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    Fates
    July 18, 2022, 2:35 pm to Public
    If anyone here still remembers me, at any time I can ask for my account to be deactivated, just to let you know and I don't suddenly disappear, and also, my Minecraft account to be deleted too.
    GhostlyBit_57 said 2023-05-29 17:44:19
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    I just found your profile and most of your works are really nice
    Dang...

    I don't know what happened with you to get so unmotivated, but even if you ultimately abandoned your pmc account, I hope whatever you're doing now brings you much more joy
    And if for any other reason you come back, I'll be here to see whatever other cool skins you make

    But for now, I wish you well, wherever you are :)
    OrderOutOfChaos said 2023-02-12 13:48:21
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    Why delete yourself?
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    Fates
    June 18, 2022, 4:20 pm to Public
    Okay, maybe I don't have any more Skin Fight skins, my motivation is gone and, it's just extreme sadness, I'm trying something out of here, which I said in my first SK skin, and I just get thrown in the trash and undervalued in it, it would be something to make me very happy, an achievement that I really want, that many people said I would have, but I literally don't trust anyone anymore, and all this influences on everything, since I'm staring at my PC screen doing nothing and completely unmotivated, procrastinating everything, so if that's the case, I will now try to stay at it 12 hours a day and that's it, otherwise I will throw myself on the floor.
    OrderOutOfChaos said 2023-02-12 13:49:02
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    I’m sorry about that.
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    Fates
    June 1, 2022, 6:23 pm to Public
    So everything worked on my MRI, I'm here. And Happy Pride Month too.
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    Fates
    June 1, 2022, 12:17 am to Public
    Tomorrow my MRI will take place, and I hope everything goes well, because the place I'm going to do is only 3 stars by the Maps, with many complaining about being too long waiting, because my mother decide to change to other because, the first one place was 30 Km from here, and me, fasting for a long time, it won't be easy, because I get sick easily without eating and without drinking, so it can be a very unpleasant day, and that's it.
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    Fates
    May 23, 2022, 9:01 pm to Public
    Well, I'm going to have to face one of my biggest challenges, basically I'm going to have an MRI exam, and as I'm someone very restless and claustrophobic, and I'm sure I won't be able to stay still for a period longer than 1 hour, I'll have to take sedation, which will obviously be by the veins, and then I already have my phobia of needles, but there's more.

    When I read a page on some site telling how this exam is, I get scared. I don't know if I'll have this "contrast" with gadolinium, which says it have certain risks among 3% of people, and if I've already considered myself rare in several things, then I don't doubt to have these risks, besides, I'm afraid that, even with this sedation, I can still move, because I'm someone who, sleeps for 2 minutes and, I'm already dreaming, dreams that really make me restless even when I sleep, and of course, when the situation comes and the time to do something that I have tremendous fear, I feel my heart pass 150 BPM, and lastly, I have a slight frequency of hypertension.

    So it's really complicated, I don't want to have anything bad on myself, and I also don't want to have risk of anything too serious, and knowing all this gives me extreme anxiety, and I really hope that nothing goes wrong, and that's going to happen in 8 days, so it's really close, so wish me luck.
    FishStacks said 2022-05-24 08:57:52
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    Good luck


    also don’t stress about medical things you read online
    HuLeJo said 2022-05-23 21:29:20
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    Good luck!
    samuel9221991 said 2022-05-23 21:07:10
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    mucho texto
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    Fates
    March 30, 2022, 5:50 pm to Public
    Everything I said in the other post was resolved, I thought she would talk a lot about me, but it was OK
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    March 29, 2022, 4:36 pm to Public
    I don't know if anyone still want me here, but now, another problem with me happening here, an accident happened that, was not very problematic, but left me in something else much more problematic, and as always, I have the need to say here.

    Here's the thing, I have the habit of not having control over some of the actions I do, and these things end up causing damage, both to me and to other things, and now this happened, it wasn't a big deal, something happened that, it's common with a lot of people.

