I will most likely delete this later, ranting abt the lgbtqia+ community for a second as a queer person :3 if you dont like rants feel free to keep scrolling!!


This rant is abt the lgbtqia+ but also fandom culture as the two are very intertwined.
for more than a decade i have been in fandoms, drawing art, writing fanfictions, analyzing characters and stories, and of course partaking in discussions surrounding the media.

back in 2020 I realized I was "bisexual" and I'll be honest i was freaked out, i grew up in a very christian household, and my father did not like "gay people", he doesn't even like women have short hair so, that gives you a little insight. I had so many thoughts and didn't know how to say them out loud, in a way i felt trapped. the only way i could express myself was online. I made friends, wrote fanfiction, and drew a lot of art. expressing myself through the queer characters i liked, which most of the time were headcannons.

if you have been anywhere near fandom culture you would know that people LOVE shipping characters together, me included!! Sometimes writers will often "hint" at a character being queer/trans and not full on showing it. the reason for this is because of censorship, a lot of countries have rules about what you can publish and have in your books/shows/movies OR the society they live in doesn't take well to queer/trans folk, unfortunately that is the world we live in. thoses aren't the ONLY reasons but some big ones.

now if you have been in fandom culture for any period of time you would know a lot of ships are usually mlm(man love man) or wlw(woman love woman) and a lot of time people will say that the characters are "gay" or "lesbian", no problem here!


the reason i brought up fandom spaces is this, A LOT of people refuse to recognize when character are CANONICALLY BISEXUAL, or refuse to even think that some characters, even though not explicitly stated might be bisexual. as a child mind usually does, I didn't fully understand why people did this, i just thought that they didn't like bisexual folks. and well that is certainly the case for some people, I understand now that most people in fandom just like to project onto their favorite character and it doesn't really cause any harm.

but, i personally believe that there has been an dislike for bi folks for a very long time. I think a lot of the time people will see that you can end up with the opposite sex, and they'll automatically believe that you're suddenly straight. AND that you no longer like the people of the same sex. it has really upset me for the longest time, and i find it insecure. it's not your partners fault that YOU think they are going to cheat on you with the opposite sex.

or people thinking bisexual folks r "half gay, half straight", or maybe that they can't commit to the one sex or the other. its just so frustrating, and i can't keep baby-ING people because THEY refused to understand it.
its unfortunately gotten to a point where I don't consider myself bisexual anymore, and prefer going by "queer", that isn't the ONLY reason, but it is one.

There have been hundreds and/or thousands of people invaliding bi folks, and it has had an effect on me. I don't want the stereotypes to shape how people view bisexuality.
not to mention the massive misogyny in fandom and lgbtqia+ communities.
I have never felt accepted by this community, unless it was other bisexuals validating me.
in a way i've never felt "gay enough" which is stupid. there is no such thing is "how gay r you" and,
I know i don't need other peoples thoughts, or opinions to be myself, but sometimes it would be nice to feel welcomed, instead of people asking you "so are you into women or men right now?" It's tiring. and I'm over it.

it just sucks. and i realize as a community we have bigger problems to face, but if we are not united, how are we gonna face those problems??
I find that a lot of younger queer/trans folk don't have knowledge about past events that have happen to us as a community. To be honest its scary, we need to know our history so we know how to move forward.

anyway thanks for listening to my ted talk and i apologizes if i worded anything wrong, I have a hard time expressing my feeling through text, so if you have a question, feel free to ask !!

stay safe <3 xoxo ( ´ ∀ `)ノ～ ♡

i haven't been able to go on pinterest for the past 5 days
and its killing me. why is AI being used this way bro???
idk, like maybe train it to be smarter??

hey, TLOU can you maybe NOT make me cry??

happy easter / 4/20 if you celebrate !!

do i know its 1 am???? yeah i do
anyway, here is the refence sheet for my babygorl, my model
drawn by: me ♥

yall my internet went out like at the end of my stream LOL
it wasn't long but It was fun !!

hii everyone !!
I wanted to make an announcement,

tonight at 12:00 AM (CDT)
i will be streaming over on twitch !!
It's something I've been working on for awhile, and excited to share with all of you ♥

if you want to join in on the fun you can find my twitch on my profile !!
thank you for reading !! o(≧▽≦)o

for anyone wondering, the minecraft milk legit tastes like vanilla ice cream
(maybe a lil too much tbh) it tastes good tho