I created this post so people can get the guilt off their chests for things they did but regret doing. I also created it as a way to apologize for something I did, but regret doing. Here goes, and a word of advice, don't tell her this if you know her irl. I want her to read this herself.

If by the slightest chance McKillip reads this, I want her to know something. This apology has been long overdue. I am sorry for the way I treated you and the things I said to you last year. Alessandro was putting me through hell the same way he did three years ago, and he told me that if I insulted you, he would stop. He never did. I did it out of fear of reliving what he had done to me in the fourth grade. He picked on me mercilessly and relentlessly, taking whatever chance and reason to pick on me, valid or not. I was desperate to stop him, and my memories of the way he tormented me took control. You didn't deserve it. Never once did I think of you in that way. You're the exact opposite, if anything, of what I called you. You're beautiful, smart, and funny. Just being in the same room as you is enough to put a smile on my face. I'm sorry, Lauren, and I hope you find the will to forgive me.