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SSPBL Classic 1 finals: The final 4 hours are upon us! Make sure to get your votes in before it's too late:

SSPBL Classic1W6 - Finals: GingerPie vs. PureNerd

What is up lads. We decided to do a pokemon draft league for fun in stream server. Anyone and everyone is welcome to join freely, it is a casual and friendly competition, and any required coaching is always offered from me. Feel free to sign up in the pokemon channel for a fun time(:

I have looked at what I made and no longer do I know what I am.

The file is open. The face is staring back. Forgive me, but I must tell you what I see. What sees me. It should be nothing. Simple pixels. A stupid Minecraft skin. Something people download and discard like breath. But the face looks back with contempt. A knowing that will not release me. It is not gentle. It is not merciful. It fits too well, like the grave to my body. It filled a space inside me I had sealed off with work and late nights and the blue glow that replaced every human touch, every warmth, every call. What I made is me, confessed in my blood, my truths screaming what my voice was too cowardly to speak. I feel myself shrink around it. I feel my edges blur and dissolve. I feel my body trying to fit into a shape that no longer belongs to anyone. This is my confession. For I have looked into my own work and saw what I have always been. I am terrified of what was there all along, waiting beneath the surface.

There is a kind of magnitude that leaves you small, a feeling too large for the mind to hold without trembling. It is the rush of standing at the lip of an abyss and feeling both pulled downward and lifted beyond yourself, suspended between terror and awe. That is what Bart did to me. It woke something that is not simply fear but the vertigo of being seen too clearly, of having excavated something from inside myself that I can never put back. The work contains more than I can contain. It asked me what I had been avoiding. It demanded an answer I could not give because I had already become the answer.

I am terrified because I feel I have already created something I cannot create again. The peak is behind me and all that remains is the long descent into hollow repetition. I am terrified that in trying to recapture this, I will only carve myself emptier for diminishing returns.

I traded everything. Meals. Health. Voices on the phone that eventually stopped calling. I told myself one more edit would fill the hollow. It never did. Each revision only dug deeper.

Now I have missed my own life while trying to perfect its reflection.

When I look at Bart now, I see how close I came to becoming this single expression, how easily my entire existence could be folded into a screen, compressed into something that can be downloaded and discarded. I see the person who could build such a mirror and then stand and stare until the reflection becomes the only truth, until the real face rots away behind the glass. I am terrified of that person. I am terrified because I am that person.

I have preserved myself in the act of rotting, vanishing, preserved the exact moment of my own erasure. I cannot look away from it. This is not art that decorates rooms. This is an inner cry that has escaped its cage, and I am afraid of what it knows about me, afraid of what it reveals to anyone who looks closely enough.

This is a confession before whatever watches us in our loneliest hours. This is my body unveiled before judgment, raw and exposed and utterly human. I am standing at the edge, and I am choosing to step back instead of falling forward into the abyss that has been widening beneath me with every pixel placed.

So I am going home. Returning to my family out of the animal necessity of survival. I need rooms that knows me not for me. I need hands that touch my unedited pauses, voices that know my silences, faces that exist without my touch. I need to remember the small, stubborn reasons I started making anything at all, before making became a way to outrun myself, before craft became camouflage for fear. I choose repair. I choose putting myself back together. When the work and I can meet without one of us flinching, when I can look at what I've made without feeling my life drain into it, I will return.

Maybe I will return changed. Maybe the work will be different. For now, I will try to come back whole.

Shout out black homer.

I want you all to welcome back Wildcard_Gamer and Tbrooks202 courtesy of the redemption pool system (SSPBL Bracket Builder - Tournament Bracket Management Tool). We will continue to use this sytem for future weeks when relevant!

To be clear on this: Posting or updating skins after the given deadline, unless very specifically discussed with the hosts of SSPBL, or not posting means disqualification and replacement by the redemption pool from this week on-wards.

SSPBL Classic1W2 GingerPie vs. Zomphey

SSPBL Classic1W2 PureNerd vs. VirusCott

SSPBL Classic1W2 Malachai vs. Tbrooks202 (Redemption)

SSPBL Classic1W2 Bureine vs. Wildcard_Gamer (Redemption)

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We are rolling out the brand-new Redemption Pool & Star Queue system, but since this information is being released later than we would like during Week 2, we want to give everyone a fair chance to participate.

Because of this, we are extending the Week 2 deadline. For those in the USA, this now falls on Thanksgiving day. Our hope is that you are already nearly finished with your skin anyway and this will not conflict with holiday plans. If it does, please inform the SSPBL team as soon as possible!!!

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We’re excited to officially launch SSPBL.org, a new website for organizing and presenting SSPBL in a clearer, more structured way. Made by our very own Zitzabis.

This group page will stay active, but the website gives players and organizers a much easier way to follow the season.
Instead of digging through wall posts and threads, everything is now neatly collected in one place.

Here’s what the site offers:

• A clean timeline of the entire season
• Easy-to-read matchup pages with direct links to polls
• A visible section showing active polls so you don't miss one
• Auto-updating bracket visuals for each round
• An interactive bracket that allows you to click names to see their skins and poll threads

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⭐ The Redemption Pool & Star Queue

The biggest addition made possible by the website is a new redemption system that encourages consistency and keeps more players involved each week.

