As you might of noticed, (don't really know why I'm saying it, because no one will read this) this is my first blog post. I haven't delve into reading other blogs to see the just of it. For now, I'm just going to write what's really going on in my insane organ, you call a brain.

Lately, I've been setting goals for myself. Whether it be making skins, pixels, drawings, or even school work. And, I haven't been completing these set goals. Because of that, it makes me feel like I'm not adding any creativity or my 'flare' to anything. I except things to be loved and popular, when I'm not even trying. I also except great things to happen with everything I do.

I know how to stop it, but I really don't want to.

It seems like I'm trapped in a time loop. And it'll never end, ever. You may ask, what does that have to do with the said things I procrastinate on? Well, in fact, in my mind they all tie together! The things I refuse to do out of pre-disappointment, come back to haunt me. And that's when I start to feel like I'm not doing anything 'life-changing', or a more fitting term worthwhile.

It's not that I hate everything I do. It's the fact that it takes so much for me to do it. Sometimes, it feels like anything I do isn't good enough, or pathetic compared to others. But,what I need to do is take a second, step back, and realize that, the only way to change is to actually try.

And when I do take that big step, the demons inside me will finally stop.