I am not sure how to start it. I would like to thank anyone through my journey of presence here for 3 years. I have changed through the years, experienced sad, bad, good, funny moments. I came here as a scared sweet boy, went through dramas and agressions, which taught me how to react.
The more I am aware of my mistakes, past problems, the more it hurts. I regret everything. I try to be how much better, trying to be less nervous, affective, I am pretending to be someone that I am not. I present myself as an overjoyful guy with a funny personality. I am becoming dead to emotions, neutral towards the stuff, no like, no hate. Everything dies inside of me. I am not sure, where I am going here. Am I going to the right place or maybe to a dead alley. I am constantly thinking, philisphopic questions, analyze of words, sentences. I don't belong to anywhere. Maybe some day the day will come where I find my place. I had episodes, where I felt like I should leave PMC, like it isn't fun anymore - it was at the very begin of my journey, I guess the first year.

My style and my OCs also changed. I came with a red rabbit, which I changed to a green kurvinox named Binny(I even once forgot her name lol), which was hard to draw. Then after dramas, I started to randomly draw a Donkey. He later became my image, iconic persona. My icons didn't show my OCs, I used random ones like my favourite Alien from Kapitan Bomba, then Snail from Mega Bomberman, the third was Priest Natan from Bad Exorcist until I turned white, because of a situation. Then I returned with the ironic donke, which later got turned to a GIF(Thanks eyhoffi). My style was simple 2d, quite cartoony, currently I moved to acrylic brush style. I started to use blender, where I started to model stuff and present renders. My main inspiration for making advanced models became Futurama, where I got obsessed with. I modelled Bender, then Flexo, then Fry Hedonism Bot and recently I am trying to bone Genderbend version of Bender(not Coilette).

So yeah, I am not sure if I became better or worse(behaviour, actions), but my works are improving. I wonder what the next year will bring. I currently spending time with the "socks gang" (the little tigers that love to climb on legs and play). Yes the name isn't concidence lol, every of them has white paws which is funny. Even their "meany" sister seems to behappy, she mostly follow me. She firstly acted agressive towards them, but lately she tries to play with them. She is quite chaotic, but lovable and supportive kitty(she was a NO TOUCHING ME as a baby, currently she is huggy bear). I love her so much. I reacted about 500 words so far, I guess it is nice how I can write much here.

So yeah, time to finish it. Thanks to everyone for the support and help through my journey here. No matter if you left, got banned etc., you have a crucial place. I hope the next year would bring more positive stuff.

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