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  Fates
  December 5, 2021, 3:24 pm to Public
  I have good news, the map is complete, at least complete enough, here is a panoramic view of the map, in a few hours it will be posted, I think I am satisfied.
  
  
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  lovfallande said 2021-12-06 16:12:13

  

  yooo that's awesome

  ohkay said 2021-12-05 16:32:01

  

  this is so pretty (:

  mirabilia said 2021-12-05 16:01:43

  

  ahhh that's so pretty!

  ObsidianFoxPlayz said 2021-12-05 15:29:53

  

  Cool :0

  FishStacks said 2021-12-05 15:26:16

  

  that looks amazing!
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  Fates
  December 4, 2021, 8:59 pm to Public
  I think that really everything is wanting to go wrong here, every day worse, every day more stress, every day thinking because why just with me, I just want to finish this map, but nothingg can work, today I switched to Spectator Mode, and all my PC crashed for hours and I almost missed a lot, spent hours trying to unfreeze my PC, my mother fight a lot because I turned it off too late, but I needed to get a Login Streak of 200 on LabyMod.
  
  I didn't lose the map, but I lost hours of time, I need to spend all day making this map, because I don't understand how making just a 100x100 area of ​​the map can take so long, and I'm not so much satisfied with the result, I'm spending more than 40 hours on this map, it takes me so long to build, and not even something that good is coming out, and maybe that's all for nothing, I've made several maps for the Map Contests here at PMC, and never got a Finalist doing the map for many hours, while others in 10 hours build a city.
  
  I really hope I can complete this map tomorrow, it's only a few parts left, but I'll also have to take Screenshots and Description, which will also take time, and that's it, I try to get out of very competitive things and go casual to try to be less stressed, but the stress is even more.
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  Fates
  November 27, 2021, 10:13 am to Public
  Everything is now a complete trash here, just boredom, stress and frustration, all this because I lost a map, literally nothing is working here, everything I try to put effort into, ends up being destroyed, everything that looks good doesn't come, only the bad comes, always I start something and I can't finish, I just finish basic stuff and effortlessly, everything I want to dedicate longer is spoiled, because I'm literally useless, and even at school I'm like that, and I don't even know why I still post here if no one comments, I'm probably too trash that I don't deserve any comments, and posting these unnecessary things.
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  Papa Enny replied to Fates's comment below 2021-11-30 04:20:13

  

  I understand
  
  I hope your situation would be better soon

  Fates replied to Papa Enny's comment below 2021-11-29 20:55:51

  

  Well I believe, all I want to say is the same for moltenoni, and I don't want to spam the answer, you can see it on the Wall Post.

  Fates replied to MOLTENONI's comment below 2021-11-29 20:55:20

  

  I don't know, I can't think of good expectations anymore, things are getting worse here, and it's really hard for me to take a break, even if I just stop a few things, I have severe addiction that, I want I get overwhelmed when I do something really wrong to try to solve it, now I'm trying to do this map 6 hours a day to try to solve it, but to get that time, I'm putting off other things I shouldn't, I think it's working.
  
  Just now a very big tragedy happened, with all the stress I had today and a few days ago, my attention decreases a lot, because I already have ADHD, I'm very restless, but sometimes I know how to control myself, but with all this stress, the limits crossed, I just missed a big streak that, I had never dropped my cellphone since 2019, this is serious, I never literally dropped my phone, today it just happened, I got so stressed that, I lost completely the attention, and as I'm too restless, I have a habit of bumping into everything, until it happened on my cell phone from my bunk bed, and it, yes, dropped.
  
  But, the damage wasn't the worst, as I was lucky it landed up, which I believe is the form that does the least damage, my cell phone is tougher than it looks, even though it's thin, but it happens in these days of stress, all of a sudden, and then my mother starts fighting me about it, like she always did, but there's a problem, she's very toxic, angry and also a little narcissistic, she criticizes me in the most humiliating way possible, and that doesn't help me at all, I wanted some help, but not just any help, but help from a very experienced professional, someone that really cares about me and, can talk with me kindly, but how am I going to get that if, my mother refuses to search by one because, she already claims to be almost one, even not helping me at all and not being kindly and helpful.
  
