every other human. I had just started being like this around 5 months ago, and its made Tim worry more for me and make his animal/masky state come out more. It's like having a second friend/big brother. I've always been the smallest person in the house, so it's really hard. You may not think so, but I get the least attention. Usually, the little brother gets more attention because the older brother is more mature, but im not biologically his brother, so im treated as the lower class.

Most people won't believe me when I say im depressed, and suicidal, because im young. "Too young to understand emotions" and experience mature situations...

I have been struggling for a long time, and it has just dipped into the suicidal zone... I only have Tim to support me, in the way I need it... so it's been really hard when I isolate myself because can't talk to him because im too broken to feel... anything.
I don't have an escape place because I don't have any friends to talk to, that I can talk to personally, other than my mind... and every time I leave myself alone with my thoughts, I just have flashbacks and images of just horrible things just flood my mind... or images of just static, screaming, and other horrible things... since I have trauma, and many mental disorders, I can't think straight, I get distracted, and whenever someone said to clear my mind I was never able to.. That's why I can't be left alone with my thoughts, because I hallucinate, and breakdown from the stress and fear lurking and grasping at the back of my mind...
Since I have bipolar disorder and depression, I can be happy, then all of a sudden I can't feel anything... This happens around 2:00 - 2:30 am, and sometimes even at 12:00 on rare occasions. I'll stop moving, and think only of nothing, often times lurking to my room, or searching the house for sharp objects. Tim will try to keep me in his room but ill refuse, and only say cryptid things. He hates that a ton.

Tim has grown anxiety, that only strikes up whenever I leave the room, or when I take walks and leave the house, or when I tell him I want to be left alone. I have to explain this before I can tell you anything else. Have you ever felt like you're in a fandom/you really like something, then all of a sudden you like something else and you leave that fandom? Well, ill do that but im in the creepypasta fandom. Then I'll say 'hey, I like 17776 now' then ill be 10 for about, all day and Tim will be J.U.I.C.E. Then when 2:00 am rolls around, I snap back into my Toby state, and just mumble cryptid stuff. At this point, it's out of my hands, because somethings playing with my emotions, and making me feel this way. So, im basically stuck in the CP fandom, or at least with slender until I get mental help because I really cant anymore.

ok, so what I was going to say. Tim has gotten this anxiety, and it's really hard for me when I go into my mental state at night because he won't leave me alone, and ill say I want to take a walk, by putting on my hoodie and pants, and he won't let me leave the house unless im constantly texting him. It's kinda hard for me when I don't live right outside the woods anymore, but that's just my current life now.. im mentally stuck with slender, and people call me childish for believing in him, while people believe in Santa, and the boogie man.. and god...
-Toby
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08/30/2017 5:41 pm
Level 49 : Master Magical Boy
Technoliver
On one hand; I'd think you'd not talk as if you were Toby and proceed to act like you are by mentioning things that've inevitably happened to him if this was truely 100% serious. This kinda crap is what makes some people think of depression and suicide as a joke or that it can just be cured with a simple "stop being a baby" when it can't. I don't care if you are depressed, either way it's not a joke and you shouldn't treat it as such in the end there, nor mention Tim. Tim Wright ain't in your life and you're certainly not Ticci Toby.

But on the other hand, putting that behind me, I get a lot of this that you were talking about. I'm bi-polar, a psychopath, and depressed, not a good combo. I truly hope you can fight your way through this. No matter how heavy the depression or true want of death there's always a rope to help you climb back towards the light. No one deserves to feel like that, stay strong.
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09/01/2017 7:13 pm
Level 58 : Grandmaster Pyro
nightb0x
Well, when I call myself Toby, it's because I am Toby. That's my real name. In real life.
And when I refer to "Tim" Im referring to my buddy, at home, because I prefer calling him that instead of his real name. Yes, role-playing and pretending is fun but only when the time is right. Every single thing in that description is me being 100% honest, and no roleplaying whatsoever. I absolutely would not joke about depression in any way shape or form, because it's not a joke. I know first hand what it feels like, and am offended myself when others joke about it. Yes, I know I don't have Tourettes- a serious thing that people have- and I know im, not the real Toby Rogers, but I sure am close enough in my world. Also, I would never treat a mental illness as a joke, because im not the type of people who do that. Whenever I talk about mental illness, and how it's affected me, personally, im not fooling around, or joking, or RPing. Im completely serious.

Also, I wish you the best of luck as well, have a fine day, friend.
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08/29/2017 9:26 pm
Level 1 : New Explorer
DepressingRose
I don't like to be the nice person in the group but I have extreme depression and I'm still fighting it after 4 years I don't think its treatable on my half but just be strong everything's always fixable
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08/29/2017 2:28 am
Level 12 : Journeyman Fish
SpookyyBagels
I'm at a small stage of depression, you aren't alone. I've been depressed before and Wanted to run away from home, fortunately I got over it. But still I Get very depressed because I look back on peer feedback, and I then realise what that's all meant. Then it hits me. All I can say is.... Good luck.
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08/29/2017 10:06 pm
Level 58 : Grandmaster Pyro
nightb0x
good luck.
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08/29/2017 11:09 pm
Level 12 : Journeyman Fish
SpookyyBagels
I Can't do anything to help you, this is an obsticle only you can fix.

so I wish you luck on Fixing this.
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08/28/2017 7:19 pm
Level 42 : Master Button Pusher
-Evie
I believe in you! You can pull through this <3
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08/28/2017 6:20 pm
Level 10 : Journeyman Network
peaceoutcheesebags
Stay strong. ♥
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08/28/2017 6:04 pm
Level 46 : Master uwu
Dr Hannibal Lecter
Keep strong, and know that you are loved! ♥♥
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08/28/2017 5:48 pm
Level 1 : New Crafter
dylanistaro
I hope you stay strong my dude.
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08/29/2017 10:07 pm
Level 58 : Grandmaster Pyro
nightb0x
im always trying to stay strong, im still fighting
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