i think being perfect is a flaw in itself, and the more you've been through in life, you get even smarter than you were before
this came from my musings about my ex's new girlfriend and why i dislike her because she is pretty and nice and gets good grades and has a loving family and a kind group of friends that she can be herself around which i do not have most of those things hahah
i resent her, but i don't want to be her, i just dislike her. but if i use only logic then she's perfectly great because she makes my ex happy. i don't know how to describe it. it's a crazy mix of feelings and me no likey

i mean i am friends with my ex and he's just been a turd since the beginning of the school year and stuff and he takes out his moodiness on me and i ask him if he's okay every time he seems sad, ask if he wants to talk about it and if i should stop asking if its annoying him, but nooo i guess communication is NO LONGER A THING so eVERY sINGLE tIME something like that hPAPpens he says "no its fine" in that weird "no its fine" voice that my autistic booty does not understand. and when i am sad. and am clearly sad. like holding back tears sad. sometimes even i do actually cry he doesn't give two shits and liek what am i even to him???? i thought we're friends?? but he's also super rude too and insults/curses at me a lot (i do stand up for myself) so i am fricking SICK of it i am salty hahahaha i am EXTREMELY sick of putting so much effort into a friendship that i don't receive back like this happens with literally every person am i just toxic or do i attract toxic people? who's the toxic one? me for expecting that or is this just an autistic thing to desire kindness in return for your kindness? i am genuinely confused and am probably gonna stop talking to him soon if this keeps up

bro i just went into such a huge rant in a planet minecraft skin post description wtf

my emotional bullshitting kinda just dissapeared sorry if you were expecting something meaningful

being a sophomore is weird honestly

sorry kings queens and tax evadees