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  • S3R3N3NinaYT
    Public • August 17, 2026, 10:52 pm
    --Until you believe me--

    “You crying is not going to make me feel bad.”

    That’s how it starts,
    that’s how it always starts,
    when you can’t help but burst into unwanted tears
    because of the tone of their voice,
    or how close they are getting to you,
    or how your traumatic memories
    come rushing back at the perfectly wrong time.

    “You crying is not going to make me feel bad.”

    Little do you know,
    that just makes me cry harder,
    makes the room feel smaller,
    makes every breath feel farther.

    Because you think these tears are on purpose,
    you think these tears are for you.
    But they aren’t.
    They never were.

    They're what happens
    when my body remembers
    what my mind tries to forget,
    when old wounds open,
    without ever being touched yet.

    And over time,
    letting all your tears out...
    just isn't enough..

    So the tears start changing,
    They find different ways to speak,
    when your voice becomes too weak.

    You hide the hurt.
    You swallow the pain.
    You smile through mornings,
    and break down again.

    And when someone finally notices,
    they don't ask what happened.
    They ask what is wrong with you.

    “Why would you do this?”
    “How could you do this to me?”

    Me?

    How do you manage to make
    my pain about you?

    How can you look at someone drowning,
    and complain that the water
    is getting your clothes wet?

    Suddenly,
    I'm back to square one.
    The tears begin building again,
    and I don't know where to run.

    “This attention seeking thing
    happening with you recently
    is so pathetic.”

    That's what you said.

    And somehow the pain
    isn't proof enough.

    It's always:

    “You're doing it for attention.”
    "Your not considering who your hurting"
    “You don't even care
    whether it's positive or negative.”

    It's always attention.

    Until the days become heavier,
    until getting out of bed
    feels like climbing a mountain,
    until food loses its meaning,
    until sleep becomes an escape
    from everything you can't face.

    “You're so lazy.”

    No.

    I'm tired.

    There's a difference
    you never cared to understand.

    And the months go on,
    and you become quieter,
    not better.

    You learn how to disappear
    while standing right in front of them.
    You laugh when you're supposed to,
    say “I'm fine” when you're not,
    and become an expert
    at hiding every thought.

    -Because,
    why explain yourself
    when you've already learned
    that nobody listens?

    And then one night,
    everything becomes too much.

    The relapse is deeper
    than you ever meant it to be.

    Suddenly,
    there are bright hospital lights,
    quiet footsteps in the hall,
    questions you don't know how to answer,
    and people finally looking at you
    like something is wrong.

    Something is wrong.

    Now they believe you.

    Now they finally see
    that the tears were never a game,
    that the silence was never okay,
    that you weren't begging for attention...

    -you were begging for someone
    to notice you were hurting.

    And isn't that the cruelest part?

    They believed you
    when you were finally breaking,

    ..when they should have believed you
    when you were shaking.

    They should've listened
    before the scars,
    before the hospital,
    before the silence became loud enough
    to frighten them.

    Because sometimes
    a person doesn't need attention.

    They need understanding.

    They need someone to stay.

    They need someone to say,

    “I believe you.”

    Before the pain,
    has to become impossible to ignore.
    Sophisticated_Trashcan Insane first impression XD I must say, I love the imagery and feelings this work invokes. Is this work based off per...
    S3R3N3NinaYT • 2026-08-17 23:38:01
    nah, never went to a hospital bc of that lol, and nope, I just got bored and went through my google docs and found old poems TT and well, I suppose it makes ppl like get the theme of it lol
    Sophisticated_Trashcan • 2026-08-17 23:35:13
    Insane first impression XD

    I must say, I love the imagery and feelings this work invokes.
    Is this work based off personal experience, or perhaps a friend's? Or is it a work to bring attention to these kinds of situations and such?
  • S3R3N3NinaYT
    Public • August 17, 2026, 10:45 pm
    *I WAS SO FUCKING BORED AND FOUND OLD STUPID POEMS IN MY GOOGLE DOCS. ENJOY*

    -You Said Forever-

    I'm so sorry I was attached to you,
    I'm sorry I wanted to talk to you every day,
    I'm sorry I pissed you off
    for every little thing I’d say.

