„I'm done with music. For the rest of the month“
—Me, two weeks ago.


So, it's June... Now, did I cure my addi—
I failed miserably

I had three music-listening-marathons not so long ago (it all started with me and my college friend listening to Egor Letov). I did get rid of the lyric-mumbling issue, though; other than that, nothing's different. This was quite useless.



As to why I'm currently inactive: yeah, sorry.

I've been feeling unwell (I'm not sick) and I don't even talk to my buddies as much. My head's just messed up. Besides, I have exams coming, so I'm closing all my dues in college and shиt. I'll probably get okay soon. Or maybe not. I don't even know anymore.

Progress on my book? What book? Wait... Фuck... the book that I couldn't work on because of college... Well, maybe I'll be able to work on it a lot more after the exams. I'm still figuring stuff after all.

My best performing content is a literal glock.

This says a lot about society или типо того.

Updated my artblog with all the stuff I posted but didn't add.

So, about Sophia's redesign. There's actually not a single thing I like about her. The ideas were right, the execution sucked (for example her hair was TOTALLY NOT what I wanted). So now she's gonna be a completely different character visually, yet she will keep pretty much all the details of the previous version.

Here's the new hairstyle (the general look, at least) I did alongside her chibi head:



I've also accidentally deleted one of my canvases, so now I only have a screenshot of it (soldier uniform I did a while ago is also gone, because I usually do multiple drawings on one canvas to fill it out).

New profile picture.

I've redesigned Sophia (yes, that means I'll make a THIRD cover for my non-existent book at some point) and made this lil' chibi, so Daniel can rest (imagine being a mascot for 5 years).

Oh, it's also in Limbus Company artstyle (spread the brainrot). Feel free to use it if you want.



I've actually only redesigned her hair and I still have to do the clothes :-P
I'll make a separate post sometime.

Quite (un)funny how I've already cut out 2 entire chapters for a relatively interesting beginning and had to temporarily get rid of 2 characters for a better pacing. Just so you know, I had like, 5 chapters planned out. Now I only have 2 chapters worth of story and have to figure out how to move all the important stuff from the deleted scenes to next chapters (I do have a general plot, I'm talking about the chapters that were planned out fully).

At first my intention was to write a story in a rather simple way — just describing whatever the heck is happening and that's it. And here I am, trying to make the beginning engaging, wondering what POV to use, trying to write less straightforward and more pleasing, changing the story just so it blends with the writing, thinking about logic way more than I did before, cutting out scenes that feel unnatural...

I'm just writing a real book at this point instead of a little cringy fic. This takes far more time than I expected. I'll have such a hard time translating it into English...

Anyway, once again, I really hope it turns out good... ish, at least. If I ever feel confident with the written chapters, I'll post 'em. Right now though, I fear that I'll have to rewrite a lot, so that basically means no publishing until everything's finished.

No, I do not intend on making long wallposts everyday. I just had a lot of thoughts and stuff. Thanks to whoever cares to read all that.

До скорого, ай гесс.

!!YAPPING WARNING!! !!ОГРОМНЫЙ МУЖИК В БРОНЕЖИЛЕТЕ!!

I'm done with music. For the rest of the month.

Turns out music addiction exists. Turns out it's bad. Wow. Who would've thought.

I listen to a lot of music, though. I listen to it for hours, all while spinning around my flat. I'm regularly trying to discover new songs. I memorize the lyrics. I decompose them. I translate them in my mind. I'm whispering them to myself the whole day.

The good thing is, I'm not really suffering as of right now. I don't have much trouble falling asleep and I still enjoy music as always.

But, yeah, I'm addicted. Having melodies and lyrics in your head at all times kinda sucks ass. Spending hours just listening to stuff also doesn't strike with me.

So, just for the sake of it, I won't be listening to music for the rest of the month, as I said. Just to see what happens (if happens at all)



Already having a hard time when hearing any melody playing. Instant reminder to mumble something.

Another annoying thing is... my characters. You see, a lot of organisations and characters from my universe were based on songs (either that, or I might've found fitting songs for some later on).

Pale Association? — When The Weak Go Marching In
Deuce Association? — Traffic Jam
Dante? — First Death
Lyra? — Through Me To You, DOKUZU

So, yeah. All the time I just have an urge to— to snap the sinew I want to get within you I want to scar the tissue butterfly and rectify you

To end the post, here are my favorites that you must listen to:

Mili — favorite Japanese band (favorite album: To Kill A Living Book)
Дайте танк (!) — favorite Russian band
Ferry — favorite vocaloid musician
Ado — favorite singer (shares the place with Mili's vocalist)

That's it. If you're reading this, you're probably insane (or genuinely interested in the topic ig)

My next objective is murdering "TikTok attention span" syndrome in me. Not once have I watched a TikTok, but YouTube's making me procrastinate so damn much. Skill issue tbh.

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