I don't think i've had an enjoyable night of sleep since I got braces.
Even now, it's impossible to sleep comfortably with something covering your teeth, slightly pushing them back into a different place.
It's unfortunate that naps ruin my schedule because they are so much better than the 8 hours with retainers on crap.

my mom says I can't change the temperature because my clothing
But they wear pants and I'm always wearing shorts, and i wear hoodies shirtless so it shouldn't be that much worse for me than for them but it is...
i wake up in a puddle of sweat and even when i don't have any blanket or cover at all.
But it's only 78 degrees, what is wrong with me?
Why am I sweltering so much?

please pray for my brother, he is in a lot of pain right now

I want to go to college but im stupid.

My teachers keep saying, "oh well you can't fall behind if u keep doing all your work",
when I have consistently fallen behind on math.

Even if u do the work, there are concepts that they will teach, assume you know, then develop those concepts by introducing more information about that subject on top of that.

But for me, there are times I fail to be able to remember the initial concept, thus causing me to not learn anything beyond that point in class. That is the definition of falling behind, leaving work unsubmitted is the *result* of that occurrence.

Also a teacher i'm working with said that a college student should be proactive about bringing tissue and the fact that i was simply discontent about having just sneezed in a class with NO TISSUES was somehow evidence of no college advocacy????

Literally went over to my chromebook and backpack to pick them up only for my backpack to drop all my snacks on the floor.
When I go to put my backpack down to pick them up and throw them away, my backpack and chromebook falls onto the floor.
They fell next to the seat with ants in it.

java tutorial creators are really good at not knowing what people who dont know java don't know

im literally reading this tutorial and it goes from == means equals, to
"private String getName() {
return this.name == null ? "default value"; : this.name;
}"in the literal next sentence.
wtf am i looking at? they can't just throw code at people who can't code and expect people to learn how to code from that code
every sentence before this made sense, and every sentence afterwards does not.
i have tried 9 tutorials and they all do this

as if things couldn't get any worse
suddenly there are ants in my school chair
crawling
i was sitting for like 15 minutes without noticing
there are probably ants
on me
why is this my life

i asked my cares teacher about the smell in the class and he said i was just making excuses and was just choosing not to work

but then as soon as my counseler walks in they make fun of me for not advocating for myself when i clearly did

the server dev im working with sent a no context message saying "RIP [servername] network 4/28/2024"

if hes not trolling, this is the 6th server i have built on for hours and hours only for it to never even be seen by the public

why is my life this way

there are things that i need to talk about with someone now but i cant
im broken

i dont know what to do

My boyfriend says I need to talk to someone else i trust about my life problems, but i genuinely need advice as to how to get someone like that in my life.

He suggested my parents, but after many years of trying, it appears to be impossible to have a valuable conversation with them. It always is filled with either some sort of manipulation, argument or yelling.

and my brothers, well they would bully me, and my older brother who it would be most appropriate to talk about such things would blackmail me with any information i gave him.
(i can confirm this, this is not an exaggeration)

Then he suggested any other adults, but i don't know any of them either.
No communication with adults at schools is private in the way you need it to be, so that doesnt work.

I don't have any friends irl to tell their parents about my problems, and it would be very difficult to reconnect with old friends as i cant quite "trust" their parents as you would with someone you know.

I cant talk with my uncle, he turns everything into an argument.

when i talk to my therapist she listens but cannot suggest any ways of combating the issues plaguing my existence as she seems to have no applicable suggestions for my situation, always.

I cannot recall any other adults i would ever be able to contact.

I cant talk to my boyfriend about the things that truly bother me as a person and in my life, as he has stated (and i agree) the burden of that is simply too great.

It might sound way too personal that i am telling people i barely know this, but i need your help.

I'm NOT asking for you to be my trauma dump or life coach, but simply for you to suggest innovative ways i can deal with this problem in a more socially adept way, maybe by finding out who in my real life could fill this role. I need suggestions, and I need them desperately.

there is so much icky stuff in the house
you can't walk for a few minutes without picking up some sort of smear or sticky texture on your hair or clothes
living here makes me anxious