    I never meant to be a burden,
    never meant to make you stay,
    I just wanted to be loved by you—
    I just wanted you to choose me every day.

    You said we were forever,
    you said you'd never leave,
    so I held onto every promise,
    every word I chose to believe.

    But somewhere along the way,
    your words began to change.
    The person who once held me close
    started feeling so far away.

    You told me to grow up,
    to listen to myself,
    to stop looking for your comfort
    and learn to find it somewhere else.

    But how am I supposed to forget
    the things you told me to believe?
    How do I stop reaching for your hand
    when you're the one who taught me not to leave?

    I gave you all my patience,
    all my time and all my trust.
    I thought if I loved you carefully,
    you'd never turn to dust.

    Maybe I held on far too tightly,
    maybe I wanted you too much.
    Maybe I mistook your promises
    for something built to last.

    And I'm sorry for the messages,
    the questions, and the tears.
    I'm sorry that I needed you
    through all those lonely years.

    But I wasn't trying to own you.
    I wasn't asking for the world.
    I just wanted to feel important
    to the person who once called me their girl.

    So I'll try to listen to myself,
    like you told me I should do.
    And maybe growing up means learning
    that I can't keep chasing you.

    I'll miss you in the quiet,
    I'll miss you when nights are long.
    I'll miss the way you made me feel
    like maybe I belonged.

    But you said we were forever,
    and forever came undone.
    So maybe this is growing up—
    learning to let go of someone
    who once felt like the one.

    I'm still sorry I was attached to you.
    I'm still sorry I cared this way.
    But I won't apologize forever
    for wanting someone to stay.

    You said we were forever.

    I believed you.

    And maybe that's the part
    I'm still learning to forgive.
    Sophisticated_Trashcan I must say, and not to dunk on your other poem, but I like this one more. You see; I'm a sucker for rhyme and rhythm,...
    S3R3N3NinaYT • 2026-08-17 23:58:31
    tysmmm!! :D and I love poems that rhyme and have a heavy meaning
    Sophisticated_Trashcan • 2026-08-17 23:43:45
    I must say, and not to dunk on your other poem, but I like this one more.

    You see; I'm a sucker for rhyme and rhythm, and this one does it quite nicely!
    I like it not only for the message and story it tells, which itself is great, but how it's structured as well.

    So in short;good job all-round
  • S3R3N3NinaYT
    Public • August 17, 2026, 10:39 pm
    — As Long As You Hold My Hand —

    I don't want to know another soul,
    with you,
    my search has reached its goal.
    I love you because my heart chose you,
    and somehow my mind knows you'll choose me too.

    From sleepless nights,
    to loving life,
    from endless darkness,
    into light.
    From days of sadness,
    cold.
    and gray,
    to laughing without pretending "I'm okay."

    You made me feel like I could breathe,
    like there was more for me to see.
    I stopped believing I was flawed,
    when loving you felt close to God.

    I used to stare at every scar,
    and wonder why I felt so far
    from every perfect thing I'd see,
    until you made me feel like me.

    They say perfection doesn't exist,
    but somehow I found it in your kiss.
    Because when someone loves you true,
    the broken parts don't feel so bruised.

    Being loved is feeling whole,
    like someone finally knows your soul.
    It's watching every awful thing
    slowly lose the weight it used to bring.

    So I don't need another name,
    I don't need another flame.
    My heart has chosen where to stay,
    and I don't want to turn away.

    And if the road becomes unkind,
    I'll still keep your hand in mine.
    If every star above us falls,
    I'll find you waiting through it all.

    Take me through the darkest night,
    I'll follow you without a fight.
    And if the world turns cold and cruel,
    I'll still believe in me and you.

    You could drag me straight to hell,
    through every fire,
    every spell—
    I wouldn't care where we might land,
    as long as I'm still holding your hand.

