i will update my profile probably never but ! my rentry is linked in case you guys missed me so much

am i still relevant likeeeee

have ppl ever made enstars chars skins and posted them here im quite afraid actually

it's so weird to be so attached to nostalgia but detatched from the source.
i will always love mc and pmc in my heart. this site helped get me through hs and a few times in college when i needed the creative outlet
but like... i no longer enjoy mc. or skins. and i hate that i don't enjoy these things. i know people grow up and their hobbies change but it sucks to lose the love you once had.
im not sure where to go from here tbh. but that's okay.
ily all, thank you so much for all the support i've received since i was 14. i don't think i'd be the person i am today without this community
if my love or passion ever returns, i hope to see some of y'all then
<3

The WINNERS of the Exoplanet Event are finally announced! Read what the judges had to say!

very long rambly message//

i can't even begin to describe how much change i've been through in this last year. some of it fantastic, and some of it not so good. there were a lot of days that even when things seemed good, i felt so lost and alone. some days, i'm surprised i'm still here. something i've learned is that change sucks: but sometimes it's necessary for you to grow. i've learned so much about myself in this last year. i've made so much progress. but i have my bad days, and my weak moments. and it's okay to have those days. if you're struggling, feel trapped, or lost, please reach out to somebody. the idea of reaching out to people while i was so confused and grieving was terrifying, but i did find help, and that help is why im here today. no matter how alone you feel, or how scared you are, if you need the help, please ask for it. some fights are too hard to fight alone. don't be afraid to ask for help if things SEEM good - because while circumstances might be okay, you might not be. it's okay to not always be okay. you're not weak for seeking help.

you are loved, even if you do not see it. there is SOMEONE out there, right now, who cares. none of us are ever truly alone. <3

looking for skin-making tips:
i'm trying to somewhat recreate a holographic effect on the sleeves of an alex model skin. not a ton of space, it's about half the arm. i'm trying to figure out the best way to make the colors blend, and i really am lost. anyone have any advice? examples of holo looks theyve done? would really appreciate it!
(this is what im trying to recreate for reference)