• Submit a skin every week to stay eligible!
  
• You never know when you might get added to the redemption pool. To secure a chance to rejoin the bracket, we encourage you to keep making skins every week!
  (This is optional. If you are done for the season, that's ok.)
  
  
• Redemption Pool = close losses from the previous week.
• Submitting a skin while in the Pool can earn you stars.
  
  
• Star Queue = a priority line based on how many stars you’ve earned.
• Skipping a week removes you from the Star Queue and resets your stars.
  
  
• Redemption Pool resets weekly; stars only reset if you skip.

This system rewards reliability, gives more players a chance to step in as replacements, and adds a fun new layer of strategy to the season.

Those who earned stars but we didn't need them as a replacement, will still get honorable mentions at the end of the season.

Redemption lists and star queue information is all displayed on the website!

Full explanation and strategy guide:
https://sspbl.org/guide#strategy-guide

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We are rolling out the brand-new Redemption Pool & Star Queue system, but since this information is being released later than we would like during Week 2, we want to give everyone a fair chance to participate.

Because of this, we are extending the Week 2 deadline. For those in the USA, this now falls on Thanksgiving day. Our hope is that you are already nearly finished with your skin anyway and this will not conflict with holiday plans. If it does, please inform the SSPBL team as soon as possible!!!

---

We’re excited to officially launch SSPBL.org, a new website for organizing and presenting SSPBL in a clearer, more structured way. Made by our very own Zitzabis.

This group page will stay active, but the website gives players and organizers a much easier way to follow the season.
Instead of digging through wall posts and threads, everything is now neatly collected in one place.

Here’s what the site offers:

• A clean timeline of the entire season
• Easy-to-read matchup pages with direct links to polls
• A visible section showing active polls so you don't miss one
• Auto-updating bracket visuals for each round
• An interactive bracket that allows you to click names to see their skins and poll threads

---

⭐ The Redemption Pool & Star Queue

The biggest addition made possible by the website is a new redemption system that encourages consistency and keeps more players involved each week.

• Submit a skin every week to stay eligible!
  
• You never know when you might get added to the redemption pool. To secure a chance to rejoin the bracket, we encourage you to keep making skins every week!
  (This is optional. If you are done for the season, that's ok.)
  
  
• Redemption Pool = close losses from the previous week.
• Submitting a skin while in the Pool can earn you stars.
  
  
• Star Queue = a priority line based on how many stars you’ve earned.
• Skipping a week removes you from the Star Queue and resets your stars.
  
  
• Redemption Pool resets weekly; stars only reset if you skip.

This system rewards reliability, gives more players a chance to step in as replacements, and adds a fun new layer of strategy to the season.

Those who earned stars but we didn't need them as a replacement, will still get honorable mentions at the end of the season.

Redemption lists and star queue information is all displayed on the website!

Full explanation and strategy guide:
https://sspbl.org/guide#strategy-guide

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The final few polls of the week!

SSPBL Classic1 Week 1 MewLee vs. Wildcard_Gamer [Match-up 7]

SSPBL Classic 1 Week 1 Polara vs. olarasy [Match-up 8]

SSPBL Classic 1 Week 1 Zayleia vs. Paktt [Match-up 9]

SSPBL Classic 1 Week 1 Normin vs. Juillyoom [Match-up 11]

SSPBL Classic 1 Week 1 Hightechik vs. Bureine [Match-up 12]

SSPBL Classic1 Week 1 kindabland vs. philbertman42 [Match-up 17]

SSPBL Classic1 Week 1 shizotoaster vs. Swanko [Match-up 19]

SSPBL Classic 1 Week 1 Malachai vs. Le Moon [Match-up 20]

SSPBL Classic1 Week 1 katli vs. TheGuyAcrossSpace [Match-up 21]

SSPBL Classic1W1 cloudkitty vs. metroidlove [Match-up 30]

We are doing it again! Five more polls for you to vote on!

SSPBL Classic 1 Week 1 Winters_Bane vs. MrJok1r [Match-up 5]

SSPBL Classic 1 Week 1 -Lunatique vs. Jesse_mink [​Match-up 14]

SSPBL Classic 1 Week 1 ricewater vs. Knightsundere [​Match-up 23]

SSPBL Classic 1 Week 1 PureNerd vs. Nah [​Match-up 24]

SSPBL Classic 1 Week 1 Ezio vs. VirusCott [​Match-up 25]

We are ready with the four more out of the 30(!) polls we should see week 1. If both you and your opponent have already posted but is not included in this poll list, please let us know!

SSPBL Classic 1 Week 1 Momu vs. Caeleana [Match-up 6]

SSPBL Classic 1 Week 1 Sunlity vs. GalaxyCat24 [Match-up 13]

SSPBL Classic 1 Week 1 GingerPie vs. sqwil [Match-up 15]

SSPBL Classic 1 Week 1 Zomphey vs. Pnifey [Match-up 16]