    Because heaven isn't where I need to be,
    if you're the one who's there with me.
    And even if the flames begin,

    I'd choose your hand.
    I'd choose you.
    Again and again.

    -Nina- <33
  • S3R3N3NinaYT
    Public • August 17, 2026, 4:00 pm
    -✧-𝕀𝕗 𝕆𝕟𝕝𝕪 𝔾𝕠𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝔹𝕒𝕔𝕜-✧-

    Deep down you wanna hurt him too,
    To rip and
    squeeze his heart apart like he did to u.
    You want the pain he caused to twist
    and sting,
    If only going back in time was a thing.
    Then maybe she could’ve reworded the things she said,
    Erasing all the bitter truths and tears she had shed,
    And maybe he would’ve stayed right by her side,
    Instead of leaving memories,
    where broken hopes collide.
    Then her mind would finally have peace,
    And somewhere to smile at with ease.
    A quiet place where shadows wouldn't grow,
    Far from the heavy grief that started long ago.
    But—
    he's gone,
    he chose his path,
    Leaving her alone to face the silent aftermath.
    The choices made,
    have left a bitter trace,
    And locked away the dreams they can't replace.
    It hurts knowing he's probably happier without me,
    Locked out of a future that we’ll never get to see.
    I hope that maybe he has peace,
    far from the stormy breeze,
    But now—
    the shadows fall,
    and I can't smile with ease.
  • S3R3N3NinaYT
    Public • August 17, 2026, 12:11 pm
    𓆩♡𓆪--𝔹𝕝𝕖𝕖𝕕𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕆𝕦𝕥 𝕚𝕟 𝔽𝕣𝕠𝕟𝕥 𝕠𝕗 𝕐𝕠𝕦--𓆩♡𓆪

    I could bleed out right in front of you,
    And still wouldn't cry out for help,
    or a clue.
    I would keep my smile,
    and laugh through the harms,
    Wanting so badly to be held in your arms…

    But you're gone,
    vanished from sight,
    You're the reason I'm bleeding into the night.
    You're the reason I'm fading,
    and dying today,
    I would die in front of you,
    and you'd just walk away.

    You'd break every single promise you made,
    Watching the light in my life fade.
    And you still turn the gun over directly to me,
    Like it had always been me,
    as far as you see.

    I hope you love me too,
    But I don't seem to be enough for you.
    I'll lose myself in what I do,
    Before I actually,
    truly lose you..

    You simply tell me not to cry,
    Saying you can't continue this kind of life,
    That you want to leave before you destroy me—
    but that's a lie.

    You destroy me when you lie,
    When you say you simply want to die.
    It makes me feel like I failed inside,
    Failed to keep you alive,
    To keep you smiling and happy through the tide.
    But you left,
    you walked out the door,
    Yet you're never truly gone,
    I just miss you even more.

    Even though you are out of my view,
    EVERYTHING reminds me of you.
    The moon in the room,
    The roses that bloom,
    The shadows that take your form in the gloom.
    You're not gone,
    the memories track,
    But I know you're not coming back.
    You left all the blame to the slits on her body,
    the scars so cold,
    The hate in her life,
    the stories untold.
    The way she carries the weight all by herself,
    in the night,
    The blade makes everything help,
    promising to help take away the pain,
    taking the light.

    You wrecked my life,
    now I can barely breathe or respond,

    You're never truly gone..
  • S3R3N3NinaYT
    Public • August 17, 2026, 11:54 am
    『❀』𝕋𝕙𝕖 ℙ𝕖𝕥𝕒𝕝𝕤 𝔻𝕣𝕠𝕡『❀』

    I could sit here all day,
    Remembering the words you used to say.
    Writing them all down on my wrist,
    Locking my thoughts inside the blade and each slit.
    But hating me would have been better than this,
    A cold reality instead of this shit.


    You probably forgot I exist,
    while your ghost is the only thing I can't resist.
    But tell me the truth, what is it you would do?
    What would you do if I told you I love you?