  That's really it, I say it with complete sincerity, she really criticizes me a lot in unhelpful ways, but even so, I end up really hating myself because of it, it's not today that I have self-hatred, but lately it's getting a lot worse, and now it's really getting really bad, everything seems to be happening all at once, and I can only predict bad things, I can't have any optimism anymore, and believe me, 90% of problems here only started in March 2020, and in March that started something worldwide, you know.
  
  I'm trying to be happy doing other things, but it only lasts until tragedy strikes, it's really hard.

  Papa Enny said 2021-11-27 12:19:51

  

  I lost a lot of stuff to, I was or am(not sure) in the phase where I feel that everything is boring and i don't want do it anythng
  It will be better, you just need to be patient
  Try to do other things like read a good book watch some videos to get the good feeling
  It's good that you try to share your problem and emotions
  
  You can even write to me about any topic(I am open for any kind of stuff) or try to talk with people, even a simple: Hello is worth a lot

  MOLTENONI said 2021-11-27 11:12:52

  

  come on dont say that about yourself, you arent trash mate
  your stuff is not unnecesary or all those kinda stuffs, trust me on this
  
  emotions need to be let out, especially if you have, you know, been feeling this way
  
  trust me here, things get better
  do take a break if youre feeling overworked or like, it's not fun, and well, pick it back up after a while C:
  
  youve got amazing colors and a lot of talent, like, your things look amazing mate
  
  just, do take care of yourself, watch a show, get your favorite food, talk with friends,
  in general, just do something that makes you happy C:
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  Fates
  November 26, 2021, 3:14 pm to Public
  Look, I think buildings in Minecraft really don't work for me, I already had PTSD with a building, and now it happened again, I just wanted to delete a single Invisible Armor Stand, and simply the command erased all the Armor Stands that existed in the my map that, there were more than 300, and it also had Invisible Item Frames, I had a huge work of, using them for the decoration of the map, a pain to position them right, for just one wrong command to spoil everything, LITERALLY EVERYTHING.
  
  I'm already too slow to build, with very little time to get into this NVIDIA event, I was half aware that, I couldn't finish everything I wanted, and now I really won't, all because I'm a fool, dumb and idiot, all because I'm a complete failure who, don't think before I do something, now my only wish is to simply erase this map and spank my head until it explodes.
  
  I could have a Backup Mod to try to recover something, but it just doesn't exist for 1.17.1, I could have the Replay Mod to recover for at least one video/pic and then I would remember what to do, but it just doesn't exist. for Forge, and I need Forge for other important mods, but Fabric also has other important Mods, or I could, if possible, disable AutoSave completely, so I would just shut down inappropriately to not save anything from wrong things that I've done, but here, the power always goes out once a week, and I would lose things that I wasn't supposed to lose, that's all way too complicated.
  
  I wasn't getting other things right anymore, because everything now stresses me out so easily, and since I've already finished Fanvember, I just don't have any Skins ideas anymore, so if I post skins much less often than usual, it's because of that,, this map for the NVIDIA event that could encourage me to create more maps in the future, now it's been completely ruined because I'm the worst person that exists, I tried to plan a routine for me to do some things because, lately it's all messed up, it was going well in the beginning, when it came time to create the map, it was all over, I literally HATE myself completely.
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  Fates
  November 21, 2021, 10:12 am to Public
  Well, I believe that I already, finished all the Fanskins that I really wanted to do, it was fun and, I could learn a lot of things from different artists up close.
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  Fates
  November 1, 2021, 3:33 pm to Public
  I couldn't fully enjoy any event related to "Inktober" in October, so this November, I'll try to participate in Fanvember, in October I wasn't doing so well, and when I got better, I had already lost many days to continue my Animaltober, so I will try to participate a lot in Fanvember, I don't know if I can every day, but I should get at least 10, so today I will post the first Fanskin.
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  Fates
  October 11, 2021, 4:44 pm to Public
  Well, today is the day that I'm completely doing nothing, I'm standing at the PC looking at my Desktop, why? Boredom, just boredom, nothing for me is more interesting to do, I don't really know what's going on.
  