    Basically my cell phone's film broke, but it didn't break falling or in some other common way, it broke in a very ridiculous and embarrassing way that, I'm even ashamed to say this here, but it's just a film, what's the problem with all this ? Yes, my mother.

    I'm already afraid of her about things she's done to me, I've done it and she still doesn't know it, and now I don't know how I'm going to say that to her without being afraid of her yelling at me, offending me and even doing something worse, I don't know what I'm going to say at the moment, she will asks how I broke, I'm really too afraid to say that. Also, my mother has a habit of being very kind when I say something bad of that kind, so it takes it all out on me some other day in a random case, and it causes me extreme anxiety.

    I really end up not caring too much about being without the film, because film serves more to protect scratches, because practically I almost never drop my cell phone, I never pass my fingernail on the screen, and also the cell phone is never anywhere that it can scratch the screen (Pockets for example), but my mother can already starting to be very afraid of it, and we don't even have money to buy a film on my cell phone.

    And now, I'm stuck in this situation, really not knowing what to do, because it's just a film, but how can I tell my mother all this? I really don't know, when I say I'm a complete trash, nobody believe it.
    FishStacks replied to anonpmc4072473's comment below 2022-03-29 16:54:20
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    "take it like a man" is one of the worst things to say to someone going through stress and anxiety
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    Fates
    March 8, 2022, 1:56 pm to Public
    System restore saved my life, and the internet seems to have come back except Discord, but as I'm a pessimist, it might stop again, but for now, it's back, I can go on Internet finally.
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    March 8, 2022, 9:35 am to Public
    Something really bad is happening, my PC just doesn't work with the Internet anymore, and I need to do a lot of things, I can't live with a PC without Internet, I can never play games again, and do literally nothing else in my life, and how always, there was this garbage weather called rain, which makes our energy flicker, and being able to spoil things, literally, more and more, my rain phobia intensifies, I see a rain in Minecraft, harmless, and I already despair of using it "/weather clear", and now, I don't know, nothing will make any more sense in my life, my thoughts are already thinking about certain things, nobody likes me on this site anymore, nobody likes me in the whole Internet, and the whole fight that happened in this contest got even worse, now I'm getting EXTREMELY SICK.

    If I disappear from everything, you all know what could have happened.
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    Fates
    March 6, 2022, 6:19 pm to Public
    Yes, the results of this last Contest were revealed, and I couldn't expect anything else, I was pessimistic, and I predicted well, but certain things are not at all acceptable, I already expected these unacceptable things, but one thing I didn't expect is, the courage of the site to do these things, and now, me? Yes, me again? Yes, me, the most hated on the site or maybe on the entire internet? Yes twice, and the only one who suffers from bias in a Contest because I'm controversial and dramatic? Yes five times, that made a lot of huge texts in Wall Posts and want to do again now? Yes ten times or maybe infinite.

    Click at your own risk
    OrderOutOfChaos said 2023-02-12 13:51:42
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    That’s ridiculous and unfair to you.
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    Fates
    January 20, 2022, 3:07 pm to Public
    Well, I don't know why I'm still here, it seems like I really enjoy suffering, trying again something that stresses me out so much, I really don't know how to have a permanent goodbye to something, I feel like I'm going to regret leaving, even though I'm very happy outside of it, there's still a compulsion that makes me want to try again, and again, and again, which is why, I should be very careful what I get into, often when I get into something, I get sealed off without being able to say goodbye, and I'll just stay out of it for real with a permanent ban, as has also happened on another place with me for drama (But I DON'T want that), but with very sure, I don't want to take any of this any more seriously , if I get 0 votes, normal, no one likes me, so I don't want to be impressed and frustrated with these kinds of things anymore.

    And here I am again, entering the event of a server that doesn't make me more pleasant, and therefore, I don't talk on that server anymore, but I don't need to be or talk on the server to participate, but as I said previously, I will be more adored if I communicate on the server, they already tried to force me to do that, but I refuse because, as I already said, I dont want anything biased and, I also intend to delete PBL content on my profile when I LOse, because I won't want these skins on my profile after something unfair, and even if I'm valued, I delete it the same way, because something incurable happened, so I really hope that no one from PBL cares, or refuses my entry on PBL because I deleted the skins or for any other reasons, I can think about reposting everything and, if you all want, adding it back to your collection in the right order, but I'm not sure about that.

