it took losing someone close to me to realize theyre not the only one who loves and cares about me
there are so many people who care about me and my wellbeing and would be sad if i disappeared. way more than the people who dont and that makes me so happy. im not alone

i want to thank each and every one of you who talks to me even a little bit, you make a big difference and i love you all so much

i love myself now because of you

im such a cute and pretty girl :3

Jestem jedyna co to widzi

it sucks when you can only be in your right mind when you take medication

a medication you can only take once a day

persona skins done

now im really just stuck on info and lore tbh

Wow, I just realized the Cupid is (kinda) relevant to me.

what pinterest gave me:

Guys, I'm sorry if I've been inactive here. RL has really been more interesting than ever before. I won't leave the site tho. I'll come back, that's a def!

General Reminder:
You are not obligated to be here everyday. You have your private stuff, which are more crucial, so don't be afraid to take a break. Length? As long as you need :)
No worries. Your mental health is an important factor.


Instead of sitting in one place, try to go out. Enjoy nature or explore new hobbies. Analyze the environment. It sounds odd, yet it helps you to clean your mind and you think different - less overwhelmed and more energetic. If you have the chance, try to make yourself a nice break from the stuff.

Time I announce this...

At school, I've been having butterflies in my stomach for a girl I like. This usually never happens to me. In fact, I've always ignored my feelings and just continued on. But this, this was different. Also to make this clear, she's my age/younger than me (literally), so don't think I'm pulling off an edp445 move or smth like that. But anyways, I've always never thought this would ever happen to me. So, what made me like her you may ask? It was her personality. I don't like anyone unless their personality is right for me. This has only been the case for me and the bois (which is a whole other topic), but never for a girl. So, I decided to think about this for a while and ponder the thought that I'm just delirious and not myself. But alas, after I recollected my memories and experiences with her, I realized that I had a crush on her. Though not evident, whenever I talk to her, I always get nervous. The only thing that makes me different is that I don't tell my friend group, unlike my other friends, who end up getting rejected. This even happened to my friend who tried hittin' on the same girl. Had to even talk him out of sui____. You can fill in the blanks yourself. I'll try my best to keep it a secret and act normal around her, but I don't know how to feel. It gets even worse when they complement you.

But another thing. This means I no longer have a PMC crush (still no telling Rob333). The reason behind it being that No.1: The person's somewhat significantly older than me. No.2: Very little chance of me meeting them. No.3: You don't know how they really are in real life or what they look like.

So yeah, I have a crush IRL. Though you may think that this is gonna get in the way of my education, it isn't. TBH, I've had this crush for a long time since the beginning of the school year but really never validated it. I'm not gonna make a move, but I'll continue to be myself. Maybe in the future, maybe even now, but I don't want to change the things that make me me.

This also doesn't mean I'll stop learning about history. I'll love it as much as the comrades loved destroying the brownshirts.

Which one's better?

Ice Cream

Popsicles

No update to Refreshed this week, I'm taking a break lol. Expect one probably next week?