:o
he's a pretty boi now
https://www.planetminecraft.com/skin/cyan-wolf-hoodie-flower-crown/
:3

so i made this guy

i know ive been complaining but i genuinely feel more refreshed than ever this break
its like i finally have time to do things that feel like they matter, and more time!

the basement tv's yt recommendations reset so now my brothers threatening to delete all my computer files
all i did was watch 2 videos from my music playlist just like every jog i did in the past year

theres this black residue coating every mug in the house all of a sudden and my parents keep saying its my hot chocolate even though my mom just brought me a mug i have not drinken from before and its in there.

why cant things just be clean why does it have to be so terrible here always

my first livestreams sucked
being bad at everything and live streaming dont go well together


also
i tried washing my face because it touched something disgusting and after i did i dried only to realise i used a hand towel and i could smell it
we have way too many hand towels and no normal towels
they always say if i wanted to be clean i wouldn't have been born in a house with 4 boys
every single day
i can't take it anymore

i played gartric phone and felt like a kid again

sometimes i add hypixel back to my server list just to try and see if im unbanned and every time nothing changes

i could never become a politician because people would want someone who has it all figured out, but i don't

I know politics and morals but i also have fear
so much fear.

The future is a mystery of pain and suffering and that brings me so much dread

I need to help people but why would anyone want my help when i have failed them all so many times

people used to say i sound like eeyore the donkey and i think that's a fair comparison

I feel so passionate about the world how can anything be less than heartbreaking

I feel this need to change things i can't explain, but I'm so far behind the people my age who are already getting collage invitations and have online careers and followings but i've gotten nowhere.

my brothers getting a credit card
my dad thinks it helps with build trust between loans
but i think it's just a system that puts people in already unstable economic situations just trapped in a hole they can't escape,
and gives people that already have a lot of money more deals.
seems like a social score that only exists to create wealth inequality.

Let's go back to 2004, better times when I wasn't alive./j

Teacher gives really bad example on purpose, me understands it. My friends how can you understand this? I respond with, This was written by someone trying to imitate a dumb person, and you see real knows fake.

There's a difference between:
I can't go to sleep
&
I won't go to sleep
I'm the missing link.

Holy shit, I just remembered I was good at something, like above average too.

Man you guys be creepin, I post something and barely a minute later 3 of you liked it, like bro what you doing up this hour?

Man, why do you always just