I've been debating the topic for a while now. And no matter how I put it I can't feel sympathy when I should. Does it feel weird, yes it does. There are some I don't think deserve it and there are some that I think do. For example; In Ferguson, there was a most profound case as there was a African American man shot by a white police officer seven times for no reason what so ever, but what did the US Justice system do? Let it slide due to lack of evidence excluding apparently the video of the officer committing the crime and basically confessing that he felt no remorse for his actions and was proud of it. Yet nothing was done yet this man has to roam free. And it's not like this was the only time as multiple cases occur over the states and the world of cop killings just because. How are we to feel secure if our law enforcers are murdering innocent just to appease their thirst. 







       Yet I've always sat a double standard for myself when feeling empathetic for others or even sympathetic sometimes. I've never known why sometimes when I know I should. Is it some inner compulsion or is it just that I'm not able to see a reason too. For example, the latest in the world today was the bombing of a cartoon newspaper called "Charlie Hebdo". I've seen the content they've posted after research. I've seen the things that terrorists groups do to people. I know the pain and hurt both of them cause, yet I don't feel any sympathy to what has happened. I know it's inhumane on every level for terrorist groups to do this but it's also wrong to stoke the flames of anger and not expect to be burnt when it roars. It makes me feel as though something is missing, something that makes me feel a bit more like a monster. I cannot tell if its right or just. 






        Oh 'tis a pity what the world is coming too and what kind of monster it is forming me into. However, before my heart turns black with the stains of those who have tainted it, I shall write down my memories and my feelings to see what it was like at one time in my former life of innocence.