warning: this entry contains half-swaring (censored)

so, this is my story, of how i was a dumb 11-13 years old when i first came here, and how i grew up and noticed i was doing wrong.
it all began when i was like, 11, i started playing MC, i was a awesome game and all, one day i decided to search for texture packs to make the game look cooler, i started lurking the place, visiting it just to download stuff, eventually, i wanted to become part of the comunity, thus creating my account, it all started normal, i was your tipical "newb" skinner, making stuff with that mc skin make from newgrounds (satill better than ms paint) and just favoriting stuff.

eventually, i wanted to become popular, so i tried shading, wich, actually went pretty well, i felt very good with them looking in a "high-quality" style, i felt like in the top of the world, wich i was NOT in, then, i got my first subs, i felt "kewl" n stuff, the so called "fame" made me, quite st***d.

i wanted to become more famous, sometimes, thinking bout how being a mod would feel like (it probably sucks, imo), going everywhere trying to make friends (and failing), going to the forums and stuff.

then, that day came, the day when the "what are your religious beliefs" thread came, i was kind of fasinated, i was trying kind-off looking smart by being a atheist (wich i did wrong, and acted like a stereotype) and went all apes*** when a hyper-religious girl started flaming and insulting non-christian people.

i went nuts, acted like an fedoraf***** and started talking nosense, then good old mods locked the thread.

i was still striving for attention-kind off, i felt relly over the top important, like if i was going to "change the community", i jumped many bandwagons to be like the community itself.

after a while of small error of mine (like confusing certain pokemons and stuff like that) i looked like a complete poser (wich, i was back then, a poser, i wanted to join some other communities just because i played 1 or 2 games of these franchises (ie: Castlevania DoS, the 3 first pokemon games, TES oblivion (wich i never completed)) and make me look like a mo***), i was a filthy casul...

i eventually, left the community, trying not to remember me acting like a... well, you know, As*****

at some point, i found my old, long forgotten KYM account, i started lurking that site, then, everything changed, i learned new stuff (ie: what is a casual, why pewdiepie sucks, those fat*** euphorics called neckbeards, and other stuff), i started regretting this account more and more...

at this point, i reached a bit of maturity and learned, if i want to be a member of a site, i should act like a 5 years old fanboy atheist wannabe bandwagon hivemind slave, i needed to be myself, of course, while being consent of if what i did was good or bad.

now that i am 15, i know people change, for good

note: not all atheist are like that, i was just a kid and a wannabe atheist