Love....

It can be Hurtful.... It can be Painful.... It can be Happy....


Love is basically a crazy thing


This is my love story with this one girl its Long...




So one day just going through instagram and I see this girl just looking at her made feel like no other girl could...
so I messaged her got her KiK and we talked for a while and keep in mind I was "10" at the time I was dumb.
I asked her out and I said "I love you" the first day my gosh I was crazy and weird....
But then the next day she broke up with me I felt bad because I did really like her and I kept liking her
then she got with someone else I went into some depression but I kept a smile and I talked to her constantly like she would keep talking to me
too which then made me feel good didnt make me feel like I was being ignored or I was a bother to her life.
so she came home one day texted me and said the boy she was with kissed her that hit me like a truck.... Boy life got a little hard that day.
Then about a week later they broke (I broke out in a happy little dance). Then we kept talking more and more like she had more time for me which was great.
she would tell me her problems I would fix them eventually we dated again once we got to know eachother we dated for a year I didnt know everything but she goes with her
dad on summers to visit since their divorce and all but It was hard we couldnt talk much at all she was always away from her phone etc And ever since I met her I just couldnt
speak to anyone other girl look at another girl and I could never cheat on her I never wanted her to be sad Always wanted her to smile and be as happy as possible.
Then one day I get message on facebook from her saying she got drunk and made out with this boy but stopped since she remembered of me and she quit then I responded back
saying the dumbest thing a person could say.... I said "Well I have a party saturday and ill make sure to get drunk and makeout with a girl dont ever talk to me again"
ANd I never got a response for the rest of the summer which was like 6months I was forgetting about her finally and I was letting go then she came back from summer and dmed me on Instagram
The place I met her at.... and she said "Your a dick Sean" And I said what? ANd she said "For what you said" and all the memories of her came rolling back and I felt bad and I always said to
myself That I would always have a deep love for this girl.... So we talked a little and then we dated some more broke up again because she said it was to much... (Lets Pause for a second)...

Love is clearly filled with pain,Misery,Crying,HeartBreak,HeartAche,and sickness.
And I got consumed by her for some reason like something about her kept me staying with her
I dont know if it was true love like all people say but Im pretty sure it was "True Love"
That all people talk about and by this time I was like "11 or 12" years old..
(Continuing the story)



Then after that breakup it got harder we kept talking etc and all that stuff then she got another boyfriend I felt bad then she brokeup with him the next day then she got another one
and brokeup the next day I felt relieved... I always felt she would find someone better than me of course there are alot of guys that are better than me... I mean im just me....
But She messaged me saying hey and I said what and she was like whats wrong and I was like those guys she was like Yeah I know im sorry They are dumb guys and I just thought I could find someone
That would make me feel better... And I said well im here Ive always been here to keep you happy and better and im sorry if I havent done that... as much.

But then 1-2 years later im "13-14" years old now we dated again And I came to visit her all the way in Kentucky From mississippi by car might I add and I never kissed a girl or anything before.

Because I was always saving for her.. Always. But At the end of the time I was with her I kissed her and she kissed back and the kiss was fine for a first kiss to be completely honest nothing bad
about it... Basically meeting her seeing the person I have talked to kept close to my heart for so long I finally met was like my life goal at that time.... and it finally happened my life was complete

so like a week after she said I dont want to talk anymore and I was like what why?!??!? and she was like this is to much.. and I was like fine whatever I feel like im nothing to you anyway...
then she said "Omg really you dont care about me anymore" and everytime she would say that I would say the same thing and she would come back to me after I said that....


So we kept talkin etc I bought her some stuff online for her that she wanted and I gave her my hoodie that she asked for when I visited her there..

Then like one last year we stopped talking completely (Today) we dont talk we dont communicate I just see her posting on instagram and see her posting stories on snapchat....

Im not sure if she still has that hoodie or what she did with it but she would usually send me pics of her wearing it I dont know...


But even today we dont talk I still wait for a text or something.. Because deep down I still love her. I know you might Think IM a dumbass or something for still loving a person
Who hurt me that much.






I hope you all enjoyed this story in some way
and Ill have many more "love" related topics here.

Thank you guys for the support on my last blog The "Love is hard/complicated" blog it got to the top 3 on the blog list..

I thank you all so much for the support.


I hope you can all not be consumed by someone and just live your life how you want not be controlled by someone.

Ill see you all in my next blog.