    So I just want to participate, I'm just more interested in making the skins, because I find the palettes interesting, otherwise not, because I wanted to lose my eyes when a user posted a red and green skin, which already had emojis on the server, and that I didn't like it 1 year ago, because I only joined the server 1 year ago to try to improve something, but it actually got worse, and posting this two-color skin on the site is not cool (Because for me, skins of 2 two colors, but with very unpleasant colors should be spam, or skins with only 2 colors in general, there are some better ones, but the site community doesn't know how to make things nicer), regardless if he deleted 30 minutes later, this is unacceptable, anyway, here is my skin for the entry: Mucky Future
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    Fates
    December 26, 2021, 12:19 pm to Public
    Below is a text of me evaluating, what happened to me at PBL, you can find out more in the previous Wall Post, and this text will be hidden here because, I think it will be better for comfortability.

    I can't guarantee that I was "constructive" in what I said in this text below, but I spoke with all respect and, without literally offending anyone, I just pointed out and evaluated the wrong things that there was in this PBL against my opponent, in which it wasn't just me that happened, but on me it was much more drastic.

    It's over 1,000 words, enter at your own risk and, that was my opinion, if you disagree with all of this, I'm sorry.
    Fates replied to yoshiciao's comment below 2022-01-20 19:48:11
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    Another one here just got a little disrespectful, but you are disrespectful, offensive and demotivating, and that's not it anymore, I really never tolerated many things you've already said not being against me, so just disappear from here and get blocked permanently and, avoid demotivating and disrespectful comments to others too, I really don't want any more drama going forward, so to resolve this, I remove comments from here.
    yoshiciao said 2022-01-20 17:06:04
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    heres a thing about pmc
    nobody gives a shit if you lose or win a contest
    and that's a good thing
    Fates replied to Zitzabis's comment below 2021-12-29 11:02:36
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    That's exactly what I said in my text and to the other user here, I'll have fun and think it's fair when obviously, things are fair, and I lost to another opponent last season, I made a reasonably not so good skin, and I almost got a tie, that skin was very experimental, but I'm not going to evaluate my opponent's skin this season because, I think I've evaluated too many things around here, but that season I was fine, and look, it was the first week with brackets, and I didn't make any of that, and the rest you can find out more in the fourth line of my answer from the other reviewer here.

    And here's another example, you said so well about my skin last season, but mysteriously I lost, because a vote was for myself, if I decided to vote for the one that got the most votes, I would lose, and you two had the choice to, don't vote for yourself, and I did that, I also said about it at the end of my Wall Post text, and why is that? Find out more in the fifth line of my answer with the other user here, because I don't have to repeat the same thing over and over again, this is already too long.

    Anyway, I don't think I have much more to talk about here, a user has also sent me huge messages in my Discord DMs about an official Contest that, I also complained about, and wasn't able to change me either. I'm not going to say names, but it's a user who likes to make gross Wall Posts, and all this is something I say for sure, so saying it again and lately, you can talk freely, but changing won't do it.

    And I'm sorry if that gets any ban on me because, I cause too much drama, but I had to. If you want to show this also to the user who mentioned me on his server with another text, you can, because I'm not really going to say that on the server, the chats are active and, it doesn't work for me.

    That's it, probably, it's one of the longest Wall Posts here.
    Fates replied to Spectral's comment below 2021-12-29 11:02:26
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    OK, since you all decided to come here and send over 300 messages on the PBL server just talking about me, I'll have to answer that and argue about it, because there's one thing I'd like to make clear is that, I won't change, when I say this, it's to keep 80% of everything I said unchanged, so let's start the arguments, if you don't want drama on the site, I'm sorry but you answered me directly and I will have to do this, I will keep respect, obviously.

