Tomorrow my MRI will take place, and I hope everything goes well, because the place I'm going to do is only 3 stars by the Maps, with many complaining about being too long waiting, because my mother decide to change to other because, the first one place was 30 Km from here, and me, fasting for a long time, it won't be easy, because I get sick easily without eating and without drinking, so it can be a very unpleasant day, and that's it.

Well, I'm going to have to face one of my biggest challenges, basically I'm going to have an MRI exam, and as I'm someone very restless and claustrophobic, and I'm sure I won't be able to stay still for a period longer than 1 hour, I'll have to take sedation, which will obviously be by the veins, and then I already have my phobia of needles, but there's more.

When I read a page on some site telling how this exam is, I get scared. I don't know if I'll have this "contrast" with gadolinium, which says it have certain risks among 3% of people, and if I've already considered myself rare in several things, then I don't doubt to have these risks, besides, I'm afraid that, even with this sedation, I can still move, because I'm someone who, sleeps for 2 minutes and, I'm already dreaming, dreams that really make me restless even when I sleep, and of course, when the situation comes and the time to do something that I have tremendous fear, I feel my heart pass 150 BPM, and lastly, I have a slight frequency of hypertension.

So it's really complicated, I don't want to have anything bad on myself, and I also don't want to have risk of anything too serious, and knowing all this gives me extreme anxiety, and I really hope that nothing goes wrong, and that's going to happen in 8 days, so it's really close, so wish me luck.

Everything I said in the other post was resolved, I thought she would talk a lot about me, but it was OK

I don't know if anyone still want me here, but now, another problem with me happening here, an accident happened that, was not very problematic, but left me in something else much more problematic, and as always, I have the need to say here.

Here's the thing, I have the habit of not having control over some of the actions I do, and these things end up causing damage, both to me and to other things, and now this happened, it wasn't a big deal, something happened that, it's common with a lot of people.

Basically my cell phone's film broke, but it didn't break falling or in some other common way, it broke in a very ridiculous and embarrassing way that, I'm even ashamed to say this here, but it's just a film, what's the problem with all this ? Yes, my mother.

I'm already afraid of her about things she's done to me, I've done it and she still doesn't know it, and now I don't know how I'm going to say that to her without being afraid of her yelling at me, offending me and even doing something worse, I don't know what I'm going to say at the moment, she will asks how I broke, I'm really too afraid to say that. Also, my mother has a habit of being very kind when I say something bad of that kind, so it takes it all out on me some other day in a random case, and it causes me extreme anxiety.

I really end up not caring too much about being without the film, because film serves more to protect scratches, because practically I almost never drop my cell phone, I never pass my fingernail on the screen, and also the cell phone is never anywhere that it can scratch the screen (Pockets for example), but my mother can already starting to be very afraid of it, and we don't even have money to buy a film on my cell phone.

And now, I'm stuck in this situation, really not knowing what to do, because it's just a film, but how can I tell my mother all this? I really don't know, when I say I'm a complete trash, nobody believe it.

System restore saved my life, and the internet seems to have come back except Discord, but as I'm a pessimist, it might stop again, but for now, it's back, I can go on Internet finally.

Something really bad is happening, my PC just doesn't work with the Internet anymore, and I need to do a lot of things, I can't live with a PC without Internet, I can never play games again, and do literally nothing else in my life, and how always, there was this garbage weather called rain, which makes our energy flicker, and being able to spoil things, literally, more and more, my rain phobia intensifies, I see a rain in Minecraft, harmless, and I already despair of using it "/weather clear", and now, I don't know, nothing will make any more sense in my life, my thoughts are already thinking about certain things, nobody likes me on this site anymore, nobody likes me in the whole Internet, and the whole fight that happened in this contest got even worse, now I'm getting EXTREMELY SICK.

If I disappear from everything, you all know what could have happened.

Yes, the results of this last Contest were revealed, and I couldn't expect anything else, I was pessimistic, and I predicted well, but certain things are not at all acceptable, I already expected these unacceptable things, but one thing I didn't expect is, the courage of the site to do these things, and now, me? Yes, me again? Yes, me, the most hated on the site or maybe on the entire internet? Yes twice, and the only one who suffers from bias in a Contest because I'm controversial and dramatic? Yes five times, that made a lot of huge texts in Wall Posts and want to do again now? Yes ten times or maybe infinite.

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