    He left me here,
    He left me to wither.
    I'm starting to rot,
    trapped inside the shadow of a love that he shot.
    The way he talks gave me butterflies,
    Even if it's only bullshit lies.
    But I don't give a damn,
    I only want to hold his hand.


    He loves me,
    He loved me not..

    He left me right here,
    Left me to rot.
    I picked the petals,
    And watched them drop.
    He's with me still,
    Inside my head.
    And when I'm done thinking,
    The flowers are dead.
    I never gave a damn,
    I only wanted to hold his hand.


    He loved me-

    He loved me not…
  • S3R3N3NinaYT
    Public • August 16, 2026, 10:12 am
    ׺°”˜`”°º×𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝔹𝕣𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥𝕖𝕤𝕥 𝔹𝕝𝕒𝕕𝕖׺°”˜`”°º×


    You try to look ahead and find a spark,
    But you look at the path and decisions in the dark.
    And see nothing but people in a crowded space,
    Glaring,
    staring,
    Fighting,
    And hating in this bitter place.

    With judging eyes that never seem to blur,
    Until the blade upon the desk starts comforting her.
    It’s the same routine that happens every single night,
    Ugly glares and people being mean beneath the light.

    The dose of meds begin to multiply and grow,
    As the hours start to freeze and the heavy shadows show.
    The amount of sleep decreases as the cold day dies,
    And the world becomes a prison of repeating lies.
    The voices get louder,
    echoing inside her brain,
    The blade shines brighter,
    promising to dull the pain.
    An endless cycle spinning in a crowded cage,
    --
    And then she’s right back to the exact same page.
  • -Lilliana-
    Public • August 14, 2026, 11:08 pm

    JustaFlqmingo I found this on yt
    meant to be a flamingo
    BeanMan68 I SAW THAT ON YT AND THOUGHT OF JustaFlqmingo TOO-
    -Lilliana- • 2026-08-15 15:09:33
    lmao
    BeanMan68 • 2026-08-15 08:07:49
    I SAW THAT ON YT AND THOUGHT OF JustaFlqmingo TOO-
  • S3R3N3NinaYT
    Public • August 14, 2026, 11:28 am
    ⛧⃝—ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪꜰ—⛧⃝



    What if she was more lovable?

    Would her small soul find a real home?

    She hates waking up every morning,

    Knowing that she's just a worthless walking bone,
    meat creature called "Human."

    What if she had cared less?
    Would he have stayed?

    She stares at her arms and legs.
    The scissors on the counter give a rush of urge in her nerves
    She knows she shouldn't do it,
    But she can't help the urge.

    They remind her of you,
    How you once cared...
    Or was that also a blur?

    What if she didn't wake one day,
    Would anyone care?

    What if she went missing,
    Would anyone look or be there?

    Tired, broken, exhausted, and worn..
    What if she gave up right in front of you,
    Would you watch as she tears herself apart?
    As the Actions speak for her words that will not?

    She tried to fix everything,
    To make things good again...
    But she always fucks everything up,
    And then everything gets worse in the end.

    What if one day she stopped trying?
    What if she stopped crying,
    And instead started staring?
    If she stopped complaining,
    And started following?
    Dry hi’s, no more fights?
    What if she just stopped?

    The urge consumes her nights.
    Her arms and legs were full of pure guilt,
    As her parents sob at what they built,
    And ask why the hell?

    The patients in her parents fade slowly,
    Like a ringing bell.
    The dose of pills multiply,

    As the days roll by.
    The dose of energy decreases,
    As her spirit breaks to pieces,
     Listening to the reply with cruel words such as,
    “This girl wants the wrong fucking attention.”


    When I ask for help or show the signs,
    I get called selfish for crossing lines,
    When I clearly fucking need help.


    She stutters talking about her struggles,
    Trapped inside her heavy bubbles,
    Because she knows she won’t get better...
    She tries their advice to look ahead,
    And "think of something nice" instead.
    But the view ahead has no more stairs...
    It doesn't have a single light,
    It’s dark and cold, a heavy night,
    All the light consumed by my present.

    She can't continue the next chapter...

