I have really suffered not bodily injurys (except the one time in the apartment when i slipped and slamed my head into the ground, getting 21 stictchs in my right eye brow)
But really, the worst ones were my mentle.
I remember going to a store, with my mom and i saw a dude blow his brains out, blood everywhere, brain matter all over. I stood their with my mouth open (i was 5) as his blood poured onto the ground when he crumpled.
Scared me for life.
Obviously, it did a number on my mom to, she started doing meth with my dad and then i got sent to a foster home, where they would hit for not doing my chores, i remember the first time they struck me, it was the worse. I told them "I dont know" for when i didnt do my chores, they slapped me across the face, really hard, with his ring on, it left a small scar, i bled that day, but i also cried. Almost every day i was spanked with a spiked studded belt, The pain began to grow numb, and all i remember after that was living day by day, it was all a blur of painful memories after that...
Then my parents got off drugs, and i lived with them.
But then they started again, and my dad would threaten to hit me, one day i tackled him down the stairs, he was paralyzed from the waste down, i havent spoke to him since. He knows what i did was right, he knew he deserved, putting me through all the shit, and then threatened me, he knew i was stronger (even though i was only 13) His body was weak, and his mind was weaker. I became so much stronger through all my pain, and even though i have experienced so much; and try to hide it all, it still shows, through my eyes, if you ever catch me doing the "100 yard stare" just know that the memories of my past are flooding over me, like a tsunami and there is nothing i can do. But really, if i had a choice to NOT go through all of that, I would say no, I love my life just the way it is
Nice and,
unique
Right now, i live with my best friend chaz (we met in 4th grade, when i lived with the fosters), his parents adopted me because they know what i've been through, really my first time having a family. I bet if the bullies at school know what i've been through they would stop. But really, i dont mind.
i AM gonna end up ruling the world
nah, im just joking. Their just a bunch of poops, there gonna end up as janitors, when i become an astronaut. Losers. Ha, theyre the real losers.\
Well, thanks for reading this, BTW im 14 now, and im happy and safe. Also im not ignorant like most others. :]
