The tomboy ---> trans femboy pipeline is craazzyy

Quite (un)funny how I've already cut out 2 entire chapters for a relatively interesting beginning and had to temporarily get rid of 2 characters for a better pacing. Just so you know, I had like, 5 chapters planned out. Now I only have 2 chapters worth of story and have to figure out how to move all the important stuff from the deleted scenes to next chapters (I do have a general plot, I'm talking about the chapters that were planned out fully).

At first my intention was to write a story in a rather simple way — just describing whatever the heck is happening and that's it. And here I am, trying to make the beginning engaging, wondering what POV to use, trying to write less straightforward and more pleasing, changing the story just so it blends with the writing, thinking about logic way more than I did before, cutting out scenes that feel unnatural...

I'm just writing a real book at this point instead of a little cringy fic. This takes far more time than I expected. I'll have such a hard time translating it into English...

Anyway, once again, I really hope it turns out good... ish, at least. If I ever feel confident with the written chapters, I'll post 'em. Right now though, I fear that I'll have to rewrite a lot, so that basically means no publishing until everything's finished.

No, I do not intend on making long wallposts everyday. I just had a lot of thoughts and stuff. Thanks to whoever cares to read all that.

До скорого, ай гесс.

Happy Mother's Day :)

!!YAPPING WARNING!! !!ОГРОМНЫЙ МУЖИК В БРОНЕЖИЛЕТЕ!!

I'm done with music. For the rest of the month.

Turns out music addiction exists. Turns out it's bad. Wow. Who would've thought.

I listen to a lot of music, though. I listen to it for hours, all while spinning around my flat. I'm regularly trying to discover new songs. I memorize the lyrics. I decompose them. I translate them in my mind. I'm whispering them to myself the whole day.

The good thing is, I'm not really suffering as of right now. I don't have much trouble falling asleep and I still enjoy music as always.

But, yeah, I'm addicted. Having melodies and lyrics in your head at all times kinda sucks ass. Spending hours just listening to stuff also doesn't strike with me.

So, just for the sake of it, I won't be listening to music for the rest of the month, as I said. Just to see what happens (if happens at all)



Already having a hard time when hearing any melody playing. Instant reminder to mumble something.

Another annoying thing is... my characters. You see, a lot of organisations and characters from my universe were based on songs (either that, or I might've found fitting songs for some later on).

Pale Association? — When The Weak Go Marching In
Deuce Association? — Traffic Jam
Dante? — First Death
Lyra? — Through Me To You, DOKUZU

So, yeah. All the time I just have an urge to— to snap the sinew I want to get within you I want to scar the tissue butterfly and rectify you

To end the post, here are my favorites that you must listen to:

Mili — favorite Japanese band (favorite album: To Kill A Living Book)
Дайте танк (!) — favorite Russian band
Ferry — favorite vocaloid musician
Ado — favorite singer (shares the place with Mili's vocalist)

That's it. If you're reading this, you're probably insane (or genuinely interested in the topic ig)

My next objective is murdering "TikTok attention span" syndrome in me. Not once have I watched a TikTok, but YouTube's making me procrastinate so damn much. Skill issue tbh.

Аривидерчи ор смфн айдк

The good and the bad thing about my whole "chelyabacorpse" nickname is that if you Google it, you'll get pretty much EVERYTHING that involves me, (except the things where I use other names of course, like this account for example) because who the heck else would think of a name like this.


Unrelated to all of the above: I've found a comfortable way to sign my drawings. I didn't do it before 'cause:
1) Who tf would want to steal my shitty scribbles
2) I didn't want to put damn watermarks over my art and just making a signature in the corner is useless.

From now on I think I'll have a signature, but with a little twist, in case someone tries to cover it. Or maybe I won't, I don't care that much, I'm getting, what, 1-2 likes on Tumblr? Yeah, no way someone steals from a nameless person. This will be of more use if I ever make a VK account or smth.