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making this pack has been absolute HEEELLLLLLLL




but we're making slow and painful progress🥹🙏

received this cute art of me from WileyKitKat
now it's gonna hang around as my profile picture for a little while 🤗

(Deleting this message in 2 days, you have time to read it)

Hey everyone. I’ve been wanting to say this for a while, because I feel like I owe some people an apology.

I’m sorry for some of the comments I’ve made lately. There were times where I got more aggressive than I should’ve been, and looking back at some of the things I said, I honestly feel bad about it. I might not have meant for them to sound as harsh as they did, but I understand that it’s still my responsibility for how I come across.

I do have problems with anger sometimes. Especially when I get home from school, I can already be stressed or tired, and sometimes my patience is just really low. Little things can bother me more than they normally would, and I can end up reacting before I actually think about what I’m saying.

I also go to therapy, and I’ve talked to my therapist about this. I’ve gotten advice on how to deal with my anger and what I can do when I’m feeling overwhelmed or getting close to losing my patience. I’m trying to work on it, because I don't want my anger to keep affecting the way I treat people.

But I don't want to use any of that as an excuse. Being stressed, angry, or having a bad day doesn't make it okay for me to be rude to somebody. If I say something that hurts or comes across as aggressive, that's still something I need to take responsibility for.

Another thing I want to be honest about is that I’ve been feeling pretty sad lately. I’ve noticed I’ve been getting fewer notifications and less interaction than I used to. I know a lot of people are in school and are busy, and I completely understand that. I’m not mad at anyone for being busy or not being online as much.

It just gets to me sometimes because one of the biggest reasons I’m on this site is to socialize. I like talking to people, meeting people, sharing things, and making stuff for others to enjoy. So when it gets really quiet, sometimes I start thinking, “What’s the point of being here if nobody really cares about me?”

I know people don't owe me comments or attention, and I’m not saying that anyone should feel bad for not responding to me. I just want to explain how I’ve been feeling lately. Sometimes I’ll make a post hoping someone will talk to me or tell me how they’re doing, and when I mostly just get a like, it can feel kind of lonely.

I think some of that frustration and loneliness has probably affected how I’ve been acting too. That doesn't excuse anything I've said, but I think it’s something I need to acknowledge instead of pretending everything has been fine.

I don't want to keep arguing with people or have old situations constantly brought back up. I know I’ve made mistakes, and I’m not asking anyone to forget them like they never happened. I just hope we can eventually move on from the past.

If I’ve upset you, annoyed you, or made you feel uncomfortable because of the way I talked to you, I’m genuinely sorry. I should’ve handled things differently.

I’d really like for us to just settle things peacefully and move forward. I don't want there to be drama or bad feelings between everyone. I’d rather be able to come on here, talk to people, make things, have fun, and actually enjoy being part of the community.

I’m going to keep working on myself and try to do better. I know I’m not going to suddenly become perfect, but I do want to learn from my mistakes and hopefully show that I mean what I’m saying.

I hope we can leave the past behind us, forgive each other where we can, and just be happy and get along again.

Sorry, everyone. I really mean it.

Also I have continued DEVELOPMENT ON FRUTIGER STRUCTURES after it collecting dust for a while... I am working on the google doc for the Craft Cup!

Anyways, I hope you have a good day. And I may be inactive because of homework and school.

— JeZoofyGopter17