  I see others doing these things, and I really don't understand how it can be so interesting, because I can't see it anymore, literally I'm more excited for nothing, even as I try new things, I start these new things and I don't finish, I always start and I don't finish.
  
  Well, that's it, maybe I'll cancel this Animaltober, or even permanently quit Minecraft or simply everything, I'll be able to enjoy nothing in October, and then I'll end up regretting it, I'll get even worse and, I don't know, I'm extremely tired.
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  Fates
  October 9, 2021, 2:52 pm to Public
  The results of the Contest came out and, nothing special, the same thing I said in the previous Wall Posts, except on my skin that was not really good, but I don't want to get mad anymore because, it was predictable, they really wanted to change everything.
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  Fates
  October 6, 2021, 11:30 pm to Public
  Yes, it looks like I can't really have fun making skins anymore, it just seems like I'm really enjoying making this Animaltober, but it's just getting bored, but why do I? I don't know, I have some kind of extreme compulsion that, I really can't ever stop doing something.
  
  But really, it feels like everything is too repetitive for me, and that doesn't just include here, I'm completely losing interest in everything, I really don't know what's going on, it just feels too repetitive, something doesn't change, everything I try to start , I can't finish anymore, because the compulsion returns me to the old.
  
  This last skin doesn't even look right like a Fennec, because I was already losing patience to make the skin, and as you can see, the shading of all skins is completely the same, just change the color, just pay attention to the pixels, they are few things that change, because skins for me, are becoming something so boring that, I'm copying and pasting everything, doing it fast and without precision.
  
  But even so, I get this extreme compulsion that, I can't never stop doing something, I can't explain it very well, but I'm afraid to regret it in the future, I always end up blaming myself, telling myself why I I left and I didn't continue, I always keep saying that in almost everything I try to leave, why? I don't know, I just think, I missed the opportunity to enjoy it, and that's why I end up blaming myself a lot.
  
  I keep wanting to do other things, but I get stuck in one, and I can't get away from it, I wanted to try new things, but something gets stuck in my head, the compulsion gets stuck in my head, and for some reason, the compulsion wants that I do the same thing over and over, but still, I'm not having fun with this thing anymore.
  
  That's it, everything here is complete boredom, I don't know any way to have fun anymore, it's not something I get so well anymore.
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  winston___ replied to Fates's comment below 2021-10-08 20:28:56

  

  do what u feel u gotta do

  Fates replied to winston___'s comment below 2021-10-08 20:25:56

  

  I've already tried to take a break for 2 months, but it doesn't seem to worked for a long time, I can lose 5 days in total, but those 5 days I would use for Halloween skins, I lost the first one, but I needed it, I will try to still keep making skins, but maybe after October I won't be active anymore at least in skins, maybe I can try something else like Maps if I can with my compulsion.

  Fates replied to Hardcrafter's comment below 2021-10-08 20:25:37

  

  I don't know exactly what you mean, but what I think is, it's really repetitive, I tried a 2 month break and I don't know if it solved much, an example of something new would be Maps, and then I would be more inactive in Skins and I would focus on Maps, but then, I'm afraid that in the future I'll regret because I took a break from skins and didn't enjoy what I could participate in, I really can't explain it well, but that's it.

  winston___ said 2021-10-07 07:14:36

  

  im not telling to u to stop animaltober, because it's a great idea. but maybe take a small break. a lot of skinners miss a day of skintober, crated by Fawne, but they dont stop there. so don't pressure yourself. best of luck.:)

