i forgot to post this

I'm busy since more as a month to organize a exhibition in real life and didn't realize that i haven't posted anything here, ooops. I posted yet a blog to explain this event...

so like
im scared of sleeping due to horrible nightmares
i take meds for it but i still sometimes have them
after some therapy work, whenever a nightmare comes so does a dragon. and the dragon swallows me. and spits me back into my bed. and i wake up.

Quite (un)funny how I've already cut out 2 entire chapters for a relatively interesting beginning and had to temporarily get rid of 2 characters for a better pacing. Just so you know, I had like, 5 chapters planned out. Now I only have 2 chapters worth of story and have to figure out how to move all the important stuff from the deleted scenes to next chapters (I do have a general plot, I'm talking about the chapters that were planned out fully).

At first my intention was to write a story in a rather simple way — just describing whatever the heck is happening and that's it. And here I am, trying to make the beginning engaging, wondering what POV to use, trying to write less straightforward and more pleasing, changing the story just so it blends with the writing, thinking about logic way more than I did before, cutting out scenes that feel unnatural...

I'm just writing a real book at this point instead of a little cringy fic. This takes far more time than I expected. I'll have such a hard time translating it into English...

Anyway, once again, I really hope it turns out good... ish, at least. If I ever feel confident with the written chapters, I'll post 'em. Right now though, I fear that I'll have to rewrite a lot, so that basically means no publishing until everything's finished.

No, I do not intend on making long wallposts everyday. I just had a lot of thoughts and stuff. Thanks to whoever cares to read all that.

До скорого, ай гесс.

The exhaustion of having to render a build for a third time, after having to reload Minecraft to fix mistakes on three separate occasions

momther day

After awhile of reading. I finally finished up reading the last book I was on. Which will be my 50th book I have read. Have to pick something else off the shelf now. I learned a lot from the last =D

is there a way to join the pmc guild on hypixel like do i have to encounter one of the mods on there or are there events?

actually idk how old the pmc guild is maybe it's like 4 years old and they don't play anymore but if anyone can invite me.. i want in...

just a heads up to ppl waiting for projects - will be on a bit of a hiatus probably. just busy irl

Messing around with style a tad, opinions?

Windows 95 man wtf 😂😂😂 Eurovision is amazing

Weekend Bagger288 update/ teaser. 20 days since I started work. Working on booms, and masts now. I kind of been skipping around to do various parts as I feel like.
Current unfinished stats
: 306 blocks long
: 131 blocks tall
: 72 blocks wide

:eye: why is pmc allergic to commenting

looking for some cool spawn/hub builds to get inspo from
if any of y'all know of a server with a cool spawn area
or if any of y'allalalalalllllllllllllllllllll build cool spawn areas or know someone who does
lmk let me know lmk

!!YAPPING WARNING!! !!ОГРОМНЫЙ МУЖИК В БРОНЕЖИЛЕТЕ!!

I'm done with music. For the rest of the month.

Turns out music addiction exists. Turns out it's bad. Wow. Who would've thought.

I listen to a lot of music, though. I listen to it for hours, all while spinning around my flat. I'm regularly trying to discover new songs. I memorize the lyrics. I decompose them. I translate them in my mind. I'm whispering them to myself the whole day.

The good thing is, I'm not really suffering as of right now. I don't have much trouble falling asleep and I still enjoy music as always.

But, yeah, I'm addicted. Having melodies and lyrics in your head at all times kinda sucks ass. Spending hours just listening to stuff also doesn't strike with me.

So, just for the sake of it, I won't be listening to music for the rest of the month, as I said. Just to see what happens (if happens at all)



Already having a hard time when hearing any melody playing. Instant reminder to mumble something.

Another annoying thing is... my characters. You see, a lot of organisations and characters from my universe were based on songs (either that, or I might've found fitting songs for some later on).

Pale Association? — When The Weak Go Marching In
Deuce Association? — Traffic Jam
Dante? — First Death
Lyra? — Through Me To You, DOKUZU

So, yeah. All the time I just have an urge to— to snap the sinew I want to get within you I want to scar the tissue butterfly and rectify you

To end the post, here are my favorites that you must listen to:

Mili — favorite Japanese band (favorite album: To Kill A Living Book)
Дайте танк (!) — favorite Russian band
Ferry — favorite vocaloid musician
Ado — favorite singer (shares the place with Mili's vocalist)

That's it. If you're reading this, you're probably insane (or genuinely interested in the topic ig)

My next objective is murdering "TikTok attention span" syndrome in me. Not once have I watched a TikTok, but YouTube's making me procrastinate so damn much. Skill issue tbh.

Аривидерчи ор смфн айдк