    The scissors she had in her hand take over,
    Stripping away any hope of laughter.

    The shadows grow and the silence stays,
    Lost within a heavy maze,
    Surrendering to a difficult fate.

    Searching for a way to cope,
    While barely holding onto hope.
    The quiet returns as the night is done,
    Waiting for the morning sun,
    And drifting off to sleep,
    In a silence dark and deep,
    While the secrets stay to keep.


    She takes a hot shower in the morning light,
    But her mind is heavy, trapped inside the night.
    She feels the weight of everything she brought her,
    As her body stings under the rushing water.


    What if she could have talked about it all?

    Would she still feel the shadows start to fall?

    Would the heavy guilt still rest upon her shoulders,

    Growing colder as the day grows older?

    What if she keeps thinking, trapped inside her head?

    Will the heavy shadows fill her mind with dread?

    With only the echo of the words unsaid?

    Will she still end up broken, staring at the floor,

    Trapped inside a bedroom she can't bear to look at anymore?


    She cant continue her chapter anymore..
  • xLilbuzzybee
    Public • August 14, 2026, 6:47 am
    Anyone else heard about the big fire in the UK????
    Its everywhere when I look at the news :/

    edit: So far 19 homes have been destroyed and 18 have been left damaged
    1 firefighter got severely wounded and is in hospital rn
    The area being affected by this terrible fire had to open up their townhall to be used to take care of those who had to be evacuated
    :(
    xLilbuzzybee There was a fire that started on a golf course I think It was the dry grass that caught fire from the sun Apparently i...
    sleepycatgirl • 2026-08-14 10:06:06
    omg
    sleepycatgirl • 2026-08-14 10:05:18
    no the news makes my distressed and i dont do good in stress :(
    Janss_33PL i didnt hear, what happend?
    xLilbuzzybee • 2026-08-14 08:12:08
    There was a fire that started on a golf course I think
    It was the dry grass that caught fire from the sun
    Apparently it's been spreading like crazy
    I might be cooked
    Janss_33PL • 2026-08-14 06:51:45
    i didnt hear, what happend?
  • xLilbuzzybee
    Public • August 14, 2026, 3:08 am
    I'm so inactive someone please gimme some hd ideas ;-;
  • xLilbuzzybee
    Public • August 14, 2026, 3:03 am
    HECK YEAH HOME ALONEEEEEE
    xLilbuzzybee I'd watch it tho infact I might
    LARPLion • 2026-08-15 10:58:08
    forgot there's an anime named that XD
    LARPLion b l e a c h
    xLilbuzzybee • 2026-08-15 05:04:49
    I'd watch it tho
    infact I might
    LARPLion b l e a c h
    xLilbuzzybee • 2026-08-15 05:04:34
    im not drinkin bleach my friend
    LARPLion b l e a c h
    xLilbuzzybee • 2026-08-15 05:04:17
    ay?
    xLilbuzzybee lol I would never reck the place I would just eat and drink everything I'm not supposed to
    LARPLion • 2026-08-14 10:56:00
    b l e a c h
    PostaSauce tends to happen a lot when your parents trust you not to wreck the place
    xLilbuzzybee • 2026-08-14 05:00:01
    lol I would never reck the place I would just eat and drink everything I'm not supposed to
    PostaSauce • 2026-08-14 03:08:52
    tends to happen a lot when your parents trust you not to wreck the place
  • xLilbuzzybee
    Public • August 13, 2026, 8:59 am
    Ty AmplleFawn7332 for the spammmm ^^ <3
    AmplleFawn7332 • 2026-08-13 09:00:39
    De rien
  • S3R3N3NinaYT
    Public • August 13, 2026, 5:31 am
    Tysmmm xLilbuzzybee for the huge spam !!! <33
  • S3R3N3NinaYT
    Public • August 12, 2026, 2:56 pm
    tysmmm iLMDDz For the huge spam!!! xddd <3
    iLMDDz np!!
    S3R3N3NinaYT • 2026-08-13 05:29:54
    <33
    iLMDDz • 2026-08-12 15:03:36
    np!!
  • xLilbuzzybee
    Public • August 12, 2026, 1:08 pm
    I also find it really sad that even though I got the pc I've been asking for I can't download Minecraft yet and if I'm completely honest half of the reason of me wanting a pc was the improved Minecraft experience
    HunterIsNerd Oh, that sucks
    xLilbuzzybee • 2026-08-14 03:00:50
    They said in September to ask them for it again
    I am patient enough for September
    xLilbuzzybee my parents won't buy it for me yet :I
    HunterIsNerd • 2026-08-12 13:15:20
    Oh, that sucks
    HunterIsNerd Dang, how come you can’t download Minecraft
    xLilbuzzybee • 2026-08-12 13:11:44
    my parents won't buy it for me yet :I
    HunterIsNerd • 2026-08-12 13:10:17
    Dang, how come you can’t download Minecraft
  • xLilbuzzybee
    Public • August 12, 2026, 1:06 pm
    i'm melting :(
    Tsikolas • 2026-08-12 14:12:06
    NOOOOOOO
  • S3R3N3NinaYT
    Public • August 12, 2026, 10:15 am
    -You Failed-