  Hardcrafter said 2021-10-07 05:25:40

  

  Perhaps you're just looking at things too negatively?
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  Fates
  October 4, 2021, 9:57 pm to Public
  I finally managed to finish the letter D, it was very stressful, but I managed to finish it on my cell phone, I just hope I don't suffer too much in the next skins.
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  Fates
  October 4, 2021, 7:55 pm to Public
  I need to make my skin for Animaltober's letter D today, but I'm not able to change the color now in PMCSkin3D after this update, I'm changing the color, but the color of the two squares on the side remains the same, so it stays impossible to make a skin, and I can't miss a day of Animaltober, and I don't know what I'm going to do, I'm already desesperated.
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  Fates replied to FishStacks's comment below 2021-10-04 20:20:21

  

  Thanks but, I can't, my palette system can't be done in other programs, and I don't know how to use these programs either, I'll have to actually try somehow to make the skin in PMCSkin3D, and I can't use the arrows either to change the HSV, I need to make the value completely accurate, and with the mouse it's very difficult, I just hope I can.

  winston___ said 2021-10-04 20:04:59

  

  although they use a different color wheel u could use skindex :>
  www.minecraftskins.com/skin-editor/

  FishStacks said 2021-10-04 19:56:54

  

  yeah its annoying, i just got some motivation to make a skin
  
  trying using blockbench, they have a web version https://web.blockbench.net/
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  Fates
  October 1, 2021, 7:32 pm to Public
  I decided to update the profile picture too, because now, I think I'll be able to come back.
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  Fates
  October 1, 2021, 7:00 pm to Public
  I'm going to try to make several Inktober-inspired skins with the name Animaltober, I saw this idea from another artist who is, to make an animal of each letter of the alphabet, thus giving 26, so, the 7th, 13rd, 19th, 25th and 31st will not have animal skins, so these days they'll have Halloween skins, in 2 hours I'll put the first skin, they'll be quick skins and with smaller palettes, so I'll be able to do it fast.
  
  I think this will make me more active again, I hope, and let's see if I can do it.
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  Fates
  October 1, 2021, 2:15 pm to Public
  After a long time trying to solve this, I think we finally got it, it was good for my brother to speed up and press the Power button, even so I thought it was risky to shut down the PC incorrectly, but it turned on and without crashing now, and I think that's it , I managed to recover the PC, SUCCESS.
  
  And I don't think I've ever done so many Wall Posts at once, I'm sorry if I made anyone uncomfortable.
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  Hardcrafter said 2021-10-01 14:20:34

  

  No worries dude, good to know your PC is running well!
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  Fates
  October 1, 2021, 1:41 pm to Public
  My brother ended up screwing it up, I was hoping to unlock the Profile Screen first so I could try restarting, and my brother hit the Power button right away without wait, and now it's on a terrifying eternal black screen, and now my hopes are zero, my PC is my life, and I need him, it can't end like this.
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  Fates
  October 1, 2021, 1:13 pm to Public
  I finally managed to get out of my profile, but it's still too freezed in the Profile Screen, now I'm thinking about doing a little action.
  
  I'll just turn my PC off and on again, but there's something that might be destined to happen if I try to turn it off and on again, this thing that might happen I don't even prefer to say, just wish me luck, it will work?
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  Fates
  October 1, 2021, 12:32 pm to Public
  Now my PC is freezed on the screen leaving the profile, and it started to rain here, with the risk of flashing the power and turning off my PC, I have a complete phobia of rain, the traumas I've had with rain are countless, I will explode, I just want TO GET OUT OF IT.
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  Fates
  October 1, 2021, 11:51 am to Public
  I'm with serious problems with my PC, it just doesn't want to work, today it took almost 1 hour to turn on and, everything is freezing, nothing is loading, every program I open crashes, and everything is slow, and now it has a black screen, just showing the mouse pointer, and it doesn't come out of it anymore.
  