    Don't think you can "humiliate" me and call me a beginner saying I need to learn, and I'm sorry if I'm bragging about it, but I've done a lot of skins in Contests and, getting high scores, I study a lot about how to fit everything into a skin, I have inspirations, I spend hours and days making a skin, I've already spent 2 weeks making a skin, and these skins became something very good, and in the old days it wasn't like that, I didn't have this fear of ratings or anything very unfair, because there was more accuracy, today everything on this site is like that.

    That is, it was the same thing in Shiny Knight, my skin is clearly from levels close to my opponent, but one thing is for sure, I'll have fun when things are fair, and you have to be really "deluded" to compare 5 to 20 with 1 to 100, that's a hundred people, don't you get it? And if it were in my case 1 to 100, you can be assured that I would do something much heavier than that, because based on your example, you do something of extreme effort, and literally, LITERALLY nobody liked what you did? Seriously, to get to that point (I'm saying about 1 to 100), either my skin is absurdly offensive, or it's a lousy skin, like I randomly scatter the pixels, and create a "Noise Mode" just with the colors from the palette, in the worst possible ways, this is a good example of what a very bad skin would be, and it really wasn't the case here, but saying again, it's the case from a 1 to 100.

    And you doesn't come with this encouragement of wanting to grow me, because one thing is a fact, obviously you will prefer someone else who, is a friend of many, is the admin of your server, and is still big on the site itself, even if it's a very minimal preference, but that's what happens here, and clearly you won't prefer someone who has done many controversial things in the past, who is not your friend, and who barely speaks on your server, and the technic you will use to grow me is exactly that thing, limiting myself to several things, because you can see that the importance is much less than you have with members who barely speak on your server, or who arent even on your server, this is visible easily and, I won't be deluded by it.

    That is, you can try to help and support less famous users, but you like your friends so much that it happens, and for you to support less famous, they must become exactly like your friends, and if I don't already I have no friends on the site, imagine on your server that, I don't like many things that happen, and something very important in the threads is to remove the comments, an option that doesn't exist, but should exist, because there is a user who was much idolized by other in season one, I still prefer not to say names because, someone already complained about it to me on the past, but the user has an Italian name, and whoever idolized him was one with a very long name, and he posted "shitpost" in the comments, and giving considerably unfair support to him, being very flashy, if people don't know how to use the comments section then, you have an option to block them.

    And as I said in the skin names as well, you avoid as much as possible putting a title "meme" or "shitpost" or extremely informal to the point of being too flashy, because there is a user who does that a lot, and this is clearly and purposefully for winning more easily, moreover, puts absurdly offensive images in the skin description, close to being NSFW, and the site is not caring about that.

    And just like I said, I'll have fun when things are fair, and in the case of the official PMC Contests, the only thing I learn is, the judges are all crooked and, that this is all predictable, but frustration can keep up, and I won't leave the internet or the site, I'll just not post more content, but I'm keeping an eye on everything, and no, I won't solve any problems, there's no way to solve horrible things like this.
    Spectral said 2021-12-28 22:18:06
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    I'm sorry you felt that way about PBL, It shouldn't be stressing you out that much, it is supposed to be a friendly community competition. You show a lot of conviction in your skinning, but still have a lot to learn, and that's what we are here for, growth as artists. Just because you only earned 1 vote and someone else earned a 100, doesn't mean your skin isn't appreciated, and just because you don't see another skin as worthy doesn't mean they don't deserve the win either. Your perceptions about the contest aren't entirely true, theres nobody trying to vote against you and voting for friends just because is rare. The great thing about the competition is the participation and interaction between very experienced skinners and less popular newer skinners. It gives a chance for the underdog to shine, and you put up a fight. I'm sure a lot of us loved the skins you put out for PBL. At the end of the day, it doesn't matter how many votes you got or your number on the leaderboard, it matters that you had fun and learned.



    I hope you'll feel better after distancing yourself from the web, I know how frustrating it can get sometimes, and life already is very stressful. I hope you can solve those problems you've talked about and Good luck!
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    Fates
    December 24, 2021, 9:03 am to Public
    Well, it looks like really, effort on this site here is completely useless, and really this PBL event is not worth it at all, I'm not going to participate in an event that's just stress, where votes are completely biased, because I am able to create a very hard-working skin, a skin that gave me a lot of work, which the goal was not necessarily to win, but at least something next to tied to happen, and then what I get in my face is, 5 to 20 votes?

    Seriously, is the effort here completely for nothing? Do I create a skin that gave me a lot of work for this? For me to be completely devalued? It looks like my skin is a complete trash, and that's what really happens when I go up against someone much more famous than me, people will only vote by person and not by skin, and that's how it will always work on this immature site, and for sure, it's completely useless to have any effort around here anymore, because even the official contests aren't being good, On the last I was able to get 13th on my hardest skin ever, and what gets 2nd is a pure gradient skin, as if I were in 2014.

    So you can really see that, it's useless to have effort, and literally nobody cares about me, while others in 2 years get almost 1000 subscribers being more inactive than me, I only get 200 subscribers, so if literally nobody wants to care about me, so I don't see any reason to be actively on this site anymore, I'll just post the skins from the Secret Santa event, and get interested in something more helpful and that really has my effort valid, also, skins are literally getting too repetitive for me and, I have no idea of ​​anything relevant anymore, so seriously, if my effort here is useless, then I'll go where it's really valued, that is, out of here, and if users only like generic and overrated, So it proves literally that, I'm just someone random on that site, irrelevant by everyone.

    And with all that said, in 2022 you shouldn't see me any more active here, I didn't have a happy Christmas and I won't have a happy new year either.
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    Fates
    December 17, 2021, 8:14 pm to Public
    Just today, I've completed my last year of school, these last two years of the pandemic were pretty complicated, but now it's over, I've been able to get through it all, and now in a few months, I'll have new goals, and I'll be turning 18 a few months from now too, I hope that I can really succeed with this future.

    I had a lot of problems at school, but I managed to get over them and, I passed.
    Fates replied to aquarine's comment below 2021-12-18 09:58:20
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    Thanks
    aquarine said 2021-12-18 08:49:03
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    congrats mate!
    Fates replied to GreenPhoenix332's comment below 2021-12-18 08:03:03
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    Thanks.
    Fates replied to FishStacks's comment below 2021-12-18 08:02:55
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    Thanks
    GreenPhoenix332 said 2021-12-17 21:18:56
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    CONGRATS
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    Fates
    December 13, 2021, 1:45 pm to Public
    Well, more problems are coming here, and this time they are very bad ones, and the thing is, some decisions must be very thought out before they are made, or even, it's better to stick with the current one than change it, but that's not what's just happened some time ago here.

    The thing is, my mother decided to change the house with someone else, because that person was interested in living in our house, but I didn't approve of the idea, but as my mother is a very selfish person, she agreed because, our old house it was too closed, and this new one is not.

    Everything was really normal around here, until she really realized that, this house was completely improvised and "temporary", and she changed without knowing about it, and when it starts to rain here, it starts to have numerous drips, and today, it made a huge pool of water inside, and it can happen anywhere in the house.

    What if this happens on PC or something else very important and expensive? And then literally fall on top of the PC, and you already know what happens next, my life got meaningless if, I lose something as valuable as this, and I'm literally going to disappear and walk away, because really, my life is very BAD.

    And that's how I develop my biggest phobia, the phobia of rains and storms, when there's a rain here, I can't do anything, I despair and I just get restless, all my good mood disappears for the rest of the day, and I suffer an anxiety attack from so much fear of this disastrous climate.

    I'm also having to deal with extreme heat at 40°C, I've had to deal with extreme cold at 2°C, which was really bad, and now it's extreme heat, I can barely breathe in my house, and my PC is at 90°C pretty much all the time with nothing working, and constant temperature errors.

    Really, I'm done with it, I just need luck.
    Fates replied to Nitgo's comment below 2021-12-13 18:11:55
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    Yes, I already leave it on the table because, I don't have a lot of space, but what would be a water resistant cover? And that would block a vent on the top of the PC, really can it?
    Nitgo said 2021-12-13 17:55:31
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    Cover the PC with a water resistant covering, and keep the PC a tad higher than ground level, maybe on a table or something.
    Fates replied to anonpmc3530281's comment below 2021-12-13 15:28:45
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    Thanks.
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    Thanks
    FishStacks said 2021-12-13 14:56:52
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    Damn that sucks, wish I could help
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    Fates
    December 5, 2021, 6:18 pm to Public
    I appreciate all the compliments I got for my map, it's now officially posted here, I really got it.

    The Precious Nando's Village.
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    December 5, 2021, 3:24 pm to Public
    I have good news, the map is complete, at least complete enough, here is a panoramic view of the map, in a few hours it will be posted, I think I am satisfied.

    lovfallande said 2021-12-06 16:12:13
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    yooo that's awesome
    ohkay said 2021-12-05 16:32:01
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    this is so pretty (:
    mirabilia said 2021-12-05 16:01:43
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    ahhh that's so pretty!
    ObsidianFoxPlayz said 2021-12-05 15:29:53
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    Cool :0
    FishStacks said 2021-12-05 15:26:16
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    that looks amazing!
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    Fates
    December 4, 2021, 8:59 pm to Public
    I think that really everything is wanting to go wrong here, every day worse, every day more stress, every day thinking because why just with me, I just want to finish this map, but nothingg can work, today I switched to Spectator Mode, and all my PC crashed for hours and I almost missed a lot, spent hours trying to unfreeze my PC, my mother fight a lot because I turned it off too late, but I needed to get a Login Streak of 200 on LabyMod.

    I didn't lose the map, but I lost hours of time, I need to spend all day making this map, because I don't understand how making just a 100x100 area of ​​the map can take so long, and I'm not so much satisfied with the result, I'm spending more than 40 hours on this map, it takes me so long to build, and not even something that good is coming out, and maybe that's all for nothing, I've made several maps for the Map Contests here at PMC, and never got a Finalist doing the map for many hours, while others in 10 hours build a city.

    I really hope I can complete this map tomorrow, it's only a few parts left, but I'll also have to take Screenshots and Description, which will also take time, and that's it, I try to get out of very competitive things and go casual to try to be less stressed, but the stress is even more.
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    Fates
    November 27, 2021, 10:13 am to Public
    Everything is now a complete trash here, just boredom, stress and frustration, all this because I lost a map, literally nothing is working here, everything I try to put effort into, ends up being destroyed, everything that looks good doesn't come, only the bad comes, always I start something and I can't finish, I just finish basic stuff and effortlessly, everything I want to dedicate longer is spoiled, because I'm literally useless, and even at school I'm like that, and I don't even know why I still post here if no one comments, I'm probably too trash that I don't deserve any comments, and posting these unnecessary things.
    Papa Enny replied to Fates's comment below 2021-11-30 04:20:13
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    I understand

    I hope your situation would be better soon
    Fates replied to Papa Enny's comment below 2021-11-29 20:55:51
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    Well I believe, all I want to say is the same for moltenoni, and I don't want to spam the answer, you can see it on the Wall Post.
    Fates replied to MOLTENONI's comment below 2021-11-29 20:55:20
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    I don't know, I can't think of good expectations anymore, things are getting worse here, and it's really hard for me to take a break, even if I just stop a few things, I have severe addiction that, I want I get overwhelmed when I do something really wrong to try to solve it, now I'm trying to do this map 6 hours a day to try to solve it, but to get that time, I'm putting off other things I shouldn't, I think it's working.

    Just now a very big tragedy happened, with all the stress I had today and a few days ago, my attention decreases a lot, because I already have ADHD, I'm very restless, but sometimes I know how to control myself, but with all this stress, the limits crossed, I just missed a big streak that, I had never dropped my cellphone since 2019, this is serious, I never literally dropped my phone, today it just happened, I got so stressed that, I lost completely the attention, and as I'm too restless, I have a habit of bumping into everything, until it happened on my cell phone from my bunk bed, and it, yes, dropped.

    But, the damage wasn't the worst, as I was lucky it landed up, which I believe is the form that does the least damage, my cell phone is tougher than it looks, even though it's thin, but it happens in these days of stress, all of a sudden, and then my mother starts fighting me about it, like she always did, but there's a problem, she's very toxic, angry and also a little narcissistic, she criticizes me in the most humiliating way possible, and that doesn't help me at all, I wanted some help, but not just any help, but help from a very experienced professional, someone that really cares about me and, can talk with me kindly, but how am I going to get that if, my mother refuses to search by one because, she already claims to be almost one, even not helping me at all and not being kindly and helpful.

    That's really it, I say it with complete sincerity, she really criticizes me a lot in unhelpful ways, but even so, I end up really hating myself because of it, it's not today that I have self-hatred, but lately it's getting a lot worse, and now it's really getting really bad, everything seems to be happening all at once, and I can only predict bad things, I can't have any optimism anymore, and believe me, 90% of problems here only started in March 2020, and in March that started something worldwide, you know.

    I'm trying to be happy doing other things, but it only lasts until tragedy strikes, it's really hard.
    Papa Enny said 2021-11-27 12:19:51
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    I lost a lot of stuff to, I was or am(not sure) in the phase where I feel that everything is boring and i don't want do it anythng
    It will be better, you just need to be patient
    Try to do other things like read a good book watch some videos to get the good feeling
    It's good that you try to share your problem and emotions

    You can even write to me about any topic(I am open for any kind of stuff) or try to talk with people, even a simple: Hello is worth a lot
    MOLTENONI said 2021-11-27 11:12:52
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    come on dont say that about yourself, you arent trash mate
    your stuff is not unnecesary or all those kinda stuffs, trust me on this

    emotions need to be let out, especially if you have, you know, been feeling this way

    trust me here, things get better
    do take a break if youre feeling overworked or like, it's not fun, and well, pick it back up after a while C:

    youve got amazing colors and a lot of talent, like, your things look amazing mate

    just, do take care of yourself, watch a show, get your favorite food, talk with friends,
    in general, just do something that makes you happy C:
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    Fates
    November 26, 2021, 3:14 pm to Public
    Look, I think buildings in Minecraft really don't work for me, I already had PTSD with a building, and now it happened again, I just wanted to delete a single Invisible Armor Stand, and simply the command erased all the Armor Stands that existed in the my map that, there were more than 300, and it also had Invisible Item Frames, I had a huge work of, using them for the decoration of the map, a pain to position them right, for just one wrong command to spoil everything, LITERALLY EVERYTHING.

    I'm already too slow to build, with very little time to get into this NVIDIA event, I was half aware that, I couldn't finish everything I wanted, and now I really won't, all because I'm a fool, dumb and idiot, all because I'm a complete failure who, don't think before I do something, now my only wish is to simply erase this map and spank my head until it explodes.

    I could have a Backup Mod to try to recover something, but it just doesn't exist for 1.17.1, I could have the Replay Mod to recover for at least one video/pic and then I would remember what to do, but it just doesn't exist. for Forge, and I need Forge for other important mods, but Fabric also has other important Mods, or I could, if possible, disable AutoSave completely, so I would just shut down inappropriately to not save anything from wrong things that I've done, but here, the power always goes out once a week, and I would lose things that I wasn't supposed to lose, that's all way too complicated.

    I wasn't getting other things right anymore, because everything now stresses me out so easily, and since I've already finished Fanvember, I just don't have any Skins ideas anymore, so if I post skins much less often than usual, it's because of that,, this map for the NVIDIA event that could encourage me to create more maps in the future, now it's been completely ruined because I'm the worst person that exists, I tried to plan a routine for me to do some things because, lately it's all messed up, it was going well in the beginning, when it came time to create the map, it was all over, I literally HATE myself completely.
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