    “We will be together forever and always,” they boldly swear,
    It's what they all say before the story is stripped bare.
    Before the pages get a chance to truly unfold,
    And the person you love turns completely distant and cold.
    Before the partner you knew becomes someone you hardly know.
    Its ‘cute’ and its ‘lovely’ when the feelings first start to grow,
    Until he’s finally had enough of pretending,
    And you watch the peaceful fairy-tale ending.
    Until he snaps aggressively at your every single word,
    And every sentence you speak makes a weapon occur.
    Until every conversation starts another bitter fight,
    And the shadows take over the warmth of the light.
    It doesn't feel like “Home” anymore when you stay,
    Just a cold, empty house where the love drifted away.
    You ask her biggest fear, and she simply says spiders,
    A normal little phobia shared by outsiders.
    but the real fear is when she opens her mouth to speak,
    Knowing the response will be sharp, cruel, and bleak.
    The real terror is when she talks and you instantly snap,
    Trapping her thoughts in a dangerous, silent trap.
    Or the dark lies you hide and the bitter words you speak,
    Leaving her fragile, broken, exhausted, and weak.
    You'll always carry the blame for the blood on her sleeves,
    A heavy, painful burden that never truly leaves.
    That's the tragic thing about the promises you made,
    As you watch the color from her young life slowly fade.
    You promised her wrist would stay clean and clear,
    You swore her cuts would stay closed through the year.
    Take a closer look as she bleeds from head to toe,
    Bearing the hidden wounds that she never wanted to show.
    Take a closer look as she soon starts to fall apart,
    Sinking further into the darkness right from the start.
    Take a closer look at what your cruel words broke inside,
    Destroying the last places where she used to hide.
    You shattered her completely and tore her world apart,
    Leaving nothing but scars on a bleeding, broken heart.
    You failed to protect the one you swore to love,
    The one you swore was your whole world,
    You failed to keep “forever and always.”
  • xLilbuzzybee
    Public • August 11, 2026, 5:30 am
    Buddy Meter Link :

    https://buddymeter.com/quiz.html?q=02G3KGA

    Some questions yes ik you will probably have to guess but some you should definitely know
    We will see who knows me best
    Tsikolas I got a 7/10
    xLilbuzzybee • 2026-08-11 13:38:04
    Good job :)
    So far u somehow know me best
    Tsikolas I got a 7/10
    xLilbuzzybee • 2026-08-11 13:37:15
    Well well well
    HunterIsNerd • 2026-08-11 09:41:13
    I got 4
    _Dusky_ • 2026-08-11 06:47:01
    I got a 3 👍
    Tsikolas • 2026-08-11 06:00:27
    I got a 7/10
  • xLilbuzzybee
    Public • August 11, 2026, 4:57 am
    Welp im uh making a buddy meter thing
    have fun trying to figure out who knows me best :)
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