  I'm thinking about hitting the power button, but I don't know if I should do it, I really don't know what else to do, today has been one of the worst days ever, I only slept 4 hours, I lost something on my cell phone, and now , the PC is freezed and doesn't work anymore, literally, more and more I think about giving up of EVERYTHING.
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  Fates replied to Hardcrafter's comment below 2021-10-01 12:00:24

  

  Fix what? If you're talking about taking my PC somewhere for repair, I already think about nightmares and a lot of horrible thoughts for that, we don't have money for anything more, I just want it to work, it's stucked on Desktop now, freezed and working nothing.
  
  I'm just freaking out.

  Hardcrafter said 2021-10-01 11:56:16

  

  Well that's quite unfortunate. Hope you can get it repaired for relatively cheap.
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  Fates
  September 26, 2021, 9:02 pm to Public
  I'm not coming back fully yet, I just made a skin for the Mob Contest so I wouldn't be left out, I made this skin in just 3 hours and it's very messy, so it's just for me to try and get a finalist, I need a little more time to try to come back here, but it's not guaranteed that I'll be active again as before, the frustrations I've had here were already too much.
  
  I was out here and also not playing Minecraft more, both for me were repetitive and too frustrating, I got out for a while, it got a little better so, I'll try to stay a little longer and see if I can get back to being active, but it's really not guaranteed.
  
  And even if I go back, I won't trust the judges of these contests anymore, I might even try hard on the skins, but I won't be more optimistic, so that in the end, I end up in extreme frustration with those crooked ratings of the Leaderboards.
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  Fates
  August 27, 2021, 3:13 pm to Public
  So, I'm going to answer someone who sent me a post in the comments of my previous Wall Post, I'll have to do it again, but it's not my fault, it wasn't me that provoked more responses.
  
  So, in that post, it says to make skins for yourself and not for others, if it's saying that I make skins for fun, that's exactly what I had, I made the skin having a lot of fun, but that's no reason for the contest to be wrongly judged.
  
  It's like you, making a normal drawing, and what wins is a scribble, this is not a comparison, it's an example, the Contest has strong prizes for the first places, it doesn't mean that my skin was supposed to be above the third, but at least on the 10th, you see the skin above me, and the one below me, you see in the eyes that, I don't deserve that position.
  
  I focus more on shading, but even so, the Technical and Execution scores were low, and the skin that gets 2nd is pure gradient, while other users who also do pure gradient are there on the 30th, and they don't execute not bad at all, completely gradient skins were very powerful in 2015, but today, it's not the same anymore.
  
  So really, there's a whole reason for my frustration about these judges, and there's one more thing that I've noticed, they don't spend 1 or 2 weeks judging anymore, on the first day, almost everyone is 100% already, it proves that , they are doing everything in anyway, before, on the first day, none were at 100%, it was almost 2 weeks to finish judging and really, the results were pretty accurate, literally it wasn't a flat skin above a super detailed skin , it wasn't like that, today it's like that.
  
  Also, they chose a lot of completely random users as judges, users who, you don't even know if they've passed a test or actually know how to judge, suddenly become judge in the middle of everything, and also, I wasn't the only one, several other users got horrible ratings on really well made skins, some examples are the 41st 33rd 23rd and of course the 13rd, among some others too, so apparently Contest here are not worth it anymore, and neither is this site either, so really you may or may not see me again, that's it.
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  Fates replied to Wited's comment below 2021-08-30 10:11:21

  

  No, if so, why would I enter Contests? If what matters to you is fun and nothing else, then why enter a Contest? It's like you do a great job, you have a lot of fun with it, and somebody out there physically destroys it, like you built something big in real life, you have fun with it, but someone came along and destroyed everything you did, and then you literally won't mind the destruction of everything you've done because, what matters was the fun while you did it? No, that's not quite how it works, everything I said above is fact, if you don't want to accept it, then keep it up, I don't mind a bit.

  Wited said 2021-08-29 22:23:54

  

  but you had fun and thats the point
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