So uh I found out the guy I like has a YouTube channel And I'm wondering Should I like Go find it And draw a picture of him? ... Nope nope nope nope bye
exactly and down the road you can just drop the "okay so remember the slightly cringe beginnings to your yt channel? here's 27 pictures capturing the finest moments"
I can copy drawings fairly well I can stare at something and get the proportions mostly right (so if you let me watch you without talking for about an hour and can draw your picture) But draw something without a reference? Nope. It's a complete mess. Which means all the things in my imagination remain there until they disappear
that's sad though :'( if it's humans, i'd really suggest you find a reference of the pose you want and just draw the features of your character in place of the ones in the reference
Ok ok ok So I read this thing on Pinterest And it was kinda the exact thing I needed to read at that moment It was pretty simple Shame and guilt are demotivators. Meaning, they're there to get you to stop something, not do something. You shouldn't use them to get someone, or even yourself to start something. You'll be working against yourself. You'll be even less motivated than to begin with. Like wow I've been trying to guilt trip myself into things for a really long time And every time I wonder why I care less Thought there was something wrong with me Guess I was just sabotaging my motivation with the exact thing designed to do that.
Reading something I'm 50% sure my favorite character is going to die My brain kinda glitched at the idea And I busted out in this super evil cartoon villain laugh for like 1.5 seconds
You ever get so lonely that you hold your own hand pretending it belongs to someone else? When it's dark and I'm falling asleep sometimes I can almost fool myself. Almost.
No, I don't necessarily mean romantically It's kinda like when you really want emotional intimacy, physical intimacy sounds really good. I don't know why brains do that. I also just really like hugs and stuff.
I've noticed that I tend to judge a skin a whole lot higher if it has good color theory vs shading Like if the light is in the wrong spots? I can totally forgive that if you used pretty colors. ig it goes the other way too though now that I think about it Good shading + bad colors is alright I think I'd still take bad shading + good colors over it though
Finally finished my request wow That took 4 months Blegh I take a lot longer on requests than my own skins because my perfectionism kicks in a lot more when I'm worried about how other people will like it. But I mean, so long as you get feedback it doesn't really matter if you mess up, does it? You can always fix it later. Action creates information, then you can correct your mistakes. I keep repeating that to myself to stop me from getting paralyzed lol
Oh, here's the skin if you want to check it out:
(You can click the image. It's a link. Idk but that's just the coolest wallpost feature ever.)
"We need a new Hulk character. Everyone has run out of ideas. What do we do?" "I know! Add another hulk that has the same powers plus a couple thematic ones and make him a different color!" "...again?" "Well we don't have a pink one yet."
I really like this Webtoon. So I have a plan I saw this tumblr post screenshot on Pinterest in which a person told a story about how as a kid they had the entire shrek movie memorized, and whenever they were bored they would watch it in their head So I'm going to memorize it The Webtoon, not Shrek I'm a genius
My old Victus laptop just broke (worth almost $1k) and I'm unable to get a new one currently. To continue what I currently do across all my projects (OpenProfile, Cornelia, Oct.Ink, 3D Armor mod, mod pack development, and more) I need a device with at least matching specs. All my commissions are currently set to unlimited and will be completed as soon as I have a device to work with.
weekly-ish update. summer has started. im locking in. i got tomodachi life 2 and am incredibly happy, if not a little bored. i binged all of witch hat atelier in one day today and cloudkitty YOU HAVE SOME QUESTIONS TO ANSWER
the horrible terrible jyperfix is still going strong someone get us out of here
I feel like a butterfly and by that I mean I feel like I wrapped myself in blankets and my brain melted into the rest of my body
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I'm so tired of all the perfect beautiful things Like a mowed lawn with trimmed trees? ew I want wild. I want exotic. I want the kind of nature that rips and tears and I want to see blood Shattered glass is pretty because it's broken Lions are exciting because they kill I want danger and pain and I don't want to be what everyone keeps saying is right I don't even want to be what I keep saying is right I just want to be
I'm a mess. And I love it. I love both the good and bad things about me. I love even the parts of me that I feel guilty for. I'm on fire and the heat is comforting. The pain is mine and I don't want it fixed. I don't want anything fixed. I'm tired of people thinking we can truly fix anything or that things need to be fixed in the first place. If I'm not feeling pain how will I know that I'm alive? There's a little itty bitty part of me that's still insane. And I'm tired of trying to kill it. Let me be made out of knives and monsters and perpetual crisis. That's me.
And I want that to be fine.
Anyway I'm gonna go take a shower. I'm alright, just feeling a little dramatic today.
I don't know how to explain this feeling. It's slightly sad. It's the feeling of looking at something you wanted that will never happen. It's this emptiness, and this acceptance at the same time. It'll never be, but I'll be ok. I look at it for real for the first time, and I'm ok with letting it go. Its fantasy has been stripped away. I can finally see it in a more objective lens. It's real. And it's not mine. And I think I'm actually good